Tuesday, February 28, 2006

High on Life....

Yesterday was just great! I was in the best mood ever! Why was it so great?? At first I wasn't sure, but after looking back I know for a fact.
  1. Saw some friends at a favorite place of mine
  2. Took several things in to consign...and they'll send the check to me!
  3. Received a belated birthday gift!
  4. A certain someone in the acadmey came home in a great mood
  5. Realizing the move to Lexington was a right one for me
  6. Money isn't as big of a deal this moment
  7. Placed a good size order
  8. Will be placing a good size order in the next week
  9. My team is rocking....how about my sister with a $300 order!!!
  10. Talked to some old and new friends...for a long time...and the conversation flowed flawlessly
  11. Saw my 10 month old nephew whom I hadn't seen in about a month.
  12. Came home to home....being missed and such is a great feeling....that and I missed being home; thus being part of how I know it's a right move
So yeah...all of that in one day!! I'm happy..it's bubbling over!! WOO HOO!!!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Blast from the past.

I'm at my mom's this morning as I came up yesterday for a wedding. (pics and stories from the wedding to come when I am at my computer and can upload the pictures) While here, I've been cleaning out some of my things. I opened a huge tub of mine that was filled with nothing but pictures and photo albums of mine from high school and the beginning years of college. WOW. What really got me for some unknown reason was the scrapbook that I had started for Alex. Despite what has happened in recent years, I will always love him. Loving someone and being in love with someone are two entirely different things. A woman NEVER forgets her first love....There were so many firsts in my life with that man that I could never forget. The relationship we had is a part of who I am now and the way I act, react, and think about things. For the scrapbook I had printed off some emails and portions of conversations that we had had together. Yes, I read them. Yes, I cried (big surprise...I know) There's one that will always get to me....maybe it's because of the timing of our relationship, maybe it's because of the "grown up" feelings that were involved, maybe just because it was something nice said in love. What I'm about to put up here is from a conversation dated Oct. 5, 2002. That day turned out to be exactly a week before he asked me to marry him. This was his logical explanation on why I'm beautiful...

"that when I think about you and see you, my mind is filled with happiness and joy, when we talk, I"m constantly both challeneged by your intellect and attracted to your personality, and when I look at your picture, I get warm thoughts of the next time we are together, and I can see you again. Those are factual observations, not subjective, because they are my own about me, and from my experience, I am the expert of my own thoughts and feelings; more qualified than anyone. My statement that you are beautiful comes as an expression of the way you make me feel when I think of you, talk to you, and look at you, which are factual things. so the matter of you being beautiful to me is factual, and logically reinforced."

Now, don't go getting any ideas thinking I want to be back with him. We had too bad of an ending and history the past 2 years for that to ever happen. I wanted to say this because, well, I"m not totally sure. I just felt that it was the thing to say today. Yes there are other things that were said, but they don't need to be put in here. I guess I want to remember it for the reason that I know how I deserve to be treated, talked to, loved, yet sometimes I put up with someone sub-par....we all do.

I know that, "when it's the right time" the right person will come along. It's that damned waiting that gets me everytime. I also know that "when you don't look and when you least expect it is when it'll happen." Do you know how easy it is to say that when you are in a realtionship?? It's not NEAR as easy when you are single to say it let alone believe it.

So yeah...I don't know what my readers will think about this, but frankly, I really don't care. This spot is for me to vent, think, see things in writing. So if you have a comment and it's not mean and nasty, you can leave it. I really don't care one way or the other.

Saturday, February 25, 2006

It never ceases to amaze me...

at the stupidity of people in the world. It's everywhere and you can't get away from it!!! They are behind the wheel of a car (one of the scariest places for them to be), they are in academy classes, they are leaders and followers. I think it is just about the only thing that is truly non-discriminatory.

Now, don't get me wrong...I'm not saying that I don't have my stupid moments...I do. They just aren't nearly as frequent as I'm finding it in others.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Thoughts on...

*Team members - YAY!!! I have another new team member as of last night. Such a cute girl!!! I'm very excited because as I move up on my ladder!! I've reached a new status with Mary Kay. I'm going to go to Career Conference on-target for my car...it's just how it's going to be. There's no stopping me now!

*Marriage - yes I totally want to get married, however, I'm not going to act as I have been treated recently. My dear friends, promise me that regardless of how you feel about your true love that you don't forget your friends and treat them like shit.

*Dating - well, there's not much to say in this section right now...not trying to say anything until I figure out what is going on in a situation.

*Living with J - most days are good. We all have bad days....couldn't ask for a better roommate, well maybe one who cleans up and does the dishes a little more often.

*Money - Money isn't everything, but it sure helps out! 'nuf said.

*Blogging - It's a great tool to vent, practice free writing. Readers...it's not about how many people read it. It's not really about who reads it. To be honest I don't care if I have 7 or 17000 people read it. Then why have a counter?? Becasue I'm curious. That and it became a bit of a safety issue when things started happening last fall.

