Saturday, December 31, 2005
Have a great day. Be careful and safe. Don't do anything stupid tonight!!!
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
I just needed to go out and do it and I did. (now if I only had the same motivation to clean around here)
Hopefully I'll get subbing jobs in Lexington once I get down there....maybe even in Winchester. I should call the board there and get on their list.
Well, with business starting (hopefully) to boom, I'm hoping to be quite busy before I move. I need to come into some money...or find a sugar daddy!
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
I happen to like the city of Lexington quite a bit. No it's not the size of Cincinnati, but it's not small town America either. (tried that...don't do well there). Our apartment....can't beat the price. $530 for a 2bed/2bath that's 936 sqare feet?! I mean really! Can't beat the location. 5 minutes from Man O'War, 5 minutes from New Circle (the 2 ring roads of the city), 2 minutes from my "brother's" house, and about 10 from the scrapbook store! Jobs: not yet, but I talked to a friend who's down there and they said that everyone and their brother is hiring in Hamburg so I'll start looking there.
It's just going to be great! Lexington will never be the same again! hehehe I can't even remember any major argument between J and I. Sure I had to put him in his place a few times, but nothing to the point of us not talking or anything. woo hoo!!! Ok, I"m out to go find something to do. I have a paycheck that got misplaced in all of the moving....it's only $25, but hey...that's a tank of gas! (almost)
Monday, December 26, 2005
Friday, December 23, 2005
I do think that part of it has to do with everything that is going on/has been going on in my life lately. Lots of BIG things have happened in recent weeks. Right now, I just want to get everything together to move.....not even focused on Christmas. Oh well, maybe next year.
Thursday, December 22, 2005
At first I wasn't gung ho on it all, but J and I had a heart to heart and he just looked at me and said, "Katy, what is holding you here?" He's right....there's nothing keeping me here. I don't have the responsibility of a relationship or kids. Hell I didn't even totally have a job to come home to. I have my Mary Kay that can go anywhere! It's time!
As far as the "fairly serious" question... I asked that because of a converstation I had. Someone I know flew to MI see a girl. (the man NEVER flies and HATES cold). This person, only about 2 weeks later is driving to see this same girl and spend Christmas with her. I asked if they were getting serious, and the comment made to me was "fairly serious". My speculation is anything like that must be more than fairly serious. Just an observation. I honestly don't care who this person dates. If he's happy, then I"m happy for him.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Sunday - Got up, went to church, heard the contata (and my little cousin sing a solo....way to go Zach!), came home, unpacked the car, went to a Bengals/graduation party, came home and crashed.
Yesterday - Got up, stopped by grandma and grandpa's. Got a BEAUTIFUL white gold and diamond bracelet from them (it's X's and O's all the way around with the O's being diamonds) headed to Lex. with Aunt Debi and JT, made the decision that I am going to move to Lexington with JT. Throughout the day, I talked to my "brother" He appologized for not being at my graduation, but it was b.c he was in the hospital! I couldn't believe it. I told him, of course, not to worry about it since he was in the hospital. He said, I did hear your speech though. I was a little confused. He had his sister drive down to graduation and had him on the phone during my speech so he could hear it in the hospital. I love that family!!!
Today - Headed back to Lex. to look at some more apartments.
There are several other things that I want to comment/ponder, but we'll get to those later!!! For now....what does the term "fairly serious" when used in a relationship mean to you?
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Here I am. It's my last day with my kiddos. There were days that I didn't think it'd come soon enough. I don't want to leave them though. I didn't sleep much last night. Maybe it's becuase of the nap I took yesterday. Maybe it's because I'm like a little kid at Christmas ...especially since we're having our Christmas party today. There are gifts galore in that room!
Just look at them underneath my "tree". (I thought it was a cute idea at least!!) Well I should finish up getting ready. Have a good one!!
Only 2 more days until graduation!! AHHHH
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
You might not be her first, her last, or her only. She's cared about someone else before and possibly will again, but if she cares for you now, then what else matters? She's not perfect and you aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect, but if she can make you laugh at least once, hold onto her & give her the most you can. She might not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break. So don't hurt her, don't change her & don't expect more than she can give. Don't over analyze, smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.
Have a great day! I'm almost done! It's hump day!!!
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Sunday I got up.....after not much sleep since my conversaion had continued to about 330. Still no word from Brian. I call him and once again get his voicemail. At this point in time, I'm VERY NOT happy with him. So I pack a little bit, but then realize I need some retail therapy. So that's what I do. Went shopping, got myself some things, but I was also able to get some Christmas shopping done as well. Still nothing our of Brian. So I come home and pack some more and give a friend of mine that was wanting to spend some time together before I move a call. He ended up coming over and we hung out for a bit. Ordered pizza, bullshitted, played on Ebay. Next thing we knew it was going on 11 so he left and I headed to bed.
Yesterday my mom saved the day!! I got a call from her while I was at school saying that she was going to get the van and bring it down so we could take a bunch home. Grandpa came too. Man, they were shocked to see how much I had actually finished. In about an hour, we had the van packed to the point where grandpa said that he couldn't see anymore if we put anything else in it. Then it was off to dinner...at Outback!!! WOO HOO!!! Janine and Bobby met up with us there. We laughed and ate and laughed some more. Other than that, I was wiped! I came home and by 9 I was passed out. I needed it though as I could hardly keep my eyes open yesterday at school. That's what happens when you stay up until 330....the next day I'm fine...it's the day after that I'm screwed.
