What are we???

That would be the question I asked SS this evening. The response??? "I don't know....I hate these conversations....I get stressed out easily; you know that." So I ask, "are you just totally going to avoid the topic then (as he continues to go on and talk about what he's doing)" He replies, "Yes."

So what's that mean?? We have plans for future events....baseball games (May), Dallas (possibly....in July), etc but then again no "title." Are we exclusive?? I'd at least like to know that much.

Update....

SO yeah...I've not posted in a while. I'll do my "famous" bulleted list.

• Indy was GREAT!!! Awesome training...wonderful girlfriend time....Best way ever to get on focus.
• Saw my band Saturday night. I definitly wasn't planning on going to see them...however, I got a call no lie as I was just leaving my director's house to head to mom's. So I went....walked in the door to the bar and went straight to the dance floor. Didn't leave the dance floor until oh...3am. They asked us to go out to eat with them, but I had been up since 6am and had things to get done before leaving to come back to Lexington.
• Sunday was relativly relaxing...maybe that's because as soon as I got back to Lexington I passed out for the afternoon dead dog tired.
• Yesterday was spent running around doing errands. While at a branch of the bank I'd never been to before I ran into a friend that I went all through college with her and her husband. She works there and will now be my personal banker!
  
• Today...I walked approximatly 200 flights of stairs while haning up flyers for the resident appreciation. I'll be feeling it tomorrow!

So in a nutshell....there it is. I really want to rant and rave about things, but I shall save it for another time and place.

Gender Stereotyping

I really hate being stereotyped for something.

Growing up...if there was one thing that I'd pick out that is practical that my dad taught me it is some knowledge about cars. Now, by NO means am I saying I know everything or even half of everything, BUT I will venture to say that I know more than the average girl. Before I even had my drivers permit, I could check and add all fluid levels in the car, change my spark plugs as well as change the oil. It wasn't until several years later that I learned how to change a tire....kind of ironic I think. Anyway, as years went on...I learned even more about the car that I used to drive. I changed the idle pulley and serpentine belt on it as well as other minor things like windshield wipers and rearview mirrors.

Now, I say all of this because I took my car to the shop today. Not just any shop, I drove up to Cincy last night to take it this morning to the shop that has literally watched me grow up. Well the guy who "took care of me" this morning when I told him what was wrong he goes, "Did you run over something??" I said "no" He then continues on to say, "Are you sure...there are a lot of things that can leak out under a car." I reply with,"well, oil is that black stuff right??...that's what's under the car." The guy who runs the place and who has known me since I was itty bitty then walks into the garage and I just say good morning to him and have a little warm chatter. The new guy who was taking care of me then was much more careful in how he voiced his opinions.

It kills me because I know that if I lost the boobs, grew a penis and was wearing the same exact clothing (jeans, a hoodie and tennis shoes) that he would have never questioned if I knew what it was. MEN!

Moving on....this weekend is Career Conference in Indy!! I'm so stinkin' excited!!! I'm ready to learn some new things and to just have some good ol' girlfriend time.

Also, since my last post this is what has been going on:

• Tuesday night went to Owenton with SS, his brother and his brother's girlfriend to see wrestling. Yes....wrestling....you know the kind you see on tv. It wasn't as bad as I expected and I definitely got an education.
• I got the go-ahead from the apartment manager to put out a flyer for resident appreciation. Friday the 31st they are having resident appreciation and so I wanted to do something special to get my name out there and begin working the complex much more. I asked if I could do a drawing and such....she said yes and if I wanted to put out a flyer I could. YAY!!
• Saw my wonderful friend Nicole last night before I headed up to Cincy. Blake was at her parents' and Chris was at the library studying so we had some time for just the two of us to chill.
• Mom cancelled her interviews in FLA!!!! It doesn't mean she's not moving...it's just going to be put off for about 6 months....that's ok with me...I'll take all the time I can get!

I think that's about it in a nutshell!!!

Have a super, terrific, wonderful day!!!!

Dreamin' Big

OK...I've made the decision. I'm done being where I am in my business. Don't get me wrong I don't hate it and things are going well, but I'm just going to shift into a higher gear. I've got a big goal and I'm REALLY wanting to acheive it. My new goal poster says at the top, "By Seminar I will...." There are 3 major categories for that I will. They are:

1. Original Car Team (12 women....finished on the way through DIQ and on to Director)
   
2. Pearl Star (4800 star credits: personal wholesale and qualified recruits to make this number)
   
3. My Unit (30 active women at least 12 being personal recruits for car qualification)
   

That's right! I've set a HUGE goal. The star has to be completed by June 15th as that's the end of the quarter. I have until June 30th to finish becoming a director.