*Life - I LOVE life!! LIve today. Don't live in the past or the future...live now!!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

What to say....

Today is one of those days where I'm not totally sure what to say. So far everything is going the same. I'll be down in Richmond today helping my sister with a party. I do have to admit...after spending time with my mom Monday night, I've been a bit "homesick." It didn't really help that J came home in a very familiar (not from him) bad mood after a long day at the academy. He however did appologize for the way he acted.

Anyway, I was checking my email from EKU yesterday to see what all is going on in the next few days. There was an interesting one from student affairs in regards to facebook, blogging, myspace, etc. The letter spoke of being extremly cautious in the information put in these places due to "internet stalking"...makes sense. The letter then went on to say to also be cautious of what you put into them as employers look at it. Now, after the "blah blah blah" incident I can see to a certain degree as to how that might be the truth. However, I have a hard time believing that employers have THAT much time to stop what they are doing in the rest of the business, search the various places to see if you have posted anything, read whatever it is that you have posted and make a decision based on that information. I could be totally off and 100% wrong, but on this one I doubt it. I'm sure there are exceptions to every rule, however, not sure how many exceptions there are on this one.

Moving on...The calendar today is SO true. It says, "People judge you by your appearance. Whether you're selling a product, applying for a job or vying for promotion, they appraise not only your grooming, but the air of confidence you project, which is a reflection of how you feel about yourself. There is certainly more to a person than appearance. But you still get only one chance to make a good first impression." I noticed this very thing yesterday. Ran to the bank for like 2.2 seconds. I was in jeans and a hoodie, no make up, just in and out really quick. The teller was sweet, but no extra conversation or anything. About a week ago, I went in wearing my business suit, full make up, in and out really quick. Had the same teller as mentioned a few minutes ago. She was extremely nice, extra conversation. So yeah.

There was something else I was going to touch on briefly, but I totally forget now....oops! Oh well!

Have a wonderful day!!! (for those of you in the "regular" work week....It's hump day!!)

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Tears and action

Last night was filled with a lot of both. After a wonderful day in Cincinnati, I came home to a conversation I never expected to have. While the conversation included adult, need to do/right things it didn't make it easier. Yes, I realize this is very vauge, but that would be for a couple reasons.
  1. Protect the somewhat innocent.
  2. You can't just know parts of the story and make sense of it all...hell, myself and the other person involved in the conversation and the entire situation can't even make sense of it all.
  3. It would take days to tell the whole story.
  4. Without knowing the entire story, one or both parties could be seen as horrible people with characteristics that they honestly don't have.
This would be the tears part. Those that know me know that I cry....when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when I'm angry, when I'm frustrated....all of it! Well, tears for nearly all of those reasons and more flowed most the night....all due to this one responsible conversation. WOW

Action: GREAT day and meeting in Cincinnati yesterday! WOO HOO!!!! YAY for mom's who come be your models, YAY for directors who ask your mom when she is going to join your team and your mom replies, I've really been thinking about it, YAY for being the queen of the meeting, YAY for having high goals for the week!! ($500 sales week and 1 new team member).
I say all of this because I don't know if I've ever mentioned how much I love my job. LOL. The other reason is what the calendar says this morning: "The president of a successful company was asked what it took to get to the top. He answered, The same thing it took to get started: a sense of urgency about getting things done." No matter how intelligent or able you may be, if you don't have this sense of urgency, now is the time to devlop it."

WOW What a statement! It's so true....Action is needed and coming!

Sunday, February 19, 2006


How often do we come across silence? Not very. How often do we sit in a room with 1400-1600 other people in pure silence. WOW. I've always been one to have a hard time being quiet...then tell me you want me to sit an entire service that way?! Well, I did it...really I did! I know, it's hard to believe. I don't think I'll do it again though as I think it's detrimental to my health. hehehe.

I will admit though, sitting in pure silence can be amazingly soothing...even for someone like me who hears how loud silence can be.

This weekend was pretty good. Nothing too exciting went on...other than the event I vaugly spoke of from Friday night. No worries about the opposite sex, no worries about life (well almost), spent some quality time hanging out with J.

I've also made the decision...I'm going to kick some butt and take some names to not only get in my car, but into and through DIQ. I've started taking the preliminary steps to do such a thing. Tomorrow will be a day in Cincinnati with Josette and then our unit meeting where I have a couple guests coming. Being persistant is the way things happen.

Have a wonderful day!! Don't miss me too much!!! :)

Friday, February 17, 2006

A positive note.

I went to a business meeting with someone I know, and his wife, this evening. Let me tell you...I LOVE MY JOB! What I learned from tonight:
  • If you are selling me on all the bad points of other companies what are you actually telling me about your company?
  • Be careful what you say and who you bad mouth...you never know who is listening.
  • There's power in being positive...and meaning it.
  • Build your business on quality...not quantity.
  • When you give a presenation on anything, make sure it is your presentation; whether or not you created the power point.
  • Be honest....it's always the best policy.
  • When you meet someone who works for a company, don't bad mouth that company to them.
Wow...what a learning experience.

