Dancing Queen

Those that know me know how much I LOVE to dance. Last night was a Rick's night just like every other Friday night. I actually left to get there early as I was tired of sitting at home by myself....mom was going to be really late getting there anyway. When I got there part of the group was already there...just like usual. The pool tables had been taken out though. A few of the guys HAVE to play pool so they left to go to Wildwood Pub; one of those guys happens to be mom's boyfriend. He asked if I was going to come join them and it was then that I realized the band that was playing: Dixz Highway!!! I told them to have fun as I was staying to hear them. Dixz Highway...one of my favorite local bands!!! I try to be at Rick's at least one of the two nights any weekend that they play. Well last night, I wasn't planning on staying too late, but the next thing I knew....it was 2! WOW! I'd not stayed out that late in who knows when (having to teach during the week will do that to you) What a great time....ended up winning a CD of theirs for dancing, flirted with the bass player (like usual..we have been since July), drank nothing but water and just had a blast. I love the friends that I have made there and in fact that's where I"ll be for New Year's Eve tonight (not Rick's but one of my friends' place).

Have a great day. Be careful and safe. Don't do anything stupid tonight!!!

Motivation

All I needed was the little bit of motivation I got last night at my Mary Kay holiday party. I"ll tell you what. I was out there today like it was my job....oh, it is! hehehe Met an owner of a brand new bridal shop in Reading. She's a real sweety and fun! So we've exchanged information and cards so we can recruit for each other. Her place is www.readingbridaloutlet.com She's on Benson Street right at Reading Road almost. At her store, I left a thing to win a free facial and $50 gift certificate. I did the same thing at Salon Rapport in Loveland. Don, the owner, has cut my hair for nearly 20 years now. Craziness...yes, he was my first "real" haircut. Hopefully I'll be able to drum up some business out of this!

I just needed to go out and do it and I did. (now if I only had the same motivation to clean around here)

Hopefully I'll get subbing jobs in Lexington once I get down there....maybe even in Winchester. I should call the board there and get on their list.

Well, with business starting (hopefully) to boom, I'm hoping to be quite busy before I move. I need to come into some money...or find a sugar daddy!

Lexington....

OK OK I know I've said that I'm moving to Lexington, but I'm SO excited. It's going to be a GRAND adventure. I overheard someone say to their husband on Christmas, "Is there any of your cousins that you could live with like they are?" The answer was a most definite NO. J and I have an amazing relationship. Hell we've had this relationship all our lives. I certainly don't remember the 6 weeks I lived without him and I can't imagine him not being there.

I happen to like the city of Lexington quite a bit. No it's not the size of Cincinnati, but it's not small town America either. (tried that...don't do well there). Our apartment....can't beat the price. $530 for a 2bed/2bath that's 936 sqare feet?! I mean really! Can't beat the location. 5 minutes from Man O'War, 5 minutes from New Circle (the 2 ring roads of the city), 2 minutes from my "brother's" house, and about 10 from the scrapbook store! Jobs: not yet, but I talked to a friend who's down there and they said that everyone and their brother is hiring in Hamburg so I'll start looking there.

It's just going to be great! Lexington will never be the same again! hehehe I can't even remember any major argument between J and I. Sure I had to put him in his place a few times, but nothing to the point of us not talking or anything. woo hoo!!! Ok, I"m out to go find something to do. I have a paycheck that got misplaced in all of the moving....it's only $25, but hey...that's a tank of gas! (almost)

I'm over it.

Christmas ended up being pretty good. New clothes, rent $$, desperate housewives first season!, scrapping supplies and a 3.5 foot nutcracker. Who could ask for more? The part I'm over though is being fake towards one member of our family and his wife. I'm done. I'm not catering to them just because they think and act like they have money. Growing up there were 4 of us that made a pact that we would not be like our fathers....he's done just that and taken it to the next level. How does a person think it's ok to listen to what his wife says when she says he's "not allowed" to talk to his own mother and brother?!?! Heh, not to mention his cousins. It's been like this WAY too long. Other than not catering to it, I'm not totally sure on what to do. I'm sure it'll be interesting as J and I move in together to see how his brother reacts.

The Christmas Spirit....

I don't know what it is, but I just don't have it this year. I know that's WAY shocking coming from the one that's dragging out the decorations and turning on the music Friday after Thanksgiving while shopping. It's just not me this year. Hell, it's practially here and I'm not ready and still no spirit.

I do think that part of it has to do with everything that is going on/has been going on in my life lately. Lots of BIG things have happened in recent weeks. Right now, I just want to get everything together to move.....not even focused on Christmas. Oh well, maybe next year.

It's been a whirlwind.....

It's kind of funny how things happen. 4 months ago, I didn't want to leave to go to school. Now here I am, graduated and can't wait to get back down there. The decision has been made. I AM moving to Lexington with J. I can't wait. It's going to be so much fun!!! While we were driving down on Tuesday, we caught a plastic bag on the antenna....one of the funniest things ever! He and I were just laughing SO hard. Aunt Debi looked at us and said, "You two sound exactly the way you did when you were 2 years old playing with pots and pans on the floor of the kitchen." That makes me really happy. Here we are 20 some years later and can still by just as happy and such with each other. This is going to be a GREAT adventure! Somehow I can't believe it....but it gets even better!!!!! I'm going to be living only 2 minutes from my "brother's" hhouse!!!! Let me tell you about exciting! We both are so excited and can't wait!!!

At first I wasn't gung ho on it all, but J and I had a heart to heart and he just looked at me and said, "Katy, what is holding you here?" He's right....there's nothing keeping me here. I don't have the responsibility of a relationship or kids. Hell I didn't even totally have a job to come home to. I have my Mary Kay that can go anywhere! It's time!

As far as the "fairly serious" question... I asked that because of a converstation I had. Someone I know flew to MI see a girl. (the man NEVER flies and HATES cold). This person, only about 2 weeks later is driving to see this same girl and spend Christmas with her. I asked if they were getting serious, and the comment made to me was "fairly serious". My speculation is anything like that must be more than fairly serious. Just an observation. I honestly don't care who this person dates. If he's happy, then I"m happy for him.

All graduated

Whew....I"m done! I never thought this day would come! I"m all done! Pictures and lunch with the president went great! My speech was awesome! It was just an all in all great day! Drove home after checking out of "home" and went straight to the store. That was great! It's real different in there right now. Anyway, in a nutshell is how my days have been since Saturday.

Sunday - Got up, went to church, heard the contata (and my little cousin sing a solo....way to go Zach!), came home, unpacked the car, went to a Bengals/graduation party, came home and crashed.

Yesterday - Got up, stopped by grandma and grandpa's. Got a BEAUTIFUL white gold and diamond bracelet from them (it's X's and O's all the way around with the O's being diamonds) headed to Lex. with Aunt Debi and JT, made the decision that I am going to move to Lexington with JT. Throughout the day, I talked to my "brother" He appologized for not being at my graduation, but it was b.c he was in the hospital! I couldn't believe it. I told him, of course, not to worry about it since he was in the hospital. He said, I did hear your speech though. I was a little confused. He had his sister drive down to graduation and had him on the phone during my speech so he could hear it in the hospital. I love that family!!!

Today - Headed back to Lex. to look at some more apartments.

There are several other things that I want to comment/ponder, but we'll get to those later!!! For now....what does the term "fairly serious" when used in a relationship mean to you?

Well....this is it.

Here I am. It's my last day with my kiddos. There were days that I didn't think it'd come soon enough. I don't want to leave them though. I didn't sleep much last night. Maybe it's becuase of the nap I took yesterday. Maybe it's because I'm like a little kid at Christmas ...especially since we're having our Christmas party today. There are gifts galore in that room!

Just look at them underneath my "tree". (I thought it was a cute idea at least!!) Well I should finish up getting ready. Have a good one!!

Only 2 more days until graduation!! AHHHH

This is SO true....

While checking to see what a friend was up to, I found this. I think it is perfect!

You might not be her first, her last, or her only. She's cared about someone else before and possibly will again, but if she cares for you now, then what else matters? She's not perfect and you aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect, but if she can make you laugh at least once, hold onto her & give her the most you can. She might not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break. So don't hurt her, don't change her & don't expect more than she can give. Don't over analyze, smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

Have a great day! I'm almost done! It's hump day!!!

Long, Busy, not totally productive weekend

Well, Saturday was full of nothing really! I worked from 8-11 and also from 8-midnight. Geez, I'm SO glad I'm done working a front desk job. Other than that I ran some needed errands and come home to try to get ready to move a bunch of shit to Cincinnati. I still hadn't heard from Brian as to what time he wanted to leave since we were going to take his car. When I came home from work Sat. night there was someone waiting to talk to me. We talked....FOREVER. It was a very eye opening experience; one that made me happy I'm where I am.

