Friday, November 30, 2007

Get ahold of me....if you can.

I know I've been rather difficult to call lately. My phone has either been off or just plain unanswered. We've been dealing with something that is so hard....emotionally and physically.

It's kind of ironic that my last post is what it was. Especially on that day too. Why?

It was that afternoon that I learned I was miscarrying. again.

Yesterday afternoon was spent at the hospital/dr office having an ultrasound to make sure that everything had cleared as well as doing bloodwork to try and rule out the possibility of an egtopic pregnancy. I find out today what some of the levels say. From there It may mean more bloodwork on Monday. If that's the case it'll begin a series of discussions I really don't want to have. D&C. I really don't want to go there.

So yeah, if I haven't gotten your phone call...well there's a reason. If I've not responded to know why.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Stop thinking.

How do you stop thinking about getting pregnant so that it actually happens? I can remember telling other women, that when you stop thinking and stressing over it that it will happen. You can't just stop thinking about it. I've learned that little tidbit recently.

We want to grow our family. It's not a one sided thing at this point. We both want to grow our family. Even though I know it's not the truth, there's a part of me that feels like it's my fault that it's not happening. My body conditions have to be right. No stress. It has to be a perfect physiological moment.

Timing may not be perfect or the right thing. However, if you wait for the right time that's like saying I'm going to wait until all the lights are green to head home from work. You'll never make it home! Not to mention some of the best things in my life have come at the "wrong time."

The other thing I have to throw out is what others say. I've had comments from everybody who thinks they know what's best for me, for Dan, for us as a whole. There's a wall that has been broken down from before so it's a brand new learning experience on how to deal with the comments. And, it's not really even dealing with them as much as not retaining them and playing them over and over until I get so angry. That in turn causes stress on the body.

It's a vicious cycle. How do you stop and put an end to it?

Monday, November 12, 2007

Fun weekend.

Before I start about the weekend I just wanted to say one thing in regards to comments. Please make the note that we are up to a count of 3 weddings for Thanksgiving.

Now onto your regualrly scheduled post. :)

We just had a great time this weekend as a family. It really doesn't get much better. Friday we spent the day out shopping. It felt like we were running all over Lexington, but hey, it was a blast. From oil change to a fill up to buying Dan a tux for the inagural ball. It was just good to spend the day together. We enjoyed lunch at BD's Mongolian Grille. YUMMY!!! Who would have thought that for $30 you could find a REALLY nice pair of tuxedo shoes to fit a size 15 foot!

Friday evening, I headed to the store for DT. It was good to be with the girls. I didn't stay too late though. Happens when you get old! ha.

Saturday we went and looked at a different tux and ended up getting it instead. It was just a better price and we couldn't pass it up. Then we just came home and napped and hung out together.

Sunday after church we hung out. About 7 my friend Athena who was moving from CA to SC came to stay with us. Oh my gosh!!! It was just a blast!! We didn't go to bed until well after midnight last night. She left this morning for her last leg of her 3 week trip. The end stop: her grandbabies! WOW! Such a journey she's taken.

Otherwise, there's not a whole lot going on around here. We're just working on getting things ready to go see my mom and grandparents and then for me to go back to work full time again.

Oh!!! P.S. a big CONGRATS goes out to Sam!!! I'm so proud of you for winning!

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Holiday Weekend Weddings.

Weddings. Love 'em? or Hate 'em?

That was the icebreaker question last weekend at cg.

I LOVE a good wedding. no really LOVE weddings. I dont' know what it is, I just do. It's a very special day. It's one of the biggest decisions and days in your life. I don't take it lightly.

However, what's up with the trend now to get married on a holiday weekend? Now weekends like Memorial Day and Labor day, not so much a big deal, everyone has that time off. Not to mention the fact that those weekends are made for getting together with friends and family yet aren't exclusive to close family.

But Thanksgiving?! I mean really. Isn't that a little selfish? Not everyone gets the time off to travel that weekend. It's a time to be with your immediate family. I happen to know of not one, but 2 weddings this year Thanksgiving weekend. (and one the weekend between Christmas and New Year's)

Yes, Thanksgiving is about being with your family, but come on....are you really supposed to take everyone else way from their close, immediate family? Now, I guess I should have said, that the 2 Thanksgiving weddings I know about are a couple of brides who have always been pretty selfish. So, maybe it's the perfect weekend for them to get married.

I realize that everyone doesn't think the same way I do. Yes, I believe it's selfish to get married Thanksgiving or Christmas weeken. It's my opionion.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

No Baby and headed to Frankfort.

There has been a lot emotionally going on here in our little part of the world.

First off, just like the title says, there's no baby on the way. Yes, we've been "trying" to get pregnant again. Yes, I know I'm crazy. I've heard it a million times. Yes, I realize 'how close in age' they'll be. Yes, I know I've 'just lost all that weight'. I know. Really. I know.

Neither one of my doctors are worried about it at all. Not even a little bit. So, despite what you may think about how crazy I am, it's okay. And to be perfectly honest, I really don't want to hear how crazy I am any more.
It's what we want.
Thank you. :)

Moving on from that soapbox....

Frankfort. No, we're not moving. My job is though. Having a new govenor elect means a new position for me. Don't worry, I'm not leaving Mary Kay; it's just going to be a sidebar for the time being. My new adventure??

Chief of Staff!!! Yes siree bob, I'm going to be the cheif of staff for one of the cabinet positions. I can't quite disclose which one at this point, but I have been in contact with the person for whom I'll be chief of staff. You don't just get this opportunity; especially when you are 24. So yeah, I'm a slight bit excited.

My family, that knows, is so proud of me. Heck, I am too. It's just a super opportunity.