There are many of you who read this religiously. I'm asking for your help too. There are several things you can do to help me.

1. Order from my website or call my voicemail toll free at 1-866-584-1325.
   
2. Have some girlfriend time either at my place or yours and earn free product. If you are long distance...like WAY long distance you can host a virtual party and earn free product just as if you were actually having the party in one of our homes.
   
3. Refer others to me for the purchasing skin care or color cosmetics.
4. Let me know if you know someone (you or someone else) who needs a little something extra in their lives and might like to join my team.
   

Hey fellas, I don't want you to feel left out. We have a new men's grooming set as well as I can send gifts and/or gift certificates to you or your special someone from you!

Thank you all in advance for cheering me on and helping me to reach my big goal!!!!

Confusion

I'm so confused on what I want right now. Wife... Mommy...I love the thought of becoming those things. I am with someone special "SS". ( I don't want to jinx it by saying anything more than that right here about SS as that usually messes it all up) I do have SS right now. Is that it though?? Is it "right now"? SS is great! Does the right things, says the right things....more so than the "norm" of just trying to get into a girl's pants. But I don't want to get hurt. I walk the fine line. My past, well, it's my past, but it's made me who I am right here right now...the good, the bad, the ugly. It seems that it's only natural to fear being hurt...right? Lately though, I feel as if I almost set it up to get hurt or to fuck things up. Last night being prime example....but I'm not going into it here.
I'm at "that age" where all your friends and acquaintences are starting to get married and have families. There's a part of me that feels like I have to scramble and hurry and catch up. I liked it when it was me being the first in the group to get married....now, it's just about dead last. Do you know how many weddings I'm a part of or going to this year alone?!?! Really brings a whole new meaning to the phrase "always a bridesmaid never a bride" (or in some cases the make-up artist).
I mean, I don't want to rush into anything and make a HUGE mistake like almost happened once in my life. But damnit, my childhood dream/timeline is all kinds of fucked up now. No one wants that to happen. All I want is to be treated like the princess I am...hahaha...a low-maintenence princess at that.
I'm by no means dependent on a man. Hell, I own my own business. I pay my own bills. I don't run to mommy and daddy when things get tough; even though a part of me wants to do just that.
Financially, I can take care of myself just fine.
Emotionally, I'm pretty stable...we all have our moments, espeically when a "visior" is here. Physically, batteries can only do so much.....not to mention, pillows don't cuddle back....your blanket doesn't push your hair out of your face or stare into your eyes.

I can handle being on my own and living by myself....it's the companionship that I miss. But then I look at SS...and it's great...I'm my quirky self and he's ok with that. Sure there are pet peeves that I have about him and I'm sure he has about me....and looking at us, you'd never put us together, but that's what makes life interesting.
I don't know what I think or feel right now...hence the confusion. I guess I just needed to get it off my chest and I can come back to it at another time.

On to today ...the sleeping thing...yeah, not working so much. Then again, the phone call I got from a friend at 3am saying that they were in my parking lot didn't help either. However, I was still awake. So I guess I'm happy for that reason. We did have a discussion about that fact though. Plus, I've always been one that can't sleep in even when I've gotten little sleep. So I finally got to bed about 5 and was up by 11. Maybe it'll help me sleep tonight if I can force myself to not take a nap.

Beth and I are supposed to go out this afternoon. She and I haven't gotten to spend any time together...hell I've not spent any time with hardly any of my friends. I was gone in Cincinnati only to come back while they were on spring break.

On another happy note....I put on a skirt the other day that I've not worn since last spring and yay!!! It was a bit big. If I were buying it today, I'd buy a size smaller. That's good. The best part is I'm not even trying...it just happens.

So yeah....Saturday afternoon...no sleep last night ... still in pj's...(which I should prolly remedy since Beth is supposed to be up here in Lexington at any time now)...haven't eaten yet today...confused about boys (nothing totally new)...missed St. Patty's day (and I'm a damn Irish)...venting. Sounds normal to me....I think.

I'm rambling more than usual...I'm out.

Always have a DD... Designated Driver or Designated Drinker. Your choice!