Sunday I got up.....after not much sleep since my conversaion had continued to about 330. Still no word from Brian. I call him and once again get his voicemail. At this point in time, I'm VERY NOT happy with him. So I pack a little bit, but then realize I need some retail therapy. So that's what I do. Went shopping, got myself some things, but I was also able to get some Christmas shopping done as well. Still nothing our of Brian. So I come home and pack some more and give a friend of mine that was wanting to spend some time together before I move a call. He ended up coming over and we hung out for a bit. Ordered pizza, bullshitted, played on Ebay. Next thing we knew it was going on 11 so he left and I headed to bed.

Yesterday my mom saved the day!! I got a call from her while I was at school saying that she was going to get the van and bring it down so we could take a bunch home. Grandpa came too. Man, they were shocked to see how much I had actually finished. In about an hour, we had the van packed to the point where grandpa said that he couldn't see anymore if we put anything else in it. Then it was off to dinner...at Outback!!! WOO HOO!!! Janine and Bobby met up with us there. We laughed and ate and laughed some more. Other than that, I was wiped! I came home and by 9 I was passed out. I needed it though as I could hardly keep my eyes open yesterday at school. That's what happens when you stay up until 330....the next day I'm fine...it's the day after that I'm screwed.

Have a great day yall!!!

What a day....with "Mission Accomplished" at the end

Well I went to bed Thursday night expecting to get up see that we were cancelled for Friday. Heh, NOT the case. I was NOT a happy girl at all Friday morning. Just like a little kid, I continued to watch the school closings until the very last minute. So I head out in the cold to stop by Wal-Mart on my way just as I do every morning. I unlock my door and it's frozen shut. After enough pulling, it opens up. Then I turn it on and realize my idiot light is on E...a VERY LOW E. I head to Wal-Mart so I can get my breakfast, lunch, supplies for an activity and now gas too. I'm headed through the line only to see that I've left my wallet out in the car. So I run back out in the bitter cold to grab it, run back in, pay and head back out. Did you know that the Wal-Mart gas station is NOT open at 7am....even on a weekday?? So I head to the rinky dink gas station that is on the way to school. Well, I start pumping my gas and I'm sitting in my car b.c well, the wind was cutting through me. I look over to see how far it is...and I think ok, only about half a tank more to go. A few seconds later I look over and see it's stopped. I get out to check the nozzle and it's still on "automatic" I life the lever and pull the nozzle myself....nothing. The gas station has now ran out of gas and I don't have a full tank! I run inside to pay and let them know. His response, "probably I knew we were getting low. I do have a truck on it's way today though." I'm thinking...a lot of good that does me now. The only thing at this point that can make my day get worse is for it to be Monday. I get to school 15 minutes late. There are hardly any children there...unusual for this time. Now I'm lucky to have a small class of 19. I only ended up having 12 all day long. It's hard to do group work on the 9 planets when there are only 12 kids! So we made fudge!!

When I got home from school, the fight with UPS was over! I didn't have to drive to N. Lexington to give them a teacher look at all!! It was here waiting on me! WOO HOO!!! I messaged my "wife" and said, "Please tell me we are going to O'Charley's tonight...I NEED it." The answer was yes. I head downstairs to get ready to leave and she informs me that she's sick...not the contageous kind, but still. YUCKY!

So off to O'Charley's we went to see our waiter! Had a grand time as usual. We went in and asked to be sat in his section. The guy sits us there and after a couple minutes, a girl came over and asked us to take our drink order. Well, I just look at Pamela...She looks up and says, "We thought this was Brandon's section." The girl says no. Pamela goes on and says, "We're sorry, but we just asked to be seated in his section." The waitress was very understanding and told the obviously new host where to seat us.

Well, Brandon was in smoking...wasn't really all that bad. We just weren't used to being all the way back there...neither was he. He was glad to see us! (as always...hehehe) Fun times had by all when dining with Brandon as your server. Pamela, not always thinking has 2 drinks on her food empty, but medicine filled stomach which is why the mission started in the first place!

This is my "wife" in all her sick, glory! Isn't she cute!!! :)

So what was the mission?? Wel..Pamela continually knocked over these golden reindeer decorations. As a result it became a real joke. So she asks Brandon if she can take one home. He says, "only if you put one in my car too." The next natural question is well, which one is it?? He tells us which one and tells us the fact that it's unlocked. Well, as we leave, Pamela actually takes them with her. I couldn't believe it. She picks them up in her coat and heads to the bathroom. Well she can't get them zipped in her coat at all. So she folds her coat over and high tails it out the door, without looking suspicious. We pull around to the side of the building where Brandon's car is and he's in it...I roll my window down and say, "Hey Brandon, we've got something for you." He runs back in the building saying, "I can't see this!!" We have pictures to prove our mission:

The reindeer must say one last adieu to one another as they will miss each other.

This is Pamela "breaking into" the unlocked car to leave him a present. As a side note: he had his keys in the ignition and that annoying dinging was going on while we were trying to take care of business!

This is his reindeer waiting for him to drive off into the sunset....well, into the darkness since the sun was well beyond set.

What's the moral of the story???

When you've had a bad day, go to a restaurant and sit in a hot waiters section!

The rest of the story...

I told my sister about loving what she had written so she sent me the entire thing! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

scene 3.
it's cold outside and i like it.when i can feel the tiny places in my hair, the underneath side and behind my ears, that aren't quite dry yet. and there must be a drop or two in my ears because, since my hair is pulled back, i can feel them almost freezing in those little curves and crevices. and way up top where two studded earrings lay side by side... it's cold there too.and my nose must be running at a constant pace by now. my breath bearly beating it, with it's statement right in front. shouldn't the nose win... by a nose though? it is a nose. nosy. a nosy nose with rosy cheeks as neighbors.and they all join in, face freezing, breath breathing, heart beating. in sync.as i walkand walk along a heavily treaded way. and you wouldn't even know it because it looks as though no one has stepped foot here before. until i see others walking ahead of me and look back and see they're coming up from behind... and look side by side and see that some have reached their final destination and are turning back again... they must not have liked what they saw.they must not have known how to appreciate the warmth... where the little places, heads and faces, begin to flush again with heat and hot.what more did they expect.warm grace was not enough.salvation from the chilled at heart.

Also, I had seen this before, long ago, but it was sharted with me again last night. It is TOTALLY true.

One Flaw In Woman
By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak,"
the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH

I'll post later on how my day has been.

Snow Day...

No one needs one more than I do tomorrow. Life has happened....solo week, moving, friends, projects, trying to get to the post office, work...everything! If I got a snow day I could: pack, actually get some sleep worth having, get to the post office (I live "in town"), get things done that I NEED to get done in general. I think my head just might pop off here in a minute!!! I'm at that point where I just want to scream...well, just because! It started getting there yesterday. I calmed down once my phone interview called though....it went REALLY well! I'm VERY excited about that. OK....of course, I need to get things done and not be sitting here typing.

She is so artistic in everyway.

I found this...written by my sister. She is such an amazing writer, singer, artist, etc.

scene 3.
it's cold outside and i like it.when i can feel the tiny places in my hair, the underneath side and behind my ears, that aren't quite dry yet. and there must be a drop or two in my ears because, since my hair is pulled back, i can feel them almost freezing in those little curves and crevices. and way up top where two studded earrings lay side by side... it's cold there too.


I'm in awe of her talent.

Nothing better than....

