Friday, September 30, 2005

Thank you Pamela....

for the best comparison ever. "A wedding once in a life time vs. a movie that will be in the theaters for a month......or even better, my mommy whose tit I'm still sucking vs. my girlfriend whose tit I want to be sucking."

Nothing like the greatest laughs from being silly girls!!!

Thursday, September 29, 2005

I love hearing

the sound of a text message being left on my phone. Typically there are only 2 people who text me; my best friend, Katie and a WONDERFUL man GC. Today I was riding around with Kim in between schools when a message came through. It was from GC. I was cheesing before I even read it. He seems to know how much it's the little things that count b.c the message said, "Hey babe. hope ur havin a good day. ttyl" That was all I needed to get through the rest of the day. No, it wasn't a bad day, but that message just made it all that much better. Knowing that he's the one making the efforts to talk to me and make sure I'm smiling and that everything is ok just makes life wonderful. I no longer have to stress about being the one to hold a relationship together. Our personalities are totally the same in that manner so it just goes back and forth.

School has been great lately. Yesterday I was in first grade ALL day! It was great, yet tiring. One of my little boys in the class who can be a pain and just down right mean came up to me and said, "Miss Katy, I'm so glad you're here today. Can I show you that 9+9 is 18 on the board?!" Well, yeah...of course you can!!!! I love that class and I'm going to have a really hard time leaving them next week. Other classes of mine won't be NEAR as difficult to leave.

In the midst of romance and school being great, friends have been too! Pamela and I went out for our weekly dinner together last night. We ended up at Applebee's. There is nothing like having a meal, drinking a beer and just talking about the men in our lives. She and I both sit in the middle of a "Hallmark story" and life is great. Tuesday night was "the best friends" game, played like "the newlyweds" game in the building where Katie is an RA. Of course we signed up to play....the only thing did like 10000 other girls. We ended up not getting to be in the front on the panel, but it was fun just the same. Nicole came down and hung out with us down there while we all cut up. She brought down pics of my 'nephew', Blake! OMG SOOOOO cute!!! (but of course he is, he takes after his aunt Katy...hehehe)

I love my life right now...there aren't too many things that I can complain about. I can laugh at the bull shit that is going on in the SGA office. I have no reason to not be silly. I get to hang out with my best friends. I got to see GC soon. What's left to worry about?!?! NOTHING!!!

Oh, one last thing. I called mom today and told her my decision in regards to what I'm going to do upon graduation; I wanted her to be the first to know. So here's my decsion: I'm going to move home to look for a job. While looking for a real job and transitioning into real life, I'm going to work at the store (hopefully) and work my MK business and sub. I'm also going to look into what it's going to take to get certified in OH. I'm not going to base my decisions in life on who I'm dating. I'm going to be me and be happy with it. GC and I haven't even talked about this decision yet, so he doesn't know I'm coming home, although he'll be rather happy. He being close to home has absolutly nothing to do with my decision. Do I like the fact that he's there?! uh...DUH! But I'm not focusing on that. I'm focusing on getting my life started the way I want it and paying off some bills that I have acquired through my college experience.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

So here it is....

I left Randall. I was tired of being the one trying to keep things pulled together. I was tired of being used. I was tired of it all. So, I'm done. I'm happy about the way I feel without him. Didn't think I would, but I am.

Is there another guy in the picture??? Yes. A guy from high school found me on facebook and started talking to me. We've not yet had the chance to catch up in person, but have been on the phone. It has been decided that we want to try this out and see where it goes. It's exciting... totally a Hallmark story.

School went pretty well. I never thought I'd be upset about leaving, but I think I'm REALLY gonna miss this placement. I'm finally totally comfortable with everything about it. Today was pretty cussed at by one of my first graders! GEEZ!! Who raised this kid?! At the time it wasn't funny, but actually now it's pretty commical.

Well, I'm off to sleep. I'm really tired and I'm gonna be in a different first grade class ALL DAY tomorrow.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Well girls....

I did it. I made myself happier and with less to worry about. I'm gonna wait a few days before I post all the details, but I did it. I'm happy with the decision.

Also, I actually got some scrapping done today! Only problem is...I got out my scanner and for some reason it's not working. Hopefully I'll be able to get it fixed and post my layouts.

Homecoming yesterday was a blast!!! Parade was lots of fun!!! Free beer at tailgating is ALWAYS a good time. Last but not least, we kicked Tennessee Tech's ASS!!!! 52-3!!! GO EKU!!!

Saturday, September 24, 2005

A great day!