Sleepless in Lexington

UGH... I'm really getting sick of not being able to sleep. I'm so freakin tired during the day and then when I finally go to bed at night it's like midnight (due to talking to someone special before we both go to sleep), but then it never fails. At random times, I wake up! This morning it was 438, and 612 before I finally got up at 814. I don't understand it! It's been like this most the week. I don't think I'm worried about anything. I don't have caffiene at night. I just don't know what it is. Whatever it is needs to leave me alone!!! NOW!

Ok....moving on. Not too much going on here this weekend. I need to finish my taxes.....I had everything written out and can't find my paper that I put it on. J is going home to see Grits this weekend. So my first weekend back, I'll be home alone. : (

I know I'm goofy

So in looking at someone else's profile earlier, I thought I'd add a couple quizzes that seem to be dead on. Now do I truly beleive in these things, no. Does it amaze me at how dead on they are sometimes, yes.

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have many true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

What Type of Weather Are You?

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

I think that's the perfect way to end this! Have a great day yall!

Home (not so) Sweet Home

So I got home about 1130 last night. Excited and happy to be home. I walk in to the kitchen and it's DISGUSTING. The 3 clean dishes that are in the dishwaser are the same ones that I did when I left. The sink is full...on both sides of dirty dishes. There's pasta sauce slopped all over the top of the stove. Now, by no means am I a total neat freak or anything, but that is just disgusting. Not to mention I'm pissed because he thinks he can leave that mess for me to clean up. HELL NO. You made it in the 11 days that I was gone, you can clean it up. "but I'm tired, I work 40+ hours a week" Well you know what, take responsibility and clean up your own damn mess! I could care less what your room looks like (especially since mine is a wreck right now) since it's not "community" space, but the kitchen!?!?! Come on now! I'm not your wife, girlfriend or even freakin' maid....I'm YOUR COUSIN!

*BIG sigh* Ok....now that my rant and rave is done, today will be cleaning, waiting on UPS, going to the post office and prolly stopping by to see someone special. (it's nice that he only works 5 minutes from my apartment)

Ok...I'm out. Peace.

Great end to the weekend!!

Whew...it's been a LONG 11 days here in Cincinnati. Long, yet fast. Well I finally got to go "home" (to mom's) Saturday evening. I was done housesitting. Don't get me wrong I love house sitting and helping others out, but I needed to be back in familar territory.
Saturday night a special someone came and visited me. Sunday morning we got up, headed to IHOP for a yummy breakfast. We ventured to half price book for the sale they were having. Naturally he found something that he needed. Afterwards, we headed to Traders World and Turtle Creek. We had a blast looking at the different things that people buy and sell there. And actually, we found a few things that we needed. T-shirts for mom and I that I haven't picked up yet, but will the next time I'm there for her and I to wear at Rick's one night...going to be funny! But my favorite buy of the day would have to be the movie "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire". It just came out this past Tuesday so how they had it already, we don't know. Do we suspect it maybe to be stolen? well yeah. Oh well...it's a great movie! I of course watched it as soon as he left Sunday to head back to his place. After the movie was over I just relaxed.
I had to hit up the Skyline as I'd not been once since I'd been in Cincinnati and that's sacreligious. I also found some ice cream that he'd talked about forever and it really is delicious! If you need a new flavor or a change try Ben and Jerry's New York Super Fudge Chunk. Pair that up with some Desperate Housewives and you are good to go!
Today will just be some relaxing as I don't think I'm working today. So I might run a few places on this side of the Earth before I go to meeting and then head home. While I love my time spent here, it's not totally home anymore. I"m excited to go home and be in my place and sleep in my bed tonight.
Have a great day yall!!

Riding the Bull....

hurts. Last night went to Rick's as the typical Friday night in Cincinnati. Well the band wasn't very good and Andrea told me that Dixz Highway was playing at Metropolis. So we head over there...especially since I'm not going to be able to see them the weekend they are at Rick's. Anyway, while there I run into Lindsay Veit, her dad, bf and a couple other people. Well they decide I need to ride the bull. Well I did. I didn't last long at all and let me tell you it hurts. Not to mention, it's not NEAR as easy as they make it look!

Just realized....

It's been almost a week since I've updated! I bet yall are tired about reading my rant on my "wonderful" family.