* when it's cold outside to lay around in your pj's all day.
* when it's warm and raining to walk hand in hand with someone you really care about.
* when you're bored to catch up on sleep!
* when your back is fried to lay on your stomach underneath the fan.
* when you're upset to have some icecream with a girlfriend.

ok....and for a little bit more about me! YAY for stolen surveys! hehehe

I AM: tired, sick of working the desk, ready to move home
I WANT: people to stop asking if I have a job lined up.
I HAVE: great friends and family
I WISH: things were better for some of those I care about.
I HATE: not being able to get everything done I want to get done the way I want it done.
I MISS: home, my "wife", my mom, Skyline
I FEAR: not becoming the person I'm supposed to be.
I HEAR: the tv and my typing like mad!
I WONDER: what people in my past are up to, if I'm going to have any snow days this week (I wish!)
I REGRET: a handful of things, bu they wouldn't make me who I am today.
I LOVE: the little things in life.
I ACHE: in my right gludeous minimus...not sure what I did...woke up like that.
I ALWAYS: have something that aI *should* be doing
I AM NOT: ready to leave Richmond.
I DANCE: when I'm at the bar! or in my car.
I SING: when a song I know is on!
I CRY: a lot....when I'm happy, sad, angry, etc.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: right, even though I like to think so sometimes.
I WRITE: when I have to.
I WIN: board games...when I get to play!
I LOSE: my mind....several times a day! hehehe
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: some genuine TLC
I SHOULD: write lesson plans...UGH

.x. father thinks I am: 12
.x. mother thinks I am: a wonderful daughter doing things she never expeceted me to do
.x. my ex-boyfriend thinks I am: someone he shouldn't have let go
.x. three things you are often complimented for: smile, laugh, way with kids
.x. you get embarrassed when: someone compliments my looks
.x. makes you happy: friends, girl time, my business!, scrapping
.x. upsets you: when unnecessary, negative comments are made on ANY topic.
.x. you keep a diary: blogging and scrapping, I guess
.x. you like to cook: "real" food and not just for one.
.x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yup...I've had this secret since I was 12.
.x. you're in love: not currently
.x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: always....have to anymore
.x. you bite your fingernails: not on purpose
.x. you believe in love: totally

OK...that's enough for the time being. I have to work again today...noon-3

Comments......

I'm not sure exactly what to say to those who left such *sweet* comments for me. Trouble is, I know who you are due to wonderful technology and dective skills. I don't post things to be contraversial or start shit. They're just my thoughts. Those same people who have posted comments are some of the same ones that "stalk" my blog. Do you think I'm going to put some formula for a miracle medicine or something??? Apparently though, my thoughts are so important that people feel the need to not only read the same thing 5 or 6 times in one day, but to also leave nasty comments about my opinions. I'll all for everyone having their own opinion, but I'm not about people being put down for their opinions. Obviously if you had problems you went elsewhere. That's fine, you are entitled to do that. Apparently there are some out there with bitter feelings for whatever reason towards my happy place. This is not the place to take care of those or vent about it, especially since I'm not the person in charge of the decision making in any way.

So I guess what I'm saying in a nutshell is this: have your opinion, but don't put myself (or anyone else for that fact) down for having our own.

100th post is a sad one.

Well, yesterday wasn't exactly what I dreamed it would be. I had to wait to post the information as it hadn't all been totally public yet. Unfortunately, due to mass production companies, the little store that I love and work at is going to have to close it's doors. My happy place will have to change. I LOVE this store and what it has given me as a person. No matter what, any time I've walked through the doors, I was able to smile. Whether I had just gotten into an accident, been left/ left a dumb boy whatever the case may be...it was forgotten there. Thank the Lord for a place like that. My only wish is that I'm able to find another place that can do that for me. How is it that your "boss" is truly a friend?! I had that....it's a rare thing. While it's been a struggle and honestly, hard to believe, it's what is best for her. I understand completely as to why she's doing what she's doing. I'm going to miss my happy place dearly.

On another sad note, (but not near as sad), Pamela and I went to O'Charley's last night and Brandon wasn't there. Not only was he not there, but our waiter was horrible. Now it's very rare that I don't leave a tip at all, but last night was one of those nights. UGH! He made what was supposed to be an enjoyable night, something else to bitch about.

Now, a happy note. I was observed today and it was WONDERFUL!!! I received nothing but excellents! YAY for me! I rock!! :) Only 16 more days til the real world.

2 in less than a week....

It's been an interesting week coming back. On my drive back Saturday night, Brian was on the phone and read me an article about a student, Shawn Samples, who had died in his room. He was found by the RA's Wednesday morning as they were making sure everyone was out of the building for the Thanksgiving holiday. When I came home from school yesterday and talked to Pamela the news was similar. A student, Chase Hall, was found dead yesterday by his roommate in their room on campus. The cases are independant of one another and no foul play is expected in either one.

I feel so bad for the families. Losing a loved one is so hard. It's especially hard this time of the year. In the age that we are in with technology Facebook, of all places, provieded a little more information about one of the students. He had a beautiful girlfriend of 2 years. They were high school sweethearts. As Pamela and I looked at both profiles, we started to cry. It just made it that much more real for some reason.

If you are the praying kind, keep the families, friends and campus in your thoughts and prayers this week.






I almost forgot! GC and I talked last night. It never fails, as soon as I really start to worry and doubt he pulls through. I was kind of blunt and said, "to be completely honest, I've been feeling a bit neglected lately." He responded just as I thought he would with everything going on, etc., etc. However, one thing that I wasn't expecting as I was prepared for the worst (thanks Alex....I think) was this, "I just don't have time for a relationship right now. I know it sucks, but it's the truth. I don't want to give up on us at all." That's all I needed to hear and I was fine. Both of us realize that even with our schedules, it'll be a lot easier on us when I"m at home again. It's only 3 more weeks....at this point in time, we can handle it.

There's no place like home...

Well, we made it back safe and sound. I didn't do much of anything really. I should have done more, but didn't. You know how it is when you've traveled all day and what not; you're just tired. I fell asleep at 10, but woke up at 3 wide awake. I'm contemplating laying back down for at least a little bit. Anyway....GC is home, so I've noticed from his away message actually being on as opposed to being "mobile". I've not heard too much out of him lately so I'm thinking this isn't good. Yeah, sure, timing is bad right now, but it's not THAT bad to never be able to pick up your phone. HMMM....oh well, such is life.
Well, I'm out...if nothing else to do some lesson plans.

Are you done Christmas shopping???

Hey everyone!! Things here in FLA are great still. We had a great time on Marco Island yesterday with family. Today is one of the largest shopping days of the year! The Mary Kay company is having a friendly competition to see who can have a GRAND week. That's right, I'm working on selling $1000 between now and next Friday the 3rd. Because it's one of the largest shopping days of the year, I'm offering 20% off any purchase made on my website today! That's right, sit at home and shop in your pj's. It doesn't matter if the sale is done at 11:59 tonight, you're still eligible for that 20% off. Also, for the next 6 days, you can register once a day to win $1000 as well as a satin hands pampering set. There's no purchase necessary to win. Why fight the crowds when you can head to the website! Help me to help you!! The site is www.marykay.com/katy.clipson If you have any questions, leave a comment here, shoot me an email or call the number on the website! Finally, there are NEVER any shipping charges from my site. I can ship it to you or the recipient at no cost to you!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!

Well it's been a great week down here so far. Last night Pam, mom and I went out. We ended up at the same bar, Channel Mark, as we went to the night before. 4 LIT's (for me) and a few beers (for them) later though with some people we met to another bar called The Surf Shop. There again another LIT for me and a beer for them, which of course were paid for by the guy flirting with all three of us. It's kinda nice going to a bar and not paying for your own drinks! (This guy also bought drinks for us at the Channel Mark) So after all of that they're like come back to his house. The entire time everyone is talking about how much money he has and he had to have a good deal (or at least look like it) as he paid every time with a $100 bill. Anyway, so Pam wants to check out this house. She and I ride in an open air jeep with the guy and one of his friends (who was the one driving) and mom follows in her car as does his neighbor in her car. We hung out there for a while and came home....at 412. It was a blast!

When I got up this morning I had an email saying that I had an order from my website!!! YAY!!! It was my first order on my Mary Kay website! I have been so pumped about it!!! PLUS it's from a woman in Maine that I don't even know. A friend of mine knows her and passed on an email I had sent out and I got an order!! WOO HOO

We're headed to Marco Island today for Turkey Day with the family. It's going to be a great time! Nothing like your Turkey Dinner sitting next to the pool or hot tub in a million+ dollar house. Yes, I have some rich family. In fact, just recently in the Cincinnati Enquirer my "uncle" (really a cousin by marriage) was named #27 on the list of Cincinnati's most profitable business men. I think that was the name...it was something along those lines at least and I know the number is correct.

Anyway, I'd better jet so that I can go get my suit and everything pack as well as some product for people to try out while we're there! Have a great holiday!!!! Be safe.

I know I know....it's been a few days.

I'm sorry for not posting in a couple days. I know it's been since like Thursday or something. Friday night was O'Charley's with Pamela. We have a waiter there that we like to go see so every couple weeks or so on a Friday we go and ask to be seated in his section where ever it may be. This time we go in and do the same and one of the hostesses looks at us and goes, "Are one of you his girlfriend?" We reply, "No...it's a long story." So eventually we get seated and tell B (to protect the innocent) the story. He goes, "You should have said yeah we both are." hehehe. Anyway, we always have a blast eating there with him and we always get something for free. This week it happened to be dessert. He looks at us after dinner and asks if we want any ice cream on me. Pamela and I just look at each other and laugh and then say yes. Side note... O'Charley's has the best ice cream! So anyway, we eat our ice cream and leave him a note, as usual. Pamela had already written on a napkin lyrics from Dirks Bently's latest "Come a little closer" so I added...Thanks for the ice cream "on you" YAY for fun times!!