Yesterday was terriffic!! CBI got cancelled so we took the kids that we wanted to see when we wanted to see them. As we were walking into one of our schools, the cooperating teacher looks at me and goes, "I wouldn't be this cool with you if you weren't good. You ARE a teacher. Ask some of the girls that have come through before you, I can be a real bitch. However, I'm not with that way because you know what you are doing and you're good at it. The next two weeks you are going to be solo. Yeah, I want you to turn in your lessons so we have them on record, but I'm not gonna really check them." Now, that is one of the BEST feelings in the world.

As for the rest of my day, it went pretty well too. Came home and got my paycheck, debated a little financial issue in Senate, took a nap, went to work, caught up with a friend from high school who's looking at coming to visit me in the next few weeks. Life is pretty good.

Today is homcoming. Old friends, new friends, parade, tailgating, football....doesn't get much better than this!

Friday, September 23, 2005

Blown Off...

I'm tired of getting blown off by my little sister. Once again I stopped to see her as I was driving home from school. She was standing on the corner with some friends and I know she had just gotten there as I watched her walk up. I pulled over to say hi and yeah, she said hi but that was it. She acted like she barely knew who I was and was just being nice by saying hi. Well, let me tell you; it's going to be a rude wake up call when one day this girl's family isn't there for her. Family is the one thing that is relativly constant...that means you don't blow it off. After I graduate and move she's gonna wish she hadn't treated me like that when something goes wrong. A sister is supposed to be the one that stands right there next to you on your wedding day. I hate to say it, but looks like she's not. I guess she had told my mom that it was like mom and I were best friends. Well you know what?!?! Mom and I are very close...but you have to spend time and make the effort to do so to have a relationship with someone!!! UGH

Wednesday, September 21, 2005


...for teachers who call you and say to meet them at one of your schools AN HOUR later that usual!! Means I don't have to teach sign class this morning!!! I'm gonna go back to bed for a bit!! WOO HOO

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

A-Z of me...

Thought this was cute and I'm bored, so I stole it from Pamela's my space!

B- BIRTHDAY: Feb. 13
C- CURRENT CRUSH: more, like love......RANDALL!!!!
D- FAVORITE DRINK: non-alcoholic - Mountain Dew (it's my morning coffee); alcoholic - LIT or Jose' Gold shots!!!
E- EATING CURRENTLY: Nothing, I'm typing
F- FAVORITE FOOD: mashed potatoes, steak, pasta, shrimp, lobster, chocolate
G- GO TO FOR ADVICE: Mom, Medic (my twin Katie), Pamela, Nicole, Amby and Colmon
H- CURRENT HATRED: Chosent ignorance, people on power trips
I- I THINK ABOUT: graduation, Randall, my job after school, Randall, kids
J- CURRENT JOB: Student teacher, desk worker, Mary Kay Independant Beauty Consultant
K- ANY KIDS: not yet
L- I LOVE: Randall, family, friends, scrapbooking, cuddling, hugs
M- FAVORITE MOVIE: A Walk to Remember
N- YOUR PHONE NUMBER: 859-622-****
O- OTHERWISE KNOWN AS: it really depends on who you are talking best friend and I call each other twin....some people call me Miss Katy (those would be little people), I'm sure I"m known to some people as bitch
P- FAVORITE PERFUME/COLOGNE: Velocity, both for her and him
Q- A LITTLE QUIRK ABOUT YOURSELF: I have a small tendancy to be OCD....but only about certain things
R- LAST ROAD TRIP: Not recent enough....hopefully it'll be to IN soon to see a certain love of mine!!
S- DO YOU SMOKE: uhh....NO
T- FAVORITE TV SHOW: Desperate Housewives!!!, Extreme Home Makeover, Big Brother, old school Nick at Nite, Game show network....hmm, I think I LOVE Reality TV.
U- COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAR:Today is plum, marron and white stripes from Victoria's Secret
W- YOU WILL WIN AN AWARD FOR: best smile, listening
X- X-RAYS TAKEN: teeth, leg, finger, throat
Y- YOU'RE YEARNING FOR: life to start
Z- ZODIAC SIGN: Aquarius

ok....that's all for now!!!

Monday, September 19, 2005

People Never Cease to Amaze me

How is it that someone who has just started school here at EKU can come up to me and ask about emails going around about Colmon and his administration?? It's really sad that people have to bash someone that came in and got done what he said he was gonna get done. All he and Lance did was what they said that they were going to do which is why they were put in office in the first place. I'm tired of those who have authority not using it and those who don't have an ounce of authority thinking they do.

People need to look past their little bit of time and their resume and be mindful of years to come after them. Sure you want to leave your mark on the university, but don't you think is should be a good one?


If you are a praying person, keep Randall in your prayers. He was back in the hospital again today. I hate not being able to be there with him...even if it's only just to sit and watch him sleep.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Just one more note tonight.