Have a great day yall!!!
Saturday, December 10, 2005
When I got home from school, the fight with UPS was over! I didn't have to drive to N. Lexington to give them a teacher look at all!! It was here waiting on me! WOO HOO!!! I messaged my "wife" and said, "Please tell me we are going to O'Charley's tonight...I NEED it." The answer was yes. I head downstairs to get ready to leave and she informs me that she's sick...not the contageous kind, but still. YUCKY!
So off to O'Charley's we went to see our waiter! Had a grand time as usual. We went in and asked to be sat in his section. The guy sits us there and after a couple minutes, a girl came over and asked us to take our drink order. Well, I just look at Pamela...She looks up and says, "We thought this was Brandon's section." The girl says no. Pamela goes on and says, "We're sorry, but we just asked to be seated in his section." The waitress was very understanding and told the obviously new host where to seat us.
Well, Brandon was in smoking...wasn't really all that bad. We just weren't used to being all the way back there...neither was he. He was glad to see us! (as always...hehehe) Fun times had by all when dining with Brandon as your server. Pamela, not always thinking has 2 drinks on her food empty, but medicine filled stomach which is why the mission started in the first place!
This is my "wife" in all her sick, glory! Isn't she cute!!! :)
So what was the mission?? Wel..Pamela continually knocked over these golden reindeer decorations. As a result it became a real joke. So she asks Brandon if she can take one home. He says, "only if you put one in my car too." The next natural question is well, which one is it?? He tells us which one and tells us the fact that it's unlocked. Well, as we leave, Pamela actually takes them with her. I couldn't believe it. She picks them up in her coat and heads to the bathroom. Well she can't get them zipped in her coat at all. So she folds her coat over and high tails it out the door, without looking suspicious. We pull around to the side of the building where Brandon's car is and he's in it...I roll my window down and say, "Hey Brandon, we've got something for you." He runs back in the building saying, "I can't see this!!" We have pictures to prove our mission:
The reindeer must say one last adieu to one another as they will miss each other.
This is Pamela "breaking into" the unlocked car to leave him a present. As a side note: he had his keys in the ignition and that annoying dinging was going on while we were trying to take care of business!
This is his reindeer waiting for him to drive off into the sunset....well, into the darkness since the sun was well beyond set.
What's the moral of the story???
When you've had a bad day, go to a restaurant and sit in a hot waiters section!
Thursday, December 08, 2005
it's cold outside and i like it.when i can feel the tiny places in my hair, the underneath side and behind my ears, that aren't quite dry yet. and there must be a drop or two in my ears because, since my hair is pulled back, i can feel them almost freezing in those little curves and crevices. and way up top where two studded earrings lay side by side... it's cold there too.and my nose must be running at a constant pace by now. my breath bearly beating it, with it's statement right in front. shouldn't the nose win... by a nose though? it is a nose. nosy. a nosy nose with rosy cheeks as neighbors.and they all join in, face freezing, breath breathing, heart beating. in sync.as i walkand walk along a heavily treaded way. and you wouldn't even know it because it looks as though no one has stepped foot here before. until i see others walking ahead of me and look back and see they're coming up from behind... and look side by side and see that some have reached their final destination and are turning back again... they must not have liked what they saw.they must not have known how to appreciate the warmth... where the little places, heads and faces, begin to flush again with heat and hot.what more did they expect.warm grace was not enough.salvation from the chilled at heart.
Also, I had seen this before, long ago, but it was sharted with me again last night. It is TOTALLY true.
One Flaw In Woman
By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak,"
the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH
I'll post later on how my day has been.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
it's cold outside and i like it.when i can feel the tiny places in my hair, the underneath side and behind my ears, that aren't quite dry yet. and there must be a drop or two in my ears because, since my hair is pulled back, i can feel them almost freezing in those little curves and crevices. and way up top where two studded earrings lay side by side... it's cold there too.
I'm in awe of her talent.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
* when it's warm and raining to walk hand in hand with someone you really care about.
* when you're bored to catch up on sleep!
* when your back is fried to lay on your stomach underneath the fan.
* when you're upset to have some icecream with a girlfriend.
ok....and for a little bit more about me! YAY for stolen surveys! hehehe
I AM: tired, sick of working the desk, ready to move home
I WANT: people to stop asking if I have a job lined up.
I HAVE: great friends and family
I WISH: things were better for some of those I care about.
I HATE: not being able to get everything done I want to get done the way I want it done.
I MISS: home, my "wife", my mom, Skyline
I FEAR: not becoming the person I'm supposed to be.
I HEAR: the tv and my typing like mad!
I WONDER: what people in my past are up to, if I'm going to have any snow days this week (I wish!)
I REGRET: a handful of things, bu they wouldn't make me who I am today.
I LOVE: the little things in life.
I ACHE: in my right gludeous minimus...not sure what I did...woke up like that.