Saturday was a big day for me. At 630 I got up to finish packing my suitcase and then had my last two Praxis tests. They really weren't all that difficult! YAY for that! After testing was over, mom came to campus and we packed the car and headed to Florida!!! Yup...We made it from Richmond to Ft. Myers in 14 hours!!! This included getting to Knoxville right as the losing UT game got out, construction that was stop and go in all of N. Georgia (which to my Ft. Oglethorpe viewer, we stopped there for some gas and snacks) and we also hit Atlanta just as the GA Tech game was getting ready to start. All in all we made some kick ass time! And no we didn't hit 3 digits...hell we didn't even hit 85.

So yesterday was just coming in and relaxing. We didn't do too much. Today we're not totally sure of the plan. I'm going to get my hair done at some point in time, finally. We also are prolly going to meet some family for lunch or dinner. Other than that, it's just running around doing what we want. Tomorrow I'm doing a Mary Kay party for 8 women!!! It's going to be great. Hopefully I'll make some $$$$ Granted they are all older women just wanting to have a fun time, but hopefully I can get some at least Christmas presents or gift certificates sold to them!! YAY!

Well I think we have some company over so I'm out. I'm sure I'll update in a day or so though!!

I got it!!!!!!!

Well, It's me!!! I'm the Fall 05 morning Commencement Speaker. Last month, I got a letter from the VP of student affairs office asking me to apply. So thinking, what the hell, I did. Well, last week they called me wanting me to interview. Monday evening, I did. Tuesday night after Senate, I asked Amy Jo what she had thought about it all. She and I walked into the interview at the same time and actually she was supposed to be after me, but due to the fact that we had a joint SGA meeting Monday, I told her to go in first. Apparently she talked me up in her interview too! Thanks AJ!!! Well, when I asked her about it Tuesday she was like, did you get it?!?! I said, I don't know. I've not gotten any calls about it or anything. She said, "Oh, he emailed me today and told me I didn't." I thought, well ok. I hadn't checked my EKU email so I ran back here and checked it. There was nothing. I double checked my caller ID in my room...and still nothing. So then I just continued on with my night and didn't think much of it. Well, yesterday was a wierd day. My teacher had an ARC and so she went to that while a sub came in (for liability) and I taught. Next thing I know, the phone rings...I don't think anything of it as the sub was there and answering it. Next thing I know, he's like, Ms. C_____ you have a phone call. "Who the hell is calling me at school?!" and "Oh no! What's wrong?" is what ran through my mind in the 3 seconds it took me to get to the phone. The secretary, Vicki, was on the phone and says, Dr. Conneely is on the phone for you and I'm going to put you through. I go ok. Well he hops on the phone and goes, "Katy, it's Jim Conneely. How are you today?" "Fine ", I reply. "Well, the committee has made its decision and really liked what you had to say in your message and has chosen you to be the commencement speaker!" I was so thrilled! He went on with a couple other housekeeping things and then we hung up. I screamed when I got off the phone. So the kids go, Miss. C______ why did you just scream bloody murder?! I explained to them what was going on. Questions started a flyin'! "Are you going to be on tv?" "Yes, there's going to be a huge press release done on me." "Can we come with you?" "I don't care if you come to hear me. I can't bring you, you're parents will have to bring you to it." Then one of my boys starts chanting my last name. The next thing I know, ALL of my kids are chanting. I got them calmed down and we started back to work. YAY!!!!!!!

Other than that....the day was fine. It was hump day, so Pamela and I had some girl time together. We ate at Wendy's (with Ben) and talked wedding talk...for the "whenever it happens" as girls do. (all for her and none for me as she's WAY closer to that time than I am) But I REALLY need to get going for school!! I just wanted to share my excitement!! Have a great day!!!!

They woke me up....

Last night we had some not so good weather. It was windy and rainy and just yuck. Well, I was laying in bed and I heard the weather siren go off. I didn't think anything of it really. Maybe it's because at home they send it off if someone sneezes too hard and it's got a spray. So I just roll over. I"m almost asleep when all this commotion is going on outside my door and I hear hall staff knocking on doors. They knock on mine. I was just gonna stay in bed, but I thought, no they'll get me for something so I get up, throw some clothes decent enough to open the door on and go see what they want. Now the girl that's an RA here on my floor couldn't look you in the eye if her life depended on it....really bothers me. It'd be one thing if she wasn't an American and didn't do it, but well, she is. So while looking over to the side she goes I need you to go downstairs. At this point in time I'm pissed. So, I come back in, put different clothes on and get ready to go downstairs. Well, there's Jen at the desk. Jen knows me. She's one of our "stand-in" RHC's. I look at her and go, what if I go back upstairs? Some people were already asleep and get up at 530 in the morning. She knows my crazy schedule and knows that I teach all day long. Well, she just looks at me and goes, you can do what you want, we have to tell you during a city warning. NOW here's my beef with that statement. I have lived here for 4.5 years. Not a SINGLE time have they done this before. I know that the policy didn't just change overnight. THEN...if we really don't have to go downstairs, the RA's need to be saying, you may want to go downstairs for the tornado warning...not "I need you to go downstairs" UGH Then of course I was woken up again when all the "girls" came back upstairs and their commotion screaming up and down the halls. I never thought I'd be ready to move out of here as much as I am!

Now that it's out of my system....

Life has been totally crazy lately. Once I get them, I'll have to post some of the pics from Sat. night. I unfortunatly had to work, so I didn't get to go out, but Liz was in town so she, Pamela and Amber went to Budda's for some drinking fun. I was just getting off work when they came home trashed. Those of course make for some fun, hilarious times and pictures. Sunday I drove home and worked for Josette. It was great! We did about $1300 during her open house!!! WAY to go Josette!!! Needless to say I was worn out when I came home. After all of that, I watched Desperate Housewives and fell asleep.
Yesterday was a good day at school. I ended up not doing much more than being a copy bitch. But with as tired as I was, it was fine with me. The methods student that happens to be in our class is interesting. I used to feel sorry for her since she's got 4 kids and drives from Danville. Well, not so much anymore. It's one thing to be late once maybe twice by a few minutes. It's a completly different thing to be late almost every time by at least half an hour AFTER the fact that the teacher has spoken to you about it!!! Now, personally, if I'd been late like that, I'd be making for damn sure that my tail was on time. Oh, did I mention that 2 of her kids are in high school?!?! Yeah, they don't need help getting dressed anymore.
Anyway, after school, I went to an interview and felt pretty good after it. Then I went to a joint SGA meeting. Nothing really was accomplished in my humble opinion. So I stopped by a friend's to see how his papers are coming for a class. Then b.c I'm such a sweet person and it was raining AND I had my car over there, I drove him to his night class. I came home and it wasn't much longer before I was passed out. I was gone before 9. Slept HARD. For the second night in a row, I had a wierd dream about GC and I. hmmm.....wonder what it means.
Speaking of GC, the university isn't changing its bullshit decision. So, right now he's out looking for a full time job that will pay overtime as well. Not to mention, for the second weekend in a row, his car got broken into. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers.
Well, I need to finish getting ready for school today. There will be a sub for the afternoon today which means I have to teach this afternoon. Oh well! As long as the kids are being good I might do something special for them.

You are NOT the face of SGA

I get really tired of seeing one person time after time after time in every damn article or picture of an SGA event that typically he had NOTHING to do with yet feels the need to be in the limelight like he planned and put on the whole thing on his own. This has actually bothered me for some time. It was able to be curbed somewhat last year, but not so much this year.
Doing and saying socially inappropriate things is NOT funny or cool. I've felt this way for a long time now. I was made even more aware of it when your face was on the news this morning. Also, don't spend your time telling a group of people one thing and then turn around and say something completly opposite to administration. Another thing to not worry about...ME! Why put so much energy into getting rid of someone when they are graduating in a month?? Hello, I'm getting rid of myself without your help!! Should you run for a higher office next year, I really fear not only for the students who will still be here, but the administration and the future of the SGA. AHHH!!! You just make me want to scream!!!

Half way through a LONG weekend.