I'm not the bitch that I'm sure there are some people out there that think I am. I'm all talk...and I know it. I've wished to do devious, sometimes hurtful, things and can't do it. People who have hurt me....I've forgiven. People who have ignored me....I've forgiven. People who have turned my world upside down...I've forgiven. I have said in the past that I'd like to do this and that when I was hurt, upset, mistreated, what have you. I'm sure we all have. I don't truly wish harm on people.

Not sure why, but I just felt that I needed to say that.

Long Weekend

No, I don't want it to be Monday, but this weekend was the SLOWEST weekend ever. I mean, I didn't just sit here all day...I was out, but still time seemed to move so slow. I guess I should be more appreciative of this than I am. You'd think I would be since yeah, I'm ready to graduate, but don't know what's gonna happen after that afternoon. I want to stay here, but not be in school. I want to move to IN with Randall, but I don't want to be away from where my mom is with in reach. I want to be an adult...a true, bonifide adult. I want to be a wife and a mommy. I think I want to be a teacher. I don't want to live paycheck to paycheck and I don't want to be the one that brings home the bacon and cooks it too.

Mark Twain once said, "Don't let school get in the way of your education." Heh, I think there was a "Katy" in front of that. Upon some recently found information, I thought at first that maybe I should be careful as to what I say here, but I really don't think I need to be. This is a part of my education. The past 4 years have been quite that; from walking out of a home that was crumbling in front of my very eyes, to searching for "true" love, to finding those friendships that you know are gonna last over a drunken ride home. My time here at Eastern is drawing rapidly to a close. As I look back, most of my education here hasn't been in a room with four walls. It's been on the porch of my building, during campaigns, on the road to and from Virgina, in the senate, over the phone, under covers (mine and not mine) and so many other places. My education has taken me from a lost kid to a woman about ready to face the world on her own.

Obviously I've had a lot of time to think this weekend and really tonight while driving home from Nicole's after spending time with the Moose, and splattering chocolate all over the kitchen. As much as I'm frustrated with myself, I'm happy. I'm happy with whom I've become and the direction my life is headed. I'm happy with what my past has taught me, what's going on in my present (mostly) and what the future has to offer. I know that I'm loved by friends and family alike. I know that I worry too much and make myself sick over it.

Randall has applied for jobs and is hopefully getting the one he went up there for. He told me tonight that it's a traveling job...all over the country and world. As a result, it may include trips to Iraq. I was asked if I could handle that. In all reality, I can. Do I want him to go over there?? Well, it's not my first choice of places to send him, but if it's what needs to happen then it's what needs to happen. It means I go up to IN and find a job and be home when he comes home with a smile on my face and dinner on the table. I love him and want to be with him....forever. I'm willing to do what it takes. If it means being a wife of a man who travels all the time, well that's ok.

I think that's all I have to say at the moment. I wasn't totally expecting to say all of just kinda happened. I'm gonna go finish lesson plans and such. Have a good one!

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Bored out of my mind!!!!

WHY on Earth did I say, "sure Angie I'll pick up the 8a-11a shift that you have open." Well, I know why I did, but man is this boring. Thank God there is a computer that I can putz around on! (even though I don't think I'm supposed too....oh well.) Anway, I'm glad it's the weekend; even if I have to work for a bit. Those kids are driving me crazy!!!!! I love them dearly, but gees. 2 whole days of not getting slobbered on by H and J!!! I don't have to worry about J or R having accidents for 2 whole days!!!

Hopefully I'll get some scrapping done. I've got a few effer challenges to catch up on as well as some cards for a swap to get done. Also, found a site that has some reasonable prices....if you spend enough to compensate for their shipping costs. Even still though, with shipping, it's cheaper than most stores. Since I work at an LSS at home though, I have a hard time justifying some of the prices yet at the same time, they are cheaper than what I'd pay at the LSS in Lexington. Anyway...the site is It's pretty neato!!

I have to work again tonight from 8p-12a. So I"ll prolly post again during that time. Have a great day!!

Thursday, September 15, 2005

That'd be a negative....

Take that as you wish....that's all I have to say. Those that are close and know me, know what this is TRULY about.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Sick : (

Well, I called in this morning to school because I'm sick. I went to bed at like 930 last night, well layed down, finished Big Brother and passed out as soon as it was over. Anyway, slept straight through the night. Alarm went off at 6. I was kinda excited to have gotten so much sleep when I first got up. I never get 8 hours of sleep at one time!! So I get up and start to go to the shower when I feel like I'm gonna puke. I head into the bathroom, but nothing happens. I just couldn't shake the feeling. I felt a little warm to the touch, yet I was freezing. So I sat down just to see if in a few minutes it would go away. Nope, sure didn't, thought I was gonna puke even more now, and a headache was forming. So I called my supervising teacher and left a voicemail, climbed in bed and went back to bed. About 745, she calls and asks if I'm coming into school. I said, I guess you didn't get my voicemail did you? She said no, so I told her what was wrong. I hate being sick and missing school!! I always have. I went back to sleep and slept til about 1245ish. WOW...I've not gotten that much sleep almost straight through since I was like 5 months old. I'm feeling a bit better, but wondering if I want to eat or not. I'll catch yall later.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

WOW!!! (a mini book is written)

That's all I can say to describe several things......