I ALWAYS: have something that aI *should* be doing
I AM NOT: ready to leave Richmond.
I DANCE: when I'm at the bar! or in my car.
I SING: when a song I know is on!
I CRY: a lot....when I'm happy, sad, angry, etc.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: right, even though I like to think so sometimes.
I WRITE: when I have to.
I WIN: board games...when I get to play!
I LOSE: my mind....several times a day! hehehe
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: some genuine TLC
I SHOULD: write lesson plans...UGH
.x. father thinks I am: 12
.x. mother thinks I am: a wonderful daughter doing things she never expeceted me to do
.x. my ex-boyfriend thinks I am: someone he shouldn't have let go
.x. three things you are often complimented for: smile, laugh, way with kids
.x. you get embarrassed when: someone compliments my looks
.x. makes you happy: friends, girl time, my business!, scrapping
.x. upsets you: when unnecessary, negative comments are made on ANY topic.
.x. you keep a diary: blogging and scrapping, I guess
.x. you like to cook: "real" food and not just for one.
.x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yup...I've had this secret since I was 12.
.x. you're in love: not currently
.x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: always....have to anymore
.x. you bite your fingernails: not on purpose
.x. you believe in love: totally
OK...that's enough for the time being. I have to work again today...noon-3
Friday, December 02, 2005
So I guess what I'm saying in a nutshell is this: have your opinion, but don't put myself (or anyone else for that fact) down for having our own.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
On another sad note, (but not near as sad), Pamela and I went to O'Charley's last night and Brandon wasn't there. Not only was he not there, but our waiter was horrible. Now it's very rare that I don't leave a tip at all, but last night was one of those nights. UGH! He made what was supposed to be an enjoyable night, something else to bitch about.
Now, a happy note. I was observed today and it was WONDERFUL!!! I received nothing but excellents! YAY for me! I rock!! :) Only 16 more days til the real world.
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
I feel so bad for the families. Losing a loved one is so hard. It's especially hard this time of the year. In the age that we are in with technology Facebook, of all places, provieded a little more information about one of the students. He had a beautiful girlfriend of 2 years. They were high school sweethearts. As Pamela and I looked at both profiles, we started to cry. It just made it that much more real for some reason.
If you are the praying kind, keep the families, friends and campus in your thoughts and prayers this week.
I almost forgot! GC and I talked last night. It never fails, as soon as I really start to worry and doubt he pulls through. I was kind of blunt and said, "to be completely honest, I've been feeling a bit neglected lately." He responded just as I thought he would with everything going on, etc., etc. However, one thing that I wasn't expecting as I was prepared for the worst (thanks Alex....I think) was this, "I just don't have time for a relationship right now. I know it sucks, but it's the truth. I don't want to give up on us at all." That's all I needed to hear and I was fine. Both of us realize that even with our schedules, it'll be a lot easier on us when I"m at home again. It's only 3 more weeks....at this point in time, we can handle it.
Monday, November 28, 2005
Well, I'm out...if nothing else to do some lesson plans.
Friday, November 25, 2005
Thursday, November 24, 2005
When I got up this morning I had an email saying that I had an order from my website!!! YAY!!! It was my first order on my Mary Kay website! I have been so pumped about it!!! PLUS it's from a woman in Maine that I don't even know. A friend of mine knows her and passed on an email I had sent out and I got an order!! WOO HOO
We're headed to Marco Island today for Turkey Day with the family. It's going to be a great time! Nothing like your Turkey Dinner sitting next to the pool or hot tub in a million+ dollar house. Yes, I have some rich family. In fact, just recently in the Cincinnati Enquirer my "uncle" (really a cousin by marriage) was named #27 on the list of Cincinnati's most profitable business men. I think that was the name...it was something along those lines at least and I know the number is correct.
Anyway, I'd better jet so that I can go get my suit and everything pack as well as some product for people to try out while we're there! Have a great holiday!!!! Be safe.
Monday, November 21, 2005
Saturday was a big day for me. At 630 I got up to finish packing my suitcase and then had my last two Praxis tests. They really weren't all that difficult! YAY for that! After testing was over, mom came to campus and we packed the car and headed to Florida!!! Yup...We made it from Richmond to Ft. Myers in 14 hours!!! This included getting to Knoxville right as the losing UT game got out, construction that was stop and go in all of N. Georgia (which to my Ft. Oglethorpe viewer, we stopped there for some gas and snacks) and we also hit Atlanta just as the GA Tech game was getting ready to start. All in all we made some kick ass time! And no we didn't hit 3 digits...hell we didn't even hit 85.
So yesterday was just coming in and relaxing. We didn't do too much. Today we're not totally sure of the plan. I'm going to get my hair done at some point in time, finally. We also are prolly going to meet some family for lunch or dinner. Other than that, it's just running around doing what we want. Tomorrow I'm doing a Mary Kay party for 8 women!!! It's going to be great. Hopefully I'll make some $$$$ Granted they are all older women just wanting to have a fun time, but hopefully I can get some at least Christmas presents or gift certificates sold to them!! YAY!
