Whew. Where to start.
So the whole checking back for changes...yeah that's kind of been put on hold.
Life around here has been interesting. I had a second interview with a job last week that I was for sure was mine. Friday afternoon....not so good. Got the call with the typical, "We really liked you. You interview great, but we're giving the job to someone else. I know you'll find something. Can I keep your information for if things change?"
I know you'll find something....No, you don't. I don't think this person realized how long I've been looking. I've been looking and keeping my eyes out since I started the job I hated at the hospital. I've been activly looking since the end of August/beginning of September.
Between the economy and me not having a job, there are many nights around here where I wish I could just sleep for a little bit to forget about it all, but I can't. (hence the reason I'm posting at 5 am).
We're at the point of looking in different states and comparing living costs vs. salaries to see if even moving would help at all.
It seems to be that if I were an accountant, engineer or a nurse I could have my pick of jobs in my pick of loactions. However, I'm not one of those things. What it comes down to is that I'm either over qualified because I graduated High School and no one wants to pay more than minimum wage, or I'm under qualified beacuse I don't have a masters.
Prayer, that's all I can do....when I'm able.
Depression has really started to kick in as even though my head knows it's not my fault, I can't help but feel like it is. I'm really trying not to take it out on the family, but I'm not perfect by any definition of the word. I just don't want to loose what we've worked so hard to gain.
...and it looks as if that's a possibility.