Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Stop thinking.

How do you stop thinking about getting pregnant so that it actually happens? I can remember telling other women, that when you stop thinking and stressing over it that it will happen. You can't just stop thinking about it. I've learned that little tidbit recently.

We want to grow our family. It's not a one sided thing at this point. We both want to grow our family. Even though I know it's not the truth, there's a part of me that feels like it's my fault that it's not happening. My body conditions have to be right. No stress. It has to be a perfect physiological moment.

Timing may not be perfect or the right thing. However, if you wait for the right time that's like saying I'm going to wait until all the lights are green to head home from work. You'll never make it home! Not to mention some of the best things in my life have come at the "wrong time."

The other thing I have to throw out is what others say. I've had comments from everybody who thinks they know what's best for me, for Dan, for us as a whole. There's a wall that has been broken down from before so it's a brand new learning experience on how to deal with the comments. And, it's not really even dealing with them as much as not retaining them and playing them over and over until I get so angry. That in turn causes stress on the body.

It's a vicious cycle. How do you stop and put an end to it?

2 comments:

janine said...

I love you too brudder.

You need to do what makes you happy and know that regardless, if you are happy, there will be people who support you even if it's not right away. I love you and support whatever decisions you make... I mean come on... we are the only people who know what's best for us because we are the only people who have lived our lives. Others have only been a part of them, but have never fully tread in our shoes for our entire lifetime.

::hugs::

Amber Snell said...

Hey love - we are hoping to start trying again soon, but you are right the time is never right. Whether you wait or keep trying something will always stand in the way, that's life. I wish you guys the best of luck and would love to get together sometime!