Well I think we have some company over so I'm out. I'm sure I'll update in a day or so though!!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Other than that....the day was fine. It was hump day, so Pamela and I had some girl time together. We ate at Wendy's (with Ben) and talked wedding talk...for the "whenever it happens" as girls do. (all for her and none for me as she's WAY closer to that time than I am) But I REALLY need to get going for school!! I just wanted to share my excitement!! Have a great day!!!!
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Yesterday was a good day at school. I ended up not doing much more than being a copy bitch. But with as tired as I was, it was fine with me. The methods student that happens to be in our class is interesting. I used to feel sorry for her since she's got 4 kids and drives from Danville. Well, not so much anymore. It's one thing to be late once maybe twice by a few minutes. It's a completly different thing to be late almost every time by at least half an hour AFTER the fact that the teacher has spoken to you about it!!! Now, personally, if I'd been late like that, I'd be making for damn sure that my tail was on time. Oh, did I mention that 2 of her kids are in high school?!?! Yeah, they don't need help getting dressed anymore.
Anyway, after school, I went to an interview and felt pretty good after it. Then I went to a joint SGA meeting. Nothing really was accomplished in my humble opinion. So I stopped by a friend's to see how his papers are coming for a class. Then b.c I'm such a sweet person and it was raining AND I had my car over there, I drove him to his night class. I came home and it wasn't much longer before I was passed out. I was gone before 9. Slept HARD. For the second night in a row, I had a wierd dream about GC and I. hmmm.....wonder what it means.
Speaking of GC, the university isn't changing its bullshit decision. So, right now he's out looking for a full time job that will pay overtime as well. Not to mention, for the second weekend in a row, his car got broken into. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers.
Well, I need to finish getting ready for school today. There will be a sub for the afternoon today which means I have to teach this afternoon. Oh well! As long as the kids are being good I might do something special for them.
Doing and saying socially inappropriate things is NOT funny or cool. I've felt this way for a long time now. I was made even more aware of it when your face was on the news this morning. Also, don't spend your time telling a group of people one thing and then turn around and say something completly opposite to administration. Another thing to not worry about...ME! Why put so much energy into getting rid of someone when they are graduating in a month?? Hello, I'm getting rid of myself without your help!! Should you run for a higher office next year, I really fear not only for the students who will still be here, but the administration and the future of the SGA. AHHH!!! You just make me want to scream!!!
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Pamela called me about 5 to see what was going on since I didn't show up to the game. She and Liz want me to go downtown with them tonight, but I have to go back to work from 8-12. UGH!
Last night was ok. Went to Brian's to help him write a couple papers. Got them almost done. That's actually where I am now....helping him write these papers. Oh well, at least I'm getting paid to tutor him! Actually, as a result I'm going to be tutoring a couple others as well. Yes, I can fit it into my schedule....somehow.
Tomorrow I'l be driving home for the day to help my sales director with her Open House again. Up and back in the same day. At least I'll be doing something I love and it'll be fun.
I don't know what's going on with GC and I. I'm definatly feeling neglected by him. Granted, he's going through some tough shit right now, but still. I'm trying to take it easy and just keep in my head that it'll all be better once I graduate and head back home for good. It's just hard sometimes to keep that in mind when you're upset or what not. Oh well, such is life.
Mom was texting me from Rick's last night. I was really missing being home with everyone there. It's truly a family. Any of them would do just about anything for someone else in the group. That's how a group of friends needs to be.
Well, I'm gonna get back to helping Brian on the papers since I have to go to work at 8. Talk to you later.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
"You don't just turn your back on a relationship you've had for years." - Tim Brown, former CEO oand President of Thomas Industries, inc.
"Honesty, Loyalty, Integrity and Trust. You either bring these things or you don't. If you don't, we don't want you." - Dean Luchsinger, Corporate Manager of Audit, Compliance and Ethics for Bechtel Systems and Infrastructure, Inc.
"Ethical decisions aren't based on what's right and wrong; they are between right and more right." - Dean Luchsinger, Corporate Manager of Audit, Compliance and Ethics for Bechtel Systems and Infrastructure, Inc.
"It's easy to do things right, but it's harder to do the right thing." - Joanne Glasser, President Eastern Kentucky University.
"The currency of democracy is public education." - Mike Caudill, Superintendant of Madison County Schools
"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere." - Martin Luther King, used by Mike Caudill in luncheon talk.
Now one of my personal favorites would be a letter that I got yesterday from one of my students.
"About Mrs. C______: Mrs. C______s really nice. And shes from ohio. And I like her. A lot. She is the best. Will I think shes good but most of al the best. Shes the best student techer."
Ok kids, it's gonna be a long one. After school today I'm headed to Prestonsburg to do some recruiting. Catch ya on the flip side!
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
What's with people checking a blog 17 times a day?? Ok, maybe not 17, but I did have a record breaker the other day.....are yall ready for this?? 6 times! That's right ladies and gentleman. The same person checked my blog 6 times in one day. Now, I do good if I update once a day. If I'm REALLY bored, I might do a second one even though I should be writing lesson plans or what not, but I can promise you, I will NEVER update 6 times in one day.