Anyway, it's been a busy week. I"m still in Cincy...will be until Monday. I drove down and back from Richmond Monday night. It went great!! Ended up leaving with a new personal team member!! Tuesday got my "har did" That was great...got to see my best friend and my neice. Once I'm home and can post pics of the new cut I will. Wednesday I worked all day, ran to drop off product. I knew the address but wasn't really sure on where I was headed. The offices I ended up in were none other than the GE Aircraft offices. WOW! YEAH! Ended up missing the girl, but that's ok. Had dinner at mom's and came back to Josette's. Yesterday, worked in the morning, went back to GE. Gave her the product and she tells me, "there's not a single person here who sells." So I hand her more cards and samples. Not 10 minutes later she calls me and says there's someone who'd like to place an order. WOW!! Rock on!!! Today it's more office work, and then the usual Cincinnati Friday night at Rick's. Hopefully it'll be better than last week. Tomorrow....work and Josette and family comes home. Sunday Traders World with someone. Monday work and back to Lexington.

There's the reader's digest version of everything! Have a great day!!!

Not so cute...

Friday night was a real doosey. While housesitting I was pulling together things for errands to do because I'm housesitting on the opposite side of the world from where any and everything is. So I drive over to the part of town where I grew up to get my errands done and meet family for dinner at a new restaraunt. Go to the store I used to work at, sold lipstick and gloss, and headed to dinner. I go to the restaraunt and tell the hostess that which group I'm looking for. She replies, "Oh, they called and cancelled the reservation." I tell her "thanks" and turn around and walk out. I was SO pissed. I call my dad to see if they had called him...nope, nothing. Call my cousin, whom I live with and knew I would be there, he didn't answer his phone. I was hot. So I go to my dads and I'm like this is just shitty. I"m tired of the horrible communication between the men on that side of the family. I had worked up being the bigger person to deal with my cousin and his horrific wife and then they pull this stunt. So I decide to go to Rick's.

Well, things weren't much better there. I overhear my mom talking about going to FLA at the end of the month....to talk to recruiters for the banks down there, a person who I can't stand walks in and is practically on top of me so she can stand where I was standing and then decides she's just going to dive in and eat my dinner. (yes, she really just reached in and ate things like it was ok) I would have had no problem with this if 1. I liked her and 2. she asked. So I go over to another table and sit and talk and what not. I'm still not feeling good so I was like "fuck this shit" and left. Everyone was asking what was wrong, but I really didn't feel like getting kicked out for starting a fight so I just didn't answer. UGH! Not so cute

Yesterday was great....stayed in my pj's all day and organized and cleaned. I love days like that! I know it's wierd, but I love to organize! crazy...I know! It was also a friends birthday so when I woke up at 830 (thanks dog) I rolled over, grabbed my phone and called and woke him up! Surprisingly he wasn't mad....he does the same thing! So yeah, we talked off and on all day yesterday (which isn't really any different than normal) And that was my day.

Today...more cleaning and organizing. Maybe a little designing for some flyers and postcards. But really, a laid back day.

Realization....

I've come a LONG way in 2 years. Yesterday marks the anniversary of a huge life change. Those close to me know what the life change could possibly be. In 2 years I have:

• loved and hated
• graduated college with 2 teaching certificates...while holding the honor of being the commencement speaker
• built my politcal career
• moved to a different state
• completed every semester there forward on the dean's list
• found out parts of who I am...we're constantly learning on this one.
• started my own business
• "grown up" - I use the term loosly
• built stronger friendships that would have never happened
• really realized that "everything happens for a reason"
• made peace with multiple people
• excommunicated drama
• honed personal skills and abilities that were being held back
• bought a new car
• become an "aunt"....again :)
• really realized that people aren't who they say they are....most the time. There are exceptions to every rule
• helped passed MAJOR policy on a campus near and dear to my heart
• become involved heavily in professional organizations.. that would have never been able to happen
• reunited with people from my past

and most importantly....

• learned to love again

Here's to the past 2 years that played a huge part into who I am and what I am and who I will become!!! A LOT can (and does) happen in 2 years. Here's to many more!!!!

Feels like forever

..since I've posted. Things have been a bit on the crazy side. I've been spending time with various friends this week due to the fact that I am, now, in Cincinnati until the 13th. Feels like my rent $$ this month is more like a storage spot. Because once I go home from Cincinnati...I'm home about 10 days and turn around to go to Career Conference in Indy. So the past few days have just been packing and making decisions on what to do with everything the next few weeks. Paying bills early (never a bad thing), running errands, etc. etc.

Oh, and as of March 1 I am officially a KY resident. WOW...that's kind of scary.....actually, it's a lot scary.

Well, more work to be done here at Josette's so I'll catch up later!