Well, I'm so wiped out that I fell asleep at work this morning! I NEVER do that. I was supposed to go to the game today, but as soon as I got home from work, I was totally passed out. I didn't get up until about 330ish. When the game starts at 130 that doesn't do too well for getting to see any of it. Oh well, we won anyway.
Pamela called me about 5 to see what was going on since I didn't show up to the game. She and Liz want me to go downtown with them tonight, but I have to go back to work from 8-12. UGH!
Last night was ok. Went to Brian's to help him write a couple papers. Got them almost done. That's actually where I am now....helping him write these papers. Oh well, at least I'm getting paid to tutor him! Actually, as a result I'm going to be tutoring a couple others as well. Yes, I can fit it into my schedule....somehow.
Tomorrow I'l be driving home for the day to help my sales director with her Open House again. Up and back in the same day. At least I'll be doing something I love and it'll be fun.
I don't know what's going on with GC and I. I'm definatly feeling neglected by him. Granted, he's going through some tough shit right now, but still. I'm trying to take it easy and just keep in my head that it'll all be better once I graduate and head back home for good. It's just hard sometimes to keep that in mind when you're upset or what not. Oh well, such is life.
Mom was texting me from Rick's last night. I was really missing being home with everyone there. It's truly a family. Any of them would do just about anything for someone else in the group. That's how a group of friends needs to be.
Well, I'm gonna get back to helping Brian on the papers since I have to go to work at 8. Talk to you later.

Quoteable Quotes

The following are things that were said at the Ethics Conference on Friday last week. They can be used in response to a multitude of things.

"You don't just turn your back on a relationship you've had for years." - Tim Brown, former CEO oand President of Thomas Industries, inc.

"Honesty, Loyalty, Integrity and Trust. You either bring these things or you don't. If you don't, we don't want you." - Dean Luchsinger, Corporate Manager of Audit, Compliance and Ethics for Bechtel Systems and Infrastructure, Inc.

"Ethical decisions aren't based on what's right and wrong; they are between right and more right." - Dean Luchsinger, Corporate Manager of Audit, Compliance and Ethics for Bechtel Systems and Infrastructure, Inc.

"It's easy to do things right, but it's harder to do the right thing." - Joanne Glasser, President Eastern Kentucky University.

"The currency of democracy is public education." - Mike Caudill, Superintendant of Madison County Schools

"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere." - Martin Luther King, used by Mike Caudill in luncheon talk.


Now one of my personal favorites would be a letter that I got yesterday from one of my students.

"About Mrs. C______: Mrs. C______s really nice. And shes from ohio. And I like her. A lot. She is the best. Will I think shes good but most of al the best. Shes the best student techer."

Ok kids, it's gonna be a long one. After school today I'm headed to Prestonsburg to do some recruiting. Catch ya on the flip side!

Randomness

Ever have those times when people randomly come into or back into your life? That's totally how it's been lately. There are a handful of people that I haven't talked to in years or thought that I'd never talk to again that have just popped in. I'm not sure what to make of it or what the reasoning is at this point. I guess I'll figure it out as time goes on.

What's with people checking a blog 17 times a day?? Ok, maybe not 17, but I did have a record breaker the other day.....are yall ready for this?? 6 times! That's right ladies and gentleman. The same person checked my blog 6 times in one day. Now, I do good if I update once a day. If I'm REALLY bored, I might do a second one even though I should be writing lesson plans or what not, but I can promise you, I will NEVER update 6 times in one day.

I'm feeling "old". This discussion was had last night with one of my best friends, my big "brother". He told me that if I were to come visit him I'd look at him and tell him that he's old. Well, not so much. I feel the same way. I was telling him how one day last week my kids were talking about having of gone to bed at like 930 or 10. That very same night, I was asleep by 8. It's crazy! I have so much more to get done in the day, but I can't even stay up as late as a second grader!!!

Oh well. Speaking of second graders, I need to go print off all my lessons and worksheets before I head to school. Have a good one.

What a GREAT weekend!!

Oh my gosh!! This weekend was so much fun!!! It was just great to be home. Mom was totally surprised by me showing up. I went in and stood at one end of our table for a few seconds. She didn't notice me so I ran up and hugged her from behind and yelled, "Happy Birthday Mom!!" She just looked at me and said, "What the hell are you doing here?!?!" I reply, "well, it's Friday night so I'm at Rick's and it happens to be your birthday so I came home." I had a great time, one of the best time's I've had at Rick's in a VERY long time. Also Friday, one of my favorite bands ever, Dix Z Highway, was playing! I was out on the dance floor FOREVER!! I even ended up winning one of their CD's for shakin' what my momma gave me!

Saturday was great too. I went to the store and hung out for a while. It was great to see everyone! Got a HUGE sale while I was there when someone mentioned Christmas shopping. I was like, well I have all of our holiday things out in my car if you want to see them. They were like yeah! YAY for me!! $250 in about 20 minutes. I'll take that ANY day. Saturday night was Chippendales. I called GC to let him know what we were up to. His response, "nice honey, have fun!" Thanks sweetie!!WOW! Yeah it was fun, but not totally the thing you think it is. We got to Jillian's at about 730. The doors opened at 9 and we ended up getting a VIP seat at a table. The show didn't actually start until 11. They danced, but there was a lot of time spent where they had women come up on stage for a lap dance. That's all fine and dandy if you want to pay $20 for a 5 second lap dance. Yeah, not so much for me. However...I did like watching them dance!!! Here's a pic of my favorite, Lane.

Look at that YUMMY chest!!!!

Sunday was good too! I worked for Josette at her open house. Things went really well. In fact, I'm gonna drive home on Sunday again this weekend to help her out! Good for her and good for me!!! Drove back and relaxed. Woo hoo!!

Today I was in a pretty good mood at school. I needed to go to school today to get some rest from my crazy weekend. School was good today though. I was happy to be back with the kiddos! They were happy to have me back too. This evening Pamela and I went to Lexington and decided to have Outback for dinner! Yummy!! It was great and tasted so good.

I think that's about all for now. If more pops into my head...I'll write it down, maybe.

Friday is here!

This week has gone by amazingly fast. It makes me VERY happy that it has. I'm gonna need the mom time tonight! I'm excited that she has NO clue! One of our friend's called me last night while I was working and asked if I wanted to go see the Chipendales Dancers Saturday. Looks like we'll be headed to see them! That will be tons 'o fun. Well, I'll be headed provided GC isn't going to make time for me in his busy schedule.

So, it's a good thing I woke up this morning. I laid down to watch a movie last night, not planning on falling asleep. Well, I woke up an hour or so before I had to get up this morning....I went to go turn my alarm off and I hadn't set it! OOPS!!!

The ethics conference started off on a great note yesterday! I'm so excited about that! Today should be even better. It happens to be my favorite day as the CEO's will be there!!!!

Well, I'm gonna go piddle around for a bit before I have to get ready. Peace.

A few days off...

I think I'm really in need of what is about to happen. I'm off from teaching today, tomorrow and next Tuesday. Today and tomorrow is the "Face to Face with Ethics Conference" here at EKU. It's going to be similar to the conference I was at last year at West Point, just on a much smaller scale. I'm not going as a participant, but a facilitator. There will not be another college student in my position. I feel honored to be chosen to fulfill this capacity. I am the student that continues to sit on the committee though. My only problem with going is that my eyes are swollen from tears last night.

I just don't know what to do about my situation. I feel like I'm being blown off by GC. Yes, we are both stressed with various things in life and school, but that didn't seem to matter a month and a half ago. I know it's going to work it's way out in whatever way it's supposed to. I also know that things will be easier on us in a few months when I'm moved back at home. As Pamela reminded me, "Relationships aren't meant to be long distance." She and I both know this first hand.

This weekend I'm going home to surprise mom. Her birthday is on Saturday and I'm going to show up at Rich's Friday night to surprise her. GC is welcome to come...if he gets ahold of me so I can tell him. I'm just excited to get go to on a Friday night...it's litterally been months since I've been there with everyone. I think it'll be something I need! Saturday I'm getting a cut and color. Another thing I'm excited about as I get to spend time with Linda, my best friend from high school. I've not seen her in almost a year!

Well, I really do need to get going and get dressed and ready for the conference. Oh yeah, the pic is of Pamela and I at Hooter's Monday after Trick-or-Treating.

Have a good day! Hopefully I will too!

I'm quitting life

Tonight....not so good. End of story.

<---- This is what Pamela has to say about the reason I feel the way I do. (Yes, that's her and yes she took that picture of herself with my camera)

It simply amazes me...

I was just checking to see who has looked at my blog recently due to my wonderful counter. I'm amazed at the fact that there are people out there who check my blog 3 and 4 times a day. I didn't realize it was THAT interesting. I don't know how to feel about it really. Part of me wants to be flattered, but then another part of me wants to be like, "Do you not have anything else to do in your life???" Oh well.