I'm feeling "old". This discussion was had last night with one of my best friends, my big "brother". He told me that if I were to come visit him I'd look at him and tell him that he's old. Well, not so much. I feel the same way. I was telling him how one day last week my kids were talking about having of gone to bed at like 930 or 10. That very same night, I was asleep by 8. It's crazy! I have so much more to get done in the day, but I can't even stay up as late as a second grader!!!
Oh well. Speaking of second graders, I need to go print off all my lessons and worksheets before I head to school. Have a good one.
Monday, November 07, 2005
Saturday was great too. I went to the store and hung out for a while. It was great to see everyone! Got a HUGE sale while I was there when someone mentioned Christmas shopping. I was like, well I have all of our holiday things out in my car if you want to see them. They were like yeah! YAY for me!! $250 in about 20 minutes. I'll take that ANY day. Saturday night was Chippendales. I called GC to let him know what we were up to. His response, "nice honey, have fun!" Thanks sweetie!!WOW! Yeah it was fun, but not totally the thing you think it is. We got to Jillian's at about 730. The doors opened at 9 and we ended up getting a VIP seat at a table. The show didn't actually start until 11. They danced, but there was a lot of time spent where they had women come up on stage for a lap dance. That's all fine and dandy if you want to pay $20 for a 5 second lap dance. Yeah, not so much for me. However...I did like watching them dance!!! Here's a pic of my favorite, Lane.
Look at that YUMMY chest!!!!
Sunday was good too! I worked for Josette at her open house. Things went really well. In fact, I'm gonna drive home on Sunday again this weekend to help her out! Good for her and good for me!!! Drove back and relaxed. Woo hoo!!
Today I was in a pretty good mood at school. I needed to go to school today to get some rest from my crazy weekend. School was good today though. I was happy to be back with the kiddos! They were happy to have me back too. This evening Pamela and I went to Lexington and decided to have Outback for dinner! Yummy!! It was great and tasted so good.
I think that's about all for now. If more pops into my head...I'll write it down, maybe.
Friday, November 04, 2005
So, it's a good thing I woke up this morning. I laid down to watch a movie last night, not planning on falling asleep. Well, I woke up an hour or so before I had to get up this morning....I went to go turn my alarm off and I hadn't set it! OOPS!!!
The ethics conference started off on a great note yesterday! I'm so excited about that! Today should be even better. It happens to be my favorite day as the CEO's will be there!!!!
Well, I'm gonna go piddle around for a bit before I have to get ready. Peace.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
I think I'm really in need of what is about to happen. I'm off from teaching today, tomorrow and next Tuesday. Today and tomorrow is the "Face to Face with Ethics Conference" here at EKU. It's going to be similar to the conference I was at last year at West Point, just on a much smaller scale. I'm not going as a participant, but a facilitator. There will not be another college student in my position. I feel honored to be chosen to fulfill this capacity. I am the student that continues to sit on the committee though. My only problem with going is that my eyes are swollen from tears last night.
I just don't know what to do about my situation. I feel like I'm being blown off by GC. Yes, we are both stressed with various things in life and school, but that didn't seem to matter a month and a half ago. I know it's going to work it's way out in whatever way it's supposed to. I also know that things will be easier on us in a few months when I'm moved back at home. As Pamela reminded me, "Relationships aren't meant to be long distance." She and I both know this first hand.
This weekend I'm going home to surprise mom. Her birthday is on Saturday and I'm going to show up at Rich's Friday night to surprise her. GC is welcome to come...if he gets ahold of me so I can tell him. I'm just excited to get go to on a Friday night...it's litterally been months since I've been there with everyone. I think it'll be something I need! Saturday I'm getting a cut and color. Another thing I'm excited about as I get to spend time with Linda, my best friend from high school. I've not seen her in almost a year!
Well, I really do need to get going and get dressed and ready for the conference. Oh yeah, the pic is of Pamela and I at Hooter's Monday after Trick-or-Treating.
Have a good day! Hopefully I will too!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
So I went to bed at like 9 with a headache and now here I sit needing to get ready for the day with no lesson plans typed. Oh well....not like I'm gonna teach hardly at all today anyway...The practicum student is in our class today too. I'm just rambling so I'm gonna go get ready for the day. "Seacrest, Out"
Monday, October 31, 2005
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Thursday - School went pretty well. The week was really dragging and so was I. I came home and didn't do too much. I took a nap, got up for a little bit and hung out with Pamela and Neil for a bit and then pretty much went back to bed.
Friday - I decided that the worst day to be a teacher is one where you have a class party. People don't be have like they should and it's just plain old craziness. On my way home from school, grandma and grandpa called me as they were coming home from Florida. So, I got to go out to eat and visit with them for a while. It was great! Grandma did her usual "sly" slip of the money when they were leaving. I always know when that's coming as she reaches for my hand right after she hugs me. YAY for free dinner and $20 extra!!
Saturday - Got up to go to work and that was exciting. (not really) Then I drove home. When I got home, mom and I went to the grocery.....after I got stung by a bee. Damn bees!! I'm allergic to bee stings just short of needing an epipen. (it's itching like crazy now) Anyway, while at the grocery it dawned on me that going to the grocery with your mom at 22 just isn't as exciting as it is when you are 4. So anyway, I ran a couple errands when we got back. While I was out, I ran into a couple of the girls that mom and I hang out with at Rick's. They talked me into going to our Halloween party even though GC was in Chicago this weekend. Well, I went and had a blast. We were all dressed up at the bar. It was so much fun! Afterward, I came home and went to bed excited about the extra hour of sleep.