First, I'm SO excited I got to hear Randall's voice last night. I've missed him SOOOO much. For the first time this semester I really got a good night's sleep. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

Next, Last night at my Mary Kay meeting, I got to play with all the new holiday stuff. Let me tell you ladies it's awesome and you can't beat prices like these, especially when they come packaged such that you don't have to wrap them!!! Not to mention, you don't even have to leave your house to do the shopping or the pick up!!!

Third, "Anonymous" I know who you are. I deleted your comments as there is no call for that. If you have a problem with me, be man enough to confront me about it as I was woman enough to confront you. Get over yourself and grow up.

Finally, my *wonderful* ex - first things world stopped revolving around you on March 2nd of 2004. I don't go seeking any information, it just shows up too me. The comments that have been deleted have nothing to do with you. I guess that is where you are referring to in the "first blog" comment you made. (not to mention those comments were put on there after I went to bed last night and this is the first chance that I have had to look at my blog.) Next, I too, have wished nothing but happiness for you and have never seeked any vengance whatsoever. I do believe however that what goes around comes made your bed and have to lie in it. I'm glad that other areas in your life are successful. I'm glad that you are able to move on from this part of your "arduous" life.

As far as how today was great!! I woke up in a great mood...since I talked to my honey and his phone is better (after ripping Cingular a new one) My lessons also went really well today. All in all the day has gone quickly. YAY!

*sorry for the book guys*

Monday, September 12, 2005

Greatest Lesson ever!!!

So today, I taught that lesson that I was TOTALLY stressing over. My comments from the teacher afterwards were: I don't know why you were stressing over that. It was one of the best lessons I've seen from a student teacher!!!! YAY for me! Also, in the areas of concern, she wrote in big letters NONE!! woo hooo!

In other news...well, I don't think there really is other news! Life is going pretty well!! OH! I just remembered!! Grandma and grandpa ARE NOT moving!!! Well, not out of Cincy anyway. Their favorite grandchild (me) talked them into staying....only thing is mom and I have to move out of the condo. I'd rather it be that way then for them to move though.

Ok, randomness is done for the night. Sweet dreams!

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Not feeling so hot

This weekend, I've been kinda blah feeling. I can't get full when I eat and I can't seem to feel rested more than a few minutes once I go to sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me. This is craziness.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Got it done

Well, I got that damn lesson written for if she just likes it will be the question. I guess I"ll have to wait til tomorrow to find out.

Frustrating Lesson I'm given this lesson topic yesterday and was like, I don't know what to do for it. She asks me today for it....I tell her, I've had a hell of a time trying to find something for that. She looks at me and goes this is a broad topic area, it's not that hard. I was getting so frustrated while she sat there and checked her email while I'm supposed to write this lesson plan that I have no ideas for, that when she said to me again that it was easy I looked at her and said, maybe it is when you've taught for ten years, but I've never done anything on this topic before.

Maybe I shouldn't have said it, but I was so freakin pissed at this point that I just didn't know what to do. I don't however regret saying it.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Loving LIfe

It's been a little bit of time since I could say that, but I really am loving life. I talked to my honey last night for quite some time and it was just wonderful! I can tell he's happy in IN. I can't wait til I get to see him and just hold on to him and not let go.

Teaching went well again today. It's amazing how sometimes you are harder on yourself than others. Yeah, I was happy with how my lessons went, but I was harder on myself (in my head) than my cooperating teacher was...and that's ok.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

God given talent

Those are such WONDERFUL words to hear from your cooperating teacher when discussing how your lesson went today. I did a very fun lesson with my first graders. We've taught them the alphabet in sign language so today we worked on making an ABC book. Each child had a letter of the alphabet and then they drew a picture of something that began with that letter. After that they took the sign language letters that I had cut out and glued their name on the page. Later on in the week I"m going to take each child's picture of them forming the letter that they had and put it in the book before I have it laminated and bound. I'm woah excited!

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Feeling Better

Even though I didn't get much sleep last night and cried all night long, I still feel better today. Yes, I was tired after only 4 hours of restless sleep. Am I less stressed, a tiny bit. Am I less depressed, I guess....I feel ok today, but I know things aren't over.

Today went quickly for the most part even though it's one of our "slower" days. I'm pretty much on top of my lessons..that's a good thing. I need to try and figure out what to teach to my 1st graders in their sign class on Tuesday.

I may post later on too....if I'm not too tired or out else where.