Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Stress and Migraines

I don't know what is wrong with me lately. I've been under so much stress and yesterday I got another migraine. Yeah, I get them, but come on....2 in one week? Yesterday was a not so good day for me. I slept in which was good, but I was so stressed for some reason. I didn't exactly handle it the best way either. I was snapping at Randall for stupid shit and every little thing made me cry. He's so good to put up with my shit. I'd better be careful and not take advantage of that fact....last thing I want is for him to leave because I've done something stupid.

Sunday, July 24, 2005

What a weekend

OMG...this weekend was SO long. It all started about 2am Friday morning when Randall got up not feeling well. I was asleep and didn't know anything of it. I knew when he got back into bed about 3. ;) Well, a little after 4 he got back up...long story short we were at the ER by 5. There until about 4. Come to find out that they were thinking apendicitis, but couldn't find anything wrong with it. We're still really not sure what exactly it was, and neither are the doctors or surgeons, but he feels better.

Saturday I got to work only to find out that a friend of mine "no longer works here." Yeah, I honestly knew it was coming but never knew that it would go down like it did. We were kinda busy, interesting day. Then there was a bachelorette party...they had a "fun party" for her bachelorette party. Crazy times....good shit but crazy times.

Today was a pretty busy day at work. I woke up not feeling too well and a little nausous. Oh well, such is life. Tonight I came home and went to sleep early again...I've done this the past few nights and had a migrane on Thursday. This morning when I got to work it was like a cold had just randomly come on...I don't know what's up. Oh well. Anyway, I have to work early in the a.m. so I'm gonna check out. Hugs

Thursday, July 21, 2005


I got to scrap and it looked like something! I was working on something for the store and it turned out really cute. I busted out with some old paper...KI Christmas. That wasn't the best part though. I had Randall pring off a pic for me in black and white b.c I just wasn't feeling the colors of the pic and the papers I had that I knew were in the store. Well after he did that, he got to playing (even more) with his pic from the navy. Let me tell you how stinking cute it was! After he printed the pic, he took my trimmer, cut it all out and then looks at me and says: "Is it ok if I look through the paper?" So he tells me too, "I'm thinking a red, white and blue type idea with the flag and what not." Of course in my head I"m going duh, but on the outside I was like that's great. Then he adds to it by saying, we should look for an emblem of the navy or even I have some of my patches from the different places I was stationed. It was great. No one I've been with has ever appreciated my work like this, let alone jumped in and started helping! He's the only if he'd let me take random pics of him....I"ll get him there, one day!

Wednesday, July 20, 2005


Wow so up until a few days ago things were just going about their normal course....then I got "the message." A message that would change the way I thought and felt towards a person. You may remember Nate...the hot guy from the army...who I was wondering if he could be the one. That is of course until I got a voicemail from him the week after Thanksgiving saying to never call him again as he had another girlfriend. Well....7 months, yes 7 months later I hear from him again....he messages me and appologized for everything. Apparently that day, his mom had died, his sister tried to commit suicide as a result, and he had just gotten word that he had to go back to Iraq for this a third time. Well, then he found out about Randall. I couldn't keep that hidded. My love just oozes out of my pores, so even if I tried, he (nate) would've known that something was up. Well, we talked a couple times and actually Randall hopped on one evening while I was doing something else as Nate had messaged me. After that night, Nate told me that he felt like he was in the way. I'm thinking, you're effin in Iraq....I live with my man, how in the hell can you be in the way?! Regardless, I messaged him last night to see how things were going. He informed me last night that it would be the last time we would talk...ever. I'm still not sure how exactly to feel about it all. I mean, I'm in love with Randall and don't want to be with Nate in that way, however, I respect his decision as he can't be just friends with me and doesn't want to do something that he shouldn't. I'm just confused on what to do with this newfound information about both now and the past.

Sunday, July 17, 2005


Yesterday after the facial I had scheduled, Randall and I decided to run around and go shopping. It all started when I wanted to go to Skyline for dinner. Well, the one we stopped by happened to be across the parking lot from a Big Lots....we're in need of a bed, so we thought, what the hell and went over there. Well that trip to Big Lots suddenly became an evening of shopping and decorating "our home". No we don't have a place of our own yet, but we've sure got it decorated. lol We went from Big Lots to Hobby Lobby to Meijer's to then we were just driving around a bit. Well, somehow we got on the conversation of puppies and not wanting to housebreak one (because he feels guilty about how you are truly supposed to do it) and so I said, well what if we adopted one that already was?! He looks at me and says where is petsmart? So we head over there.....they DON'T do puppy adoption!!! We were like WTF?? What Petsmart doesn't do puppy adoption. So then we went next door to World Market. Let me tell you, at first he was all making fun of me for wanting to go in there. Well, next thing we know it's 915...we'd been in there almost an hour and a half and they never once said anything about it being past 9....oops! They were really nice about us still being in there...thank God...I've always worked retail and know how it feels to have someone in there past closing and then they don't buy anything?! Anyway, we've not had the chance in the past to do this so it was really eye opening. It was great. Our tastes are so similar and we like A LOT of the same things, colors and themes.