Today - Nothing too exciting when I up. Hung around for a bit just relaxing. Mom went up to the Flea Market with Dutch for a while. However this afternoon/evening we went to a festival at one of the local Y's as my great uncle was playing in this harmonica group there. At first I was like, I can't believe I'm gonna be late getting back to campus b.c of a harmonica concert. It was interesting though. Then we all went to their house for drinks, dinner and dessert. I had a good ab workout laughing at stories that were being told and mom's side comments to things. About 9 it was time to hit the road. So I hopped in the car and came on back. Made good time. I was in my room at 1030!
There's the update that yall who read this regularly (and sometimes obsessivly) have been looking for. I'm beat and headed to bed. Have a good one!
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
GC took his last exam today! Thank God he's done.....for a while. He's been so stressed out about it that he's now sick. His stressing out got me stressed out for him too. Oh well. Unfortunatly I can't spend the weekend with him like we could as he's flying to Chicago with his family to see other family this weekend. Oh well. I'll be home in less than 2 months and we'll be able to spend a lot more time together.
Well, I still need to eat dinner and get a few little things done. Catch ya later!
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Tonight was parent/teacher conferences. That was a learning experience in it's own. WOW! I came home to check emails and my dad left me one. It wasn't anything that I expected to see at all. Sure it had the typical, I miss you etc. stuff, but this also included comments on how he's never seen a "young person" as well suited for their career as I am. He also said that I have talents with children that he could only dream of having and then if he did have them he wouldn't know what to do with them. I was beyond shocked.
GC has another exam tomorrow. Thank God it'll be the last one....til the end of the semester! Exam weeks are VERY difficult on him which in turn makes me crazy b.c I don't get to spend as much time wihth him as I'd like. School is more important and I just have to remind myself of that. It'll all be better once I graduate.
Well, lesson plans are a calling my name! Check ya later!
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Alex and I spoke of things that had changed in our lives...in several areas. Much of the conversation doesn't really need to have great detail spoken about it. Just know that I feel at peace now...like I have full closure on that part of my life. Will he and I talk again? Probably. I still learn from him. I still like to hear his point of view. It will be interesting to see how things play out down the road. (and no I don't mean in terms of us getting back together as that couldn't happen)
In other news...I went to the game after all tonight. Boy am I glad I did!!! We won in the last 10 seconds...33-32! It was a blast...nervewrecking, but a blast.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
So what do you do at 6 am when you are wide awake?? I think...and that gets me in trouble. I start questioning people's "truths" (as truth really is relative I learned about 2 years ago) I also start to think about all the things that I really should get done....not just lesson plans, but you know cleaning, dishes, sending emails...all those "fun" things. But one of the worst things to think about , and I do, is home. I was never this big on going home and being with my mom and my comforts there. Yeah I'm independant, but come on, even the most emotionless person wants to go home to their mom every once in a while. The other worst thing to think about is the past. I start to think about the shit I've gone through in the past 5 years. Even I have to take my happy mask off sometimes. Unfortunately for me during part of that time I was constantly told to think about the worst case scenario and have that in the back of my mind (just so you can be prepared for it). Up until right before my 21st birthday I didn't worry too much about the worse case scenario. Well, that person got it in my head. I do that now. Let me tell you, it sucks thinking that way. And when you are a "crier" it sucks even more! I try not to let my past affect how I think/act towards the men in my life, but it's really hard. I need to talk to GC about it. He needs to know why I do some of the things I do; why I think some of the thinks I think.
I didn't get on here to just be sad and sappy....who wants that?! I certainly don't. Who wants to read it?! I'd bet that most of you don't. I hopped onto my blog this morning to see what I ended up writing. What's on my heart; What I'm thinking; What I'm feeling. There is one thing I've felt the urge to say for sometime and I know this person has been reading my blog:
Alex...I want you to know that there is a small part of me that will always love you. You were my first love, my first bit of hope in what was going on at the time. I will never forget what you did for me during that time of hurt in my life. I also know that somewhere deep inside you is not the bitter, emotionless man that you have a tendancy to portray. You are going through a rough time right now and I'm truly sorry, one hundred times over, for using your hurt to make me feel better in recent months. You and I both know that that isn't really the person I am. I've been blessed to not go through what you are going through now, but I wish that you didn't have what is sitting in front of you on your plate. I hate how things ended with us and I wish that it never had to end that harsh. I'm sorry for being immature at times and I'm sorry for some of the thoughts that I had towards you. I feel that I want to say more to you, but I'm not sure exactly of the words to say.
This is where I end this mornings post.
Friday, October 21, 2005
Yes, I appreciate the concern of those who left it last night. Really, I do. I was already asleep when it was left from everyone though....I didn't even make it to 9 last night. What happened? I think I was just so tired that every little thing was getting to me. You know, it's kind of liek a little kid. You know when kid is tired becuase they start to cry as they just can't handle being up anymore but they are fighting the sleep. I think that's all it really was.