Is a title really needed?

Well, nothing too exciting has gone on the past day and a half or so. Monday night, I went with Jennifer, Andy, and Pamela to take Logan trick-or-treating. How many adults does it take to get 1 7 year old through Halloween?? Apparently 4. After trick-or-treating we went ot Hooter's for dinner. Poor Logan was so wiped out that he fell asleep at the table. We all got some great pics of it though! (maybe one day I'll get pictures on this) Other than that, not too much excitement. Yesterday wasn't exactly the greatest of days...wasn't the worst, but not the greatest. I had a dream that I was at school and someone called (don't know who) and told me something (don't know what) that sent me sobbing. I didn't get that call or anything, but I did get some info yesterday afternoon that made me want to do that. GC is fine, but is going through some rough times right now. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers please. That's really all I'm at liberty to say.

So I went to bed at like 9 with a headache and now here I sit needing to get ready for the day with no lesson plans typed. Oh well....not like I'm gonna teach hardly at all today anyway...The practicum student is in our class today too. I'm just rambling so I'm gonna go get ready for the day. "Seacrest, Out"

I can't believe I did that!!!

So I get back last night and realize that I've forgotten my little "wallet" that has my driver's lisence, student ID, debit card, credit card, etc in it. I thought I had gotten everything out of a purse that I used Saturday night, but apparently I didn't. The thing that really gets me is that not only did mom ask me as we were walking out the door if I had everything, but I forgot something of grand importance last time I went home! Thanks to mom for overnighting things to me!

Feels like a long time.

It's been since Wednesday since I've posted anything and that feels like forever!! Well, for those of you who check my blog 2, 3, 4 times a day, here you go:

Thursday - School went pretty well. The week was really dragging and so was I. I came home and didn't do too much. I took a nap, got up for a little bit and hung out with Pamela and Neil for a bit and then pretty much went back to bed.

Friday - I decided that the worst day to be a teacher is one where you have a class party. People don't be have like they should and it's just plain old craziness. On my way home from school, grandma and grandpa called me as they were coming home from Florida. So, I got to go out to eat and visit with them for a while. It was great! Grandma did her usual "sly" slip of the money when they were leaving. I always know when that's coming as she reaches for my hand right after she hugs me. YAY for free dinner and $20 extra!!

Saturday - Got up to go to work and that was exciting. (not really) Then I drove home. When I got home, mom and I went to the grocery.....after I got stung by a bee. Damn bees!! I'm allergic to bee stings just short of needing an epipen. (it's itching like crazy now) Anyway, while at the grocery it dawned on me that going to the grocery with your mom at 22 just isn't as exciting as it is when you are 4. So anyway, I ran a couple errands when we got back. While I was out, I ran into a couple of the girls that mom and I hang out with at Rick's. They talked me into going to our Halloween party even though GC was in Chicago this weekend. Well, I went and had a blast. We were all dressed up at the bar. It was so much fun! Afterward, I came home and went to bed excited about the extra hour of sleep.

Today - Nothing too exciting when I up. Hung around for a bit just relaxing. Mom went up to the Flea Market with Dutch for a while. However this afternoon/evening we went to a festival at one of the local Y's as my great uncle was playing in this harmonica group there. At first I was like, I can't believe I'm gonna be late getting back to campus b.c of a harmonica concert. It was interesting though. Then we all went to their house for drinks, dinner and dessert. I had a good ab workout laughing at stories that were being told and mom's side comments to things. About 9 it was time to hit the road. So I hopped in the car and came on back. Made good time. I was in my room at 1030!

There's the update that yall who read this regularly (and sometimes obsessivly) have been looking for. I'm beat and headed to bed. Have a good one!

The Ultimate Compliment

WOW! I got the best compliment in the world today!!! My cooperating tacher got a call and she had to leave school this morning for about an hour or so. She called down to the principal to let her know what was going on and just left. I was out of the room with a student when all the phone calls went down. I came back in and she told me she was leaving and just to go on with our normal morning routine. Why is that the ultimate compliment??? I've only been in this classroom a week and a half and here she is telling the principal that they don't need to get someone to come into the room as I'm there and know what I'm doing! It was a great feeling!

GC took his last exam today! Thank God he's done.....for a while. He's been so stressed out about it that he's now sick. His stressing out got me stressed out for him too. Oh well. Unfortunatly I can't spend the weekend with him like we could as he's flying to Chicago with his family to see other family this weekend. Oh well. I'll be home in less than 2 months and we'll be able to spend a lot more time together.

Well, I still need to eat dinner and get a few little things done. Catch ya later!

It's only Tuesday...

...and it's already a long week. Last night I was going to post, but I passed out at 8. I was SO tired. I love my kids, but man do they wear me out. After the weekend I had though, I needed the sleep. Sure in the long run it was good that everything happened the way it did this weekend, but boy was I a hot mess while it was all going on. Saturday night all I wanted was a hug. GC wasn't here, my twin was with her man, my "wife" was with her man in Georgetown, my brother couldn't answer his phone and my friend that was gonna let me stay had to go be a DD. It was craziness.

Tonight was parent/teacher conferences. That was a learning experience in it's own. WOW! I came home to check emails and my dad left me one. It wasn't anything that I expected to see at all. Sure it had the typical, I miss you etc. stuff, but this also included comments on how he's never seen a "young person" as well suited for their career as I am. He also said that I have talents with children that he could only dream of having and then if he did have them he wouldn't know what to do with them. I was beyond shocked.

GC has another exam tomorrow. Thank God it'll be the last one....til the end of the semester! Exam weeks are VERY difficult on him which in turn makes me crazy b.c I don't get to spend as much time wihth him as I'd like. School is more important and I just have to remind myself of that. It'll all be better once I graduate.

Well, lesson plans are a calling my name! Check ya later!

It's amazing what one comment can do...

I had a breakthrough tonight. I had a wonderful conversation with my ex, Alex. The things I'd been feeling have been lifted. Tears were shed, of course, but they were a mixture of good and bad. I feel that I'm able to move on totally in my life as far as my dating relationships are concerned. I don't have those old feelings any more.

Alex and I spoke of things that had changed in our lives...in several areas. Much of the conversation doesn't really need to have great detail spoken about it. Just know that I feel at peace now...like I have full closure on that part of my life. Will he and I talk again? Probably. I still learn from him. I still like to hear his point of view. It will be interesting to see how things play out down the road. (and no I don't mean in terms of us getting back together as that couldn't happen)

In other news...I went to the game after all tonight. Boy am I glad I did!!! We won in the last 10 seconds...33-32! It was a blast...nervewrecking, but a blast.

I love it, but.....

waking up just after 6 on Saturday morning isn't excatly my idea of fun. I love teaching. Yes at the end of the day I'm wiped out, but that doesn't mean on my one morning that I can sleep almost as late as I want that I have to wake up at 6!!!

So what do you do at 6 am when you are wide awake?? I think...and that gets me in trouble. I start questioning people's "truths" (as truth really is relative I learned about 2 years ago) I also start to think about all the things that I really should get done....not just lesson plans, but you know cleaning, dishes, sending emails...all those "fun" things. But one of the worst things to think about , and I do, is home. I was never this big on going home and being with my mom and my comforts there. Yeah I'm independant, but come on, even the most emotionless person wants to go home to their mom every once in a while. The other worst thing to think about is the past. I start to think about the shit I've gone through in the past 5 years. Even I have to take my happy mask off sometimes. Unfortunately for me during part of that time I was constantly told to think about the worst case scenario and have that in the back of my mind (just so you can be prepared for it). Up until right before my 21st birthday I didn't worry too much about the worse case scenario. Well, that person got it in my head. I do that now. Let me tell you, it sucks thinking that way. And when you are a "crier" it sucks even more! I try not to let my past affect how I think/act towards the men in my life, but it's really hard. I need to talk to GC about it. He needs to know why I do some of the things I do; why I think some of the thinks I think.

I didn't get on here to just be sad and sappy....who wants that?! I certainly don't. Who wants to read it?! I'd bet that most of you don't. I hopped onto my blog this morning to see what I ended up writing. What's on my heart; What I'm thinking; What I'm feeling. There is one thing I've felt the urge to say for sometime and I know this person has been reading my blog:
Alex...I want you to know that there is a small part of me that will always love you. You were my first love, my first bit of hope in what was going on at the time. I will never forget what you did for me during that time of hurt in my life. I also know that somewhere deep inside you is not the bitter, emotionless man that you have a tendancy to portray. You are going through a rough time right now and I'm truly sorry, one hundred times over, for using your hurt to make me feel better in recent months. You and I both know that that isn't really the person I am. I've been blessed to not go through what you are going through now, but I wish that you didn't have what is sitting in front of you on your plate. I hate how things ended with us and I wish that it never had to end that harsh. I'm sorry for being immature at times and I'm sorry for some of the thoughts that I had towards you. I feel that I want to say more to you, but I'm not sure exactly of the words to say.