Throughout our driving around at one point, he looks over and says "thank you." I was totally shocked by it becuase we hadn't been talking about anything that I had done or what not. So I ask him why he said that. He looks at me and says because I can be me. The entire time he was with his most recent ex, he had to change and he wasn't himself. I love the fact that I feel the same. I'm me with Randall. We're us as individuals as well as being a couple.

Ok, enough mushy stuff for yall. I've gotta get ready for work. As a sidenote, I had my Mary Kay business debut this past week and let me tell you I had a great week! Got 9 bookings and did almost $350 in sales!!! woo hoo!!! go me!

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Forever Love

So we went to Rick's tonight as our usual routine....Randall joined us since he's moved in. He actually gets along really well with our friends which is totally a good thing. He was cracking jokes and everything with them; even shot a game of pool with the guys. I can't count the number of times we were told to get a room...fine with me though. It's not like we were making out or anything, however, I know I was hanging on him. LOL Anyway, in the midst of the bar and the friends that are family, I started to get teary eyed. They didn't notice, hell, I don't know if Randall even noticed. He said some of the best, sweetest things to me tonight. The few that stick out most to me are: "I've found the one for me." and "Promise me you'll never leave me or hurt me." The first one, yeah sure it's cheesy, but let me tell you, he was looking straight into my eyes when he said it. I felt like no one else was around at all for that moment in time. The other statement is HUGE in both of our books. We've both been hurt way more than we the same ways. It still amazes me that he just picked up everything and left KY this past week. I love him so much....I know it's just me and a result of my past, but I wonder sometimes that when I wake up he's not going to be here....after tonight though, I won't worry about that any more.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

He's here!!!

YAY!!! Let me tell you how happy I am...well, I don't think words can describe it. I"m just beyond happy right now! Life is wonderful. This afternoon my man arrived here to live! So we unpacked the truck, took it back, came home, ordered pizza for dinner and now we (he) are starting to put things away and bring them in from the garage. A little bit at a time is all it takes.

Next, anyone know of a CHEAP, reliable car?? Mine is dead. Like WAY dead. So, I'm working on trying to find one.

Last but not least, my Mary Kay business debut is tomorrow! I have had a few people tell me they are coming and a few people tell me that they can't. However, I got an order from one of my cousins who said she can't. Every little bit helps....right?

Ok, I better help Randall at least a little bit! Talk to you soon!

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Moving in....

I"m SO totally stoked! (wow, haven't used that word in years) Anyways, I am.....on Tuesday, yes as in a few days, Randall is moving in here!!! I know I know, it's a little fast, but let me tell you....he's not fucking around. Not that he's not used to it, but he's changing states!! The reason this time just happens to be be with me. Spacewise, things'll be a little bit tight, but it's worth it! I SO can't wait. I'm so just wow.

How'd it all come about? Well we were talking about school in general, and he has NO motivation to be where he is. (I don't blame him, I wouldn't either) so he was looking at things around South Bend as that was a moving possibility. Well he got to talking the other day with a friend he was in the navy with. She was talking about ITT Tech and how she loves it there. She's at the Boston campus. Anyway, so he's looking to see where a campus is near South Bend if at all. I jokingly made the comment that we have a campus here in Cincy. So he starts to check things out. Well, Thursday he calls and says to me, I just got off the phone with ITT Tech! I was like what?! Then he goes on to say, how would you like it if I were there in the next week or two? I said that'd be great! I'd love every minute of it. Well, yesterday he calls and says...I'll be there on Tuesday! ROCK ON! So that's where we stand right now. Man, I love him!

Thursday, July 07, 2005


Things are going pretty good right now. Randall and I are great, I've caught up with some friends recently which has been really good. We're trying to get my Mary Kay business off and running so if you know anyone who would like to purchase products or you think they'd be good at selling let me know! So anyway..still no news on the car. I may be having to buy a new one. That's gonna be hellish if I do, but life happens...right?! Well, I have some things to get taken care of. I'll check ya later!

Sunday, July 03, 2005

3 down....1 to go

....days of partying that is. With the group my mom and I run with, a 3-day weekend equals 4 days of partying. I can't take's a good thing that I"m gonna have the next few days be easy days as far as work is concerned. Oh well, such is life. You never know when you'll have the time to hang like this, so you might as well take it while you can!

To the love of my life: honey I love you with all of my heart. I just want you to know that. Hopefully I'll get to see you this coming weekend! I miss you baby.

Parties galore!

Well, you know it's a holiday weekend with the holiday being on Monday....we had our usual going out Friday night, last night was a party, today is a pool party and tomorrow is another pool party. Fun times!!! The crazy part is, all the parties are with the same group of people...we just keep changing the location!

On a side note: You know you are in Hamilton when: you pull the grill down the street to another house where we are cooking out. That's right ladies and gentlemen...I pulled it down the street. Thank God Cindy wasn't home yet or it'd be on camera!

On the other side note: Randall and I are great!!!Things are back to "normal" (if there is even such a thing as normal). He's gonna try to come down next weekend which will be awesome! I miss him SO much.

Saturday, July 02, 2005

Slow and Steady wins the Race

Well....Talked to Randall last night. It was a GREAT conversation. We've decided that we both want to be with each other, we're just gonna take it slower. So that's what we're doing! I'm way excited about this. I"ll update more later on.