Overall yesterday went well. In fact, it was kind of funny at the end of the day. Some of the kids had already been called to leave so the rest that were in the class were antsy and ready to leave. I went around the room and let them ask questions about me. Well I was getting the typical favorite color, favorite food, etc. Then the questions really started coming one asked if I was married, the answer of course...no, so then it was do you have any kids, no but the one that really got me was directly after that, one of my kids asked if I was available! Yes, ladies and gentlemen you heard that right. I about died. I didn't know what to say at first, but I handled it and then we left for the day.
I really have to get going, but I'm pretty sure I"ll post more later on. Have a good day!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Chew on that a while! Have a great day.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Well, it's Wednesday which means that Pamela and I had our weekly girl time. It also means another rewrite to a song! It's been waiting to be rewritten for 2 weeks as we couldn't be together last week. So without any further ado, I give to you our version of John Mellancamp's "Hurt So Good" BTW...this is nothing against him...I went to school with his nephews. We just started singing the song one night and decided that this was the one to redo!
Said put away those young boy dreams
Now that I’m getting older so much older
I long all those young girl days
With a boy like you
With a boy like you
Lord knows there are things we can do, baby
Just me and you
Come on and make it a
Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good
You’re gonna need to be excitin’
Just tryin’ to give myself a little bit of fun, yeah
You never did like my bitin’
You make me think you are a nun
Hey baby it’s you
Come on boy now it’s you
Sink yourself right into me, baby
Let’s see what you can do
Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good
I’m not talkin’ no wedding bells
I’m not making no plan for that hell
I’m not movin’ to the Dells
Maybe we could layin’ around, all day long,
Layin’ around, all day long
Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good
Monday, October 17, 2005
GC is doing well. He's definatly happy about the outcome of the game yesterday....I knew he would be. He's gonna see what he can do about coming to see me this weekend, but not sure as his sister wants him to go see her. I understand if he goes to see her, but there's a large part of me that wants him to spend the weekend with me, especially since until I graduate at least it's only going to be the weekends that we get to spend together anyway. Oh well, only 2 more months til I graduate!
Well, I'm wiped out. Have my lessons done and I'm ready to go for tomorrow! Night night and sweet dreams!
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Why do we have pictures of Nemo on our door with our names on them?? Sure, everyone's a big fan of the movie, but why does he have to hang on my door. Who has that much time anyways?!
Why when people are drunk is it 'ok' to leave 'messages' for others who are sleeping soundly?
Why did I wake up at 8am today when I didn't even go to bed until 2 am? I HATE doing that. I've done it the past several days, except it's been more like waking up at 7.
Why when I'm packing do I think of things to pack, but don't remember to pack them. I forgot my phone charger and my video that I'm supposed to transfer my lessons to at home. Luckily I have the best mom in the world and she is going to overnight my charger tomorrow. I don't know if my phone will last until Tuesday so I may go buy a car charger as I don't have one anyway.
Why is it that 'educated' people feel the need to not spell out entire words just becuase they are posting on internet message boards. Hello, if you are trying to get published or onto a design team, don't you think it might be helpful to show that you know the language??? Also, the word AN comes before a word that starts with a vowel/vowel sound. A comes before the others. Else is spelled just like that....NOT elece!
Why do people feel the need to cut others down, but then aren't big enough to "show" their face. To my friends who leave nice messages and comments I'm sorry that you can no longer post unless you are a member. I thought things had stopped with the anonymous poster, but I was wrong. I know who this person is and this person creates drama just to create drama.
Why did I not find my ticker earlier?!?! I LOVE it! Not only does it track how many hits I get, but it tells me the exact location of where people signed on and where they got my link. It's so neat to check it out as there are people from all over the states as well as a few from outside the states that check it on a regular basis. It's pretty neat!
Ok...I'm done venting. Life is good...I start in second grade tomorrow at my new school. I'm really excited about it!
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Happy Sweetest Day!!!!!
Friday, October 14, 2005
After he left, I came back in and mom was like, "He's a dollbaby. He's a keeper. I like him a lot." We talked a little bit more and I was like, "mom I think he's probably better than everyone else I've been with." She said, "yeah, there's no doubt in my mind about that."
So that was my great evening with GC. He did appologize for being a "bad" boyfriend and not seeing me more this week. I told him that I kept trying to tell myself that it he wasn't off this week and it was midterm.
Today, I'm headed back to school....I have to work at 8 so I'm not in any real rush to get back, as long as I"m back in time for work. I'm gonna run out and pick up my $$ from the store and get an oil change and all that fun "adult" stuff I'm beginning to have to do on my own. Catch yall later!
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Hope yall had a good day!!!
GC is supposed to be coming to see me today as my sister wants to meet him/remember who he is. He was a sr her sophmore year of high school. I"m going to work at the store some today. Yay for a little extra cash!!!
Friday, October 07, 2005
2. Ran away? yup....packed my suitcase a couple of times and headed off to grandma and grandpas...thank God they only lived a block away since I was only 4!
3. Pictured your crush naked? pictured isn't exactly the word for it ;)
4. Skipped school? not this semester, but yes....I LOVE "personal" days. or days when it was like, "hey it's pretty outside, I think I'm gonna skip class."