This is where I end this mornings post.

Ever noticed....

How sometimes you just REALLY need your friends and/or someone to talk to. I had a night like that last night. The thing is though, no one seems to be around until you put up an away message that physically says you're crying. THEN people you've not talked to in weeks or even months leave you a message. WTF? You've not talked to me in months, I know you've been around, I'm upset and NOW you want to talk to me? I don't think so.

Yes, I appreciate the concern of those who left it last night. Really, I do. I was already asleep when it was left from everyone though....I didn't even make it to 9 last night. What happened? I think I was just so tired that every little thing was getting to me. You know, it's kind of liek a little kid. You know when kid is tired becuase they start to cry as they just can't handle being up anymore but they are fighting the sleep. I think that's all it really was.

Overall yesterday went well. In fact, it was kind of funny at the end of the day. Some of the kids had already been called to leave so the rest that were in the class were antsy and ready to leave. I went around the room and let them ask questions about me. Well I was getting the typical favorite color, favorite food, etc. Then the questions really started coming one asked if I was married, the answer of course...no, so then it was do you have any kids, no but the one that really got me was directly after that, one of my kids asked if I was available! Yes, ladies and gentlemen you heard that right. I about died. I didn't know what to say at first, but I handled it and then we left for the day.

I really have to get going, but I'm pretty sure I"ll post more later on. Have a good day!

Thought for the day....

While I had a few minutes I was piddling a bit this morning and came across an article that a friend had in her away message. The article talked about "soul mates vs. sole mates" This, though, really stuck out in my mind: When we get married for trivial reasons, we tend to get divorced for trivial reasons.

Chew on that a while! Have a great day.

"Natual Born"

No, I'm not talking physically like a natural birth, but charictaristically. After 3 days in the second grade, my teacher and I sat and talked a few minutes after school. Well, I got the, "You're a Natural Born teacher" talk today....after only 3 days!!! How exciting is that?! We have a good class of 19 kids. Sure there are issues, but over all it's a really good class. She said, I'm not worried about you one bit. Do your thing. I feel excellent reccomendations from both teachers coming in the near future!

Well, it's Wednesday which means that Pamela and I had our weekly girl time. It also means another rewrite to a song! It's been waiting to be rewritten for 2 weeks as we couldn't be together last week. So without any further ado, I give to you our version of John Mellancamp's "Hurt So Good" BTW...this is nothing against him...I went to school with his nephews. We just started singing the song one night and decided that this was the one to redo!

When I was a young girl,
Said put away those young boy dreams
Now that I’m getting older so much older
I long all those young girl days
With a boy like you
With a boy like you
Lord knows there are things we can do, baby
Just me and you
Come on and make it a

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good

You’re gonna need to be excitin’
Just tryin’ to give myself a little bit of fun, yeah
You never did like my bitin’
You make me think you are a nun
Hey baby it’s you
Come on boy now it’s you
Sink yourself right into me, baby
Let’s see what you can do

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good


I’m not talkin’ no wedding bells
I’m not making no plan for that hell
I’m not movin’ to the Dells
Maybe we could layin’ around, all day long,
Layin’ around, all day long

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good
Hey, Hey

So there we are...Not too many lyrics to be changed this week, but we had fun and it's always a good laugh! Have a great one!

Second Grade!

Well, I enjoyed my first day in second grade today. When I got to school today, my teacher nor the principal knew that I was even coming. They were happy to see me, just not so happy with EKU. I don't blame them. I started learning a bit of what the day will be like. It's a long monring, but if you can make it to lunch, you're ok! I saw several people I knew today too. It was crazy to see kids I'd had before at different schools. I really think I'm gonna like it.

GC is doing well. He's definatly happy about the outcome of the game yesterday....I knew he would be. He's gonna see what he can do about coming to see me this weekend, but not sure as his sister wants him to go see her. I understand if he goes to see her, but there's a large part of me that wants him to spend the weekend with me, especially since until I graduate at least it's only going to be the weekends that we get to spend together anyway. Oh well, only 2 more months til I graduate!

Well, I'm wiped out. Have my lessons done and I'm ready to go for tomorrow! Night night and sweet dreams!

Why??

Why is it ok for the head of a building to loose the master key to the building without any reprocutions? I came back to school on Friday to a note left on my door about a key core change. I go downstairs pissed that it's going on in the first place, yet calmly ask at the desk, "so why did they all get changed?" The response I got, "Well there's a letter underneath your door explaining it all." HELLO my door is locked and apparently I don't have the key to be able to open it anymore?!

Why do we have pictures of Nemo on our door with our names on them?? Sure, everyone's a big fan of the movie, but why does he have to hang on my door. Who has that much time anyways?!

Why when people are drunk is it 'ok' to leave 'messages' for others who are sleeping soundly?

Why did I wake up at 8am today when I didn't even go to bed until 2 am? I HATE doing that. I've done it the past several days, except it's been more like waking up at 7.

Why when I'm packing do I think of things to pack, but don't remember to pack them. I forgot my phone charger and my video that I'm supposed to transfer my lessons to at home. Luckily I have the best mom in the world and she is going to overnight my charger tomorrow. I don't know if my phone will last until Tuesday so I may go buy a car charger as I don't have one anyway.

Why is it that 'educated' people feel the need to not spell out entire words just becuase they are posting on internet message boards. Hello, if you are trying to get published or onto a design team, don't you think it might be helpful to show that you know the language??? Also, the word AN comes before a word that starts with a vowel/vowel sound. A comes before the others. Else is spelled just like that....NOT elece!

Why do people feel the need to cut others down, but then aren't big enough to "show" their face. To my friends who leave nice messages and comments I'm sorry that you can no longer post unless you are a member. I thought things had stopped with the anonymous poster, but I was wrong. I know who this person is and this person creates drama just to create drama.

Why did I not find my ticker earlier?!?! I LOVE it! Not only does it track how many hits I get, but it tells me the exact location of where people signed on and where they got my link. It's so neat to check it out as there are people from all over the states as well as a few from outside the states that check it on a regular basis. It's pretty neat!

Ok...I'm done venting. Life is good...I start in second grade tomorrow at my new school. I'm really excited about it!

Happy Sweetest Day!!!

Today has been pretty great. I woke up and went to work. After work Pamela called on her way home from bowling and we ran and grabbed lunch together. Then I went to one of my other jobs....prolly my most favorite, recruiting for EKU, specifically for the COE. While I was there I got to talk to some of my favorite people in administration. I tell you what, I just love Dr. Aaron Thompson to pieces!!! Well, while I was rubbing elbows and kissing babies, I missed GC's phone call. That's ok. He left the world's longest vm. He just wanted to tell me what they were up to and wish me a Happy Sweetest Day. So then I walk into the building and I ended up showing a perspective student and her family my room as well as the rest of the building. They were really nice and from an area back home! Took a nap afterwards, and now I"m eating and getting ready to go to work. Not a boring day, not a thrilling day, just a good day!!

Happy Sweetest Day!!!!!

"I'm like Ronald McDonald.....

...I just love to see you smile!" Yes, this would be one of the "lines" that GC used last night when we were hanging out, but I love it! I had missed him SOOO much and he felt the same way. He came over for dinner with mom and Dutch. It was great. He was just so comfortable with them as soon as he walked in the door. What I love, he wasn't afraid to kiss me in front of them! So after dinner, we're just standing there in the kitchen kissing and talking and mom comes in and is like get out of my kitchen and go show him the rest of the place. So we do. Of course the last stop is my room where, yes, we made out some. But that wasn't the important part. Right now there is stuff all over the basement as we are looking at having to move. So in 100% honesty, the only surface to sit on is my bed. So we sit on the edge of the bed and just kinda lay back. He just sat there holding me and looking at my face and kissing my forhead. It was getting to be later than he had planned on leaving so we went upstairs and got ready for him to leave. Well, mom stood up and gave him a hug!!! In the 6 weeks that Randall lived here she never hugged him, but she gave GC a huge hug last night!!! YAY!!! So we walked out to the car and I showed him a couple cards I had designed lately and a couple layouts. He liked them. Then we went out to his car where we stood and talked for a bit and kissed a couple more times and right before he got into his car, he leaned down and kissed my forhead.

