tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13781966.post112997819258059359..comments2023-03-29T12:34:43.346-04:00Comments on Almost Never a Dull Moment: I love it, but.....Katyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01371786921716813638noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13781966.post-1130031577368295022005-10-22T21:39:00.000-04:002005-10-22T21:39:00.000-04:00The pain of this has been far from the worst in my...The pain of this has been far from the worst in my life. There are hopes broken, plans crushed, and I have been ripped away from the stability that I have sought. Even in this, I look forward to new plans, and new hope in the opportunities that are now open in the ashes of my marriage.<BR/>Planning for the worst case has been my way of life, my way of preparing for loss even before it happens. In its worst form, this path has caused loss that perhaps may never have been there at all; a cruel irony in my life. My reasons for unrepentently staying like this go deep; to a point of my life that you and I only discussed a few times, my grandmother. Now, it is an instrument of my survival, both in uniform, and out. This is not a way that most people should live, let alone you, and I am sorry for bringing that into your life, among other things. I hope you do not allow it to be a factor in your own happiness. <BR/>There is no need in apologizing to me for what you have felt in my troubles. I have been the cause of enough of your own to vindicate any joy you have taken from this. Whether it is right for you to do so is a matter for yourself, but no apology to me is warranted.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03471068489246274612noreply@blogger.com