5. Broken someone's heart? I think it's a possability.
6.Been in love? for sure
7. Cried when someone died? uh yeah, I'm a crier...I cry at everything...even when I don't mean to!
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have? haven't we all??
9. Broken a bone? actually I've not...I've come woah close, but no
10. Done something embarrasing? just about everyday...it's just a matter of if someone actually sees it.
11. Done a drug? if you are counting nicotine and alcohol as drugs then yes, otherwise, no
12. Cried in school? *see answer to #7*
13. Coke or Pepsi? Coke
14. Sprite or 7UP? Whichever
15. Girls or Guys? Guy...one in particular....although, ask Pamela, she and I are married! heheheh
16. Flowers or Candy? Shouldn't a girl be spoiled and get both??
17. Scruff or Clean shaved? in the middle.
18. Blondes or Brunettes? red head all the way!
19. Too Fat or Too Skinny? what exactly is the definition of "too" ?
20. Tall or Short? I'm short.
21. Pants or Shorts? pants
22. Night or Day? for what?!?! That question leaves things WIDE open
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX.........
23. What do you notice first? smile (teeth) and then eyes
24. Last person you slow danced with? heh....slow danced....I don't remember the last time, hopefully that'll change soon.
25. Worst question to ask? "Are you sure??"
26. Showered? earlier
27. Stepped outside? just a few minutes ago when I was coming home from work.
28. Had Sex? heh.....take a wilde guess
30. Your Good Luck Charm: uhh...not really sure what I use.
31. Person You Hate Most: I don't know that I honestly hate anyone....but there are several people whom I STRONGLY dislike for one reason or another.
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: getting a second chance
33. On your desk: computer, senate binder, random jewelry, pen box, stapler, paper clip holder, tape dispenser (with tape), 3-hole punch, scanner, remote, cell phone, graduation info, Haitian box, sunglasses (in their case)....I think that's about it
34. Picture on your desktop: fall leaves
35. Color: blue!
36. Movie: hehe.....movies are great! I love comedies, harry potter, and "chic flicks"
37. Music artist: don't know that there is one favorite
38. Cars: I could be really sappy and say my man's...I do really like his car.
39. Ice Cream: greater's
40. Season: spring
41. Breakfast Food: breakfast casserole
42. Makes you laugh the most: GC, he's awesome about that!!
43. Makes you smile: my friends, my mommy, GC!
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: Katie, Pamela, GC, mom
45. Has A Crush On You: I think GC might...well he did for 5 years, and now we're together
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: see above
47. Who Has it easier? kids....oh to be a kid again!!!!
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: What kind of funny feeling?? Like that butterflies in your stomach, high school crush feeling?
DO YOU EVER...
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night:there are times I do...I try not to, so I just put the phone by my bed and if it rings I check the caller ID
50. Save MSN conversations: not MSN....but others.
51. Save E-mails: the important ones
52. Forward secret E-mails: Secret??? there are secret emails???
53. Wish you were someone else: no...I'd have someone else's problems...I'll just stick with my own.
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: not usually...although I do think it's easier to be a guy than it is a girl.
55. Wear perfume: yup...usually it's Velocity by Mary Kay.
56. Kiss: ugh....YEAH!!! Just ask GC ;)
57. Cuddle: once again, ask GC
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: my eyes would hurt.
HAVE YOU EVER...
59. Fallen for your best friend? uh huh
60. Made out with JUST a friend? yup..everyone needs some makeout time everyonce in a while
61. Kissed two people in the same day? I dont' think so....
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day? definatly not
63. Been rejected? who hasn't?
64. Been in love? sure have
65. Been in lust? yup
66. Used someone? prolly
67. Been used? heh....don't get me started
68. Cheated on someone? never would
69. Been cheated on? it's the reason I'm not married
70. Been kissed? yeah.....GC
71. Done something you regret? I try not to regret things...but it's not always easy
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched? ummm.....some kid leaned over the desk and touched me...other than that it'd prolly be Pamela
73. You talked to? Scott...online
74. You hugged? GC
75. You instant messaged? Scott
76. You kissed? GC
77. You yelled at? Tom...in a nice way as GC and I were passing the porch last night
78. You thought about? GC
79. Who text messaged you? GC
80. Who broke your heart? dumb boys....
82. Color your hair? every once in a great while
83. Have tattoos? no....thought about it
84. Have piercings? ears, and belly button....used to have tongue
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yup : D GC!
86. Own a webcam? uh huh
87. Own a thong? yup
88. Ever get off the computer? uhhh yeah....
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? ein bischen
90. Habla espanol? not really
91. Quack? not usually....sometimes you need to in class though when you teach elementary kids
HAVE YOU / DO YOU/ ARE YOU?
92. Stolen anything: yes
93. Smoke: in the past
94. Schizophrenic: no
95. Obsessive: yes
96. Compulsive: yes
97. Obsessive compulsive: yes
98. Panic: who doesn't?
99. Anxiety: not usually
100. Depressed: heh...let's not go there
Once again, something I found from Pamela!!! Why not add silly things like this?!?! It makes life fun and interesting!