After he left, I came back in and mom was like, "He's a dollbaby. He's a keeper. I like him a lot." We talked a little bit more and I was like, "mom I think he's probably better than everyone else I've been with." She said, "yeah, there's no doubt in my mind about that."

So that was my great evening with GC. He did appologize for being a "bad" boyfriend and not seeing me more this week. I told him that I kept trying to tell myself that it he wasn't off this week and it was midterm.

Today, I'm headed back to school....I have to work at 8 so I'm not in any real rush to get back, as long as I"m back in time for work. I'm gonna run out and pick up my $$ from the store and get an oil change and all that fun "adult" stuff I'm beginning to have to do on my own. Catch yall later!

So I'm a worrier....

well, I know GC is having a really bad week. I've not hardly talked to him. The past few days I've talked to him at least like 2 minutes, but not yesterday. I can't help but worry; it's just the way I am. Can I help it that I want to see him while I"m home?! Most girls like seeing their boyfriends when they can. I know we have this "pact" that family and school is more important than each other...because, well....it is. However, I just wish that he'd even call me or message me back and say, "you know honey....I don't have much time this week. It's midterm and you know how I am about needing to study." *big sigh*

*sigh*

So I feel better tonight....Worked from 10-7 today at my happy place!! About an hour or so before I was gonna leave, my sister and noodlebutton brought me Skyline!!! I LOVE Skyline! So I ate a little bit of it and saved the rest for dinner after I came home. I talked to GC today...he's had a hard day, and really a hard weekend/beginning of the week. I"ll be able to spend a little time with him (hopefully) at least one night this week and help cheer him up. I got a call from my MK director today and she wants to hire me as her administrative assistant!! YAY for me!! I'm gonna have some money coming in once I graduate!!! I also caught up with my best friend from high school. We lost contact due to some technical difficulties...that and her dad being and ass. SO all in all, it was a good day! Tomorrow I'm gonna go to work for a bit, hopefully catch up with Linda and see my neice and even better would be if I got some GC time.

Hope yall had a good day!!!

Home....

Coming home has been pretty good so far. I went to the store and scrapped all day yesterday. It felt so good to be in my happy place again! I told Patty that I was coming home after Dec so she was very happy about that! YAY for me too b.c that means I'll have at least a little bit of $$ coming in while I"m looking for a job. I did have a rough night last night though. I came home and it was so empty. Mom stayed with Dutch last night. I tried to get ahold of GC....but nothing. We talked about 2 seconds online. He had just gotten in from wrestling practice and was going to take a shower....he said he'd call in a "lil bit". That was at 738. I never did get that phone call. I was going crazy being here all by myself. A little after 10 I decided to take a walk....Walked a decent bit, not sure exactly how far though. All I know is that I was gone til just before 11 walking. Oh well. What am I doing up?!?! I don't know...I just sat straight up....partially due to the fact I forgot to put the sleep timer on the tv last night...partially b.c I'm a worrier. (especially since he's only been idle for a little bit, under an hour)

GC is supposed to be coming to see me today as my sister wants to meet him/remember who he is. He was a sr her sophmore year of high school. I"m going to work at the store some today. Yay for a little extra cash!!!

100 Questions and Answers.....

1. Kissed your cousin? not in the way you are thinking
2. Ran away? yup....packed my suitcase a couple of times and headed off to grandma and grandpas...thank God they only lived a block away since I was only 4!
3. Pictured your crush naked? pictured isn't exactly the word for it ;)
4. Skipped school? not this semester, but yes....I LOVE "personal" days. or days when it was like, "hey it's pretty outside, I think I'm gonna skip class."
5. Broken someone's heart? I think it's a possability.
6.Been in love? for sure
7. Cried when someone died? uh yeah, I'm a crier...I cry at everything...even when I don't mean to!
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have? haven't we all??
9. Broken a bone? actually I've not...I've come woah close, but no
10. Done something embarrasing? just about everyday...it's just a matter of if someone actually sees it.
11. Done a drug? if you are counting nicotine and alcohol as drugs then yes, otherwise, no
12. Cried in school? *see answer to #7*
13. Coke or Pepsi? Coke
14. Sprite or 7UP? Whichever
15. Girls or Guys? Guy...one in particular....although, ask Pamela, she and I are married! heheheh
16. Flowers or Candy? Shouldn't a girl be spoiled and get both??
17. Scruff or Clean shaved? in the middle.
18. Blondes or Brunettes? red head all the way!
19. Too Fat or Too Skinny? what exactly is the definition of "too" ?
20. Tall or Short? I'm short.
21. Pants or Shorts? pants
22. Night or Day? for what?!?! That question leaves things WIDE open

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX.........
23. What do you notice first? smile (teeth) and then eyes
24. Last person you slow danced with? heh....slow danced....I don't remember the last time, hopefully that'll change soon.
25. Worst question to ask? "Are you sure??"
26. Showered? earlier
27. Stepped outside? just a few minutes ago when I was coming home from work.
28. Had Sex? heh.....take a wilde guess

STUFF...
30. Your Good Luck Charm: uhh...not really sure what I use.
31. Person You Hate Most: I don't know that I honestly hate anyone....but there are several people whom I STRONGLY dislike for one reason or another.
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: getting a second chance
33. On your desk: computer, senate binder, random jewelry, pen box, stapler, paper clip holder, tape dispenser (with tape), 3-hole punch, scanner, remote, cell phone, graduation info, Haitian box, sunglasses (in their case)....I think that's about it
34. Picture on your desktop: fall leaves
35. Color: blue!

FAVORITES..
36. Movie: hehe.....movies are great! I love comedies, harry potter, and "chic flicks"
37. Music artist: don't know that there is one favorite
38. Cars: I could be really sappy and say my man's...I do really like his car.
39. Ice Cream: greater's
40. Season: spring
41. Breakfast Food: breakfast casserole

WHO...
42. Makes you laugh the most: GC, he's awesome about that!!
43. Makes you smile: my friends, my mommy, GC!
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: Katie, Pamela, GC, mom
45. Has A Crush On You: I think GC might...well he did for 5 years, and now we're together
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: see above
47. Who Has it easier? kids....oh to be a kid again!!!!
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: What kind of funny feeling?? Like that butterflies in your stomach, high school crush feeling?

DO YOU EVER...
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night:there are times I do...I try not to, so I just put the phone by my bed and if it rings I check the caller ID
50. Save MSN conversations: not MSN....but others.
51. Save E-mails: the important ones
52. Forward secret E-mails: Secret??? there are secret emails???
53. Wish you were someone else: no...I'd have someone else's problems...I'll just stick with my own.
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: not usually...although I do think it's easier to be a guy than it is a girl.
55. Wear perfume: yup...usually it's Velocity by Mary Kay.
56. Kiss: ugh....YEAH!!! Just ask GC ;)
57. Cuddle: once again, ask GC
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: my eyes would hurt.

HAVE YOU EVER...
59. Fallen for your best friend? uh huh
60. Made out with JUST a friend? yup..everyone needs some makeout time everyonce in a while
61. Kissed two people in the same day? I dont' think so....
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day? definatly not
63. Been rejected? who hasn't?
64. Been in love? sure have
65. Been in lust? yup
66. Used someone? prolly
67. Been used? heh....don't get me started
68. Cheated on someone? never would
69. Been cheated on? it's the reason I'm not married
70. Been kissed? yeah.....GC
71. Done something you regret? I try not to regret things...but it's not always easy

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched? ummm.....some kid leaned over the desk and touched me...other than that it'd prolly be Pamela
73. You talked to? Scott...online
74. You hugged? GC
75. You instant messaged? Scott
76. You kissed? GC
77. You yelled at? Tom...in a nice way as GC and I were passing the porch last night
78. You thought about? GC
79. Who text messaged you? GC
80. Who broke your heart? dumb boys....

DO YOU...
82. Color your hair? every once in a great while
83. Have tattoos? no....thought about it
84. Have piercings? ears, and belly button....used to have tongue
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yup : D GC!
86. Own a webcam? uh huh
87. Own a thong? yup
88. Ever get off the computer? uhhh yeah....
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? ein bischen
90. Habla espanol? not really
91. Quack? not usually....sometimes you need to in class though when you teach elementary kids

HAVE YOU / DO YOU/ ARE YOU?
92. Stolen anything: yes
93. Smoke: in the past
94. Schizophrenic: no
95. Obsessive: yes
96. Compulsive: yes
97. Obsessive compulsive: yes
98. Panic: who doesn't?
99. Anxiety: not usually
100. Depressed: heh...let's not go there


Once again, something I found from Pamela!!! Why not add silly things like this?!?! It makes life fun and interesting!