Long time no blog...

Life has been...well ...interesting!!
  • I've added 2 new team members to my VIBE team! One is qualified and the other is working her way to becoming qualified.
  • I've caught up with some friends.
  • I got to spend majority of yesterday on campus visiting and finding out the various outlooks on the senate going to hell in a handbasket.
  • I spent some wonderful time with a wonderful person (and can't wait for more)....care for a roadtrip?! ;) lol
  • My sister and I are becoming closer.
  • I'm alive and healthy
  • I'm an intellegent, college graduate going to meet some "high-up" Lexitonians tonight. (I think that's a word! lol)
That's the Cliff's Notes version of the past few days. More to come....later.....maybe

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

SAD day...

That's right...it's Singles Awareness Day. The hopeless romantic in me loves the day....when I'm in a relationship that doesn't give me one earring for my birthday and one for V-day because that way it's "2 separate gifts" UGH! "Men: Can't live with 'em, can't eat free with out 'em"...thanks for that one mom!

So here's to all the (male) singles out there....need a date? Come find me!! lol

Sunday, February 12, 2006

It's that time again!!

How about a cheesy quiz?!?!

1. How tall are you barefoot?5'5"
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?I dont do drugs...drugs are bad!
3. Do you own a gun?not at this point in time in my life, however, I have a feeling it'll happen eventually..I do live with a cop and all.
4. Rehab?never needed it
5. Would you ever "do" someone in their parent's bed? Have to say I prolly would.
6. What do you think of hot dogs?Nothing like a hotdog with some french onion chip dip!!! (and no, I'm not pregnant)
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?ooo....tough call...
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? milk
9. Do you do push-ups? ha....I don't have to go too far down due to my chest.
11. Are you vegan? hell no!! Give me a good ol' steak!
12. Do you like painkillers? Well who doesn't when you are hurting?
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? apparently I don't have one....I'm single!
14. Do you own a knife? just the ones in the kitchen
15. Do you have A.D.D.? one can only hope that's what it is! lol
16. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings? can't say I know the pain....not yet anyway
17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment: tomorrow is my birthday! YAY for recruits, Is Dave really going to take me out Wed.?
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought: groceries, subway, wash clothes
19. Name five drinks you regularly drink: milk, Raspberry Tea, Grape Soda, Water, Kool-Aid
20. What time did you wake up today? about 9...I think
21. Current hair? natural....that may change in a few weeks
22. Current worry? $$...but who doesn't worry about $$
23. Current hate? people who don't know how to drive and restaraunts who decide to take cash only
24. Favorite place to be? prolly Time Square NYC or in my bed under the covers cuddling
25. Least favorite place to be? in debt
26. Where would you like to go? on vacation
27. What do you wear when you go to sleep? depends on if I have company or not.
28. What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?National Sales Director with Mary Kay
29. Do you burn or tan? HA! a pale skinned red-head...you tell me!
30. Last thing you ate? peanut M&M's out of the freezer
31. Would you be a pirate? maybe in a different life
32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? Jan. 24....again, sorry Chris and Nicole!
33. What songs do you sing in the shower? whatever I wake up singing
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Captian Hook...
35. What's in your pockets right now? nothing
36. Last thing that made you laugh? a friend asking if my roommate and I had ever dated....he's my cousin and she was unaware of that fact!
37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? Cabbage Patch, Rainbow Brite and The Get-Along Gang!
39. What are your dreams like? craziness
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? here in the apt....there are 3
41. Who is your loudest friend? ohh...prolly Josette!
42. Who is your most silent friend? do I have a quiet friend?!
43. Does someone have a crush on you? actually yes
44. Do you wish on stars? if I see them
45. What is your favorite book? Harry Potter...all of them
46. What is your favorite candy?chocolate or sour patch kids or sweedish fish
47. What song do you want played at your wedding? currently, "that's what I meant when I said I do"
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? hmm...maybe a little, "Here for the Party"
49. What were you doing 12AM last night? Talking to a friend

whew...that was fun!


There is nothing better than offering the wonderful opportunity to a woman and she accepting!....times 2! The job that I have is AMAZING!!! Who gets to make women feel good about themselves every day?? It's not just about eye shadow and some lipstick...It's a people business.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Live today!

2 Sundays ago, while I sat in Southland's sevice for only the 2nd time ever they read a part of a sermon from a Pastor named Kyle Lake. His sermon actually was very prophetic. Before he had the chance to give his sermon that day, in a freak baptism accident he was electrocuted. Doctors in his congregation tried to revive him, but he was dead instantly. His words that he had written for the morning...WOW. I had tried googling his name all week to find the words...I for some reason couldn't find them. (turns out it was becuase I was one letter off on his last name) My plan last Sunday was to ask the pastor after service what his name was so that I could read and reread and reread what he had to say. I didn't have to ask...They used the same passage again just because of how powerful it is. If you are a devout Christian who is in services mulitple times a week, a person who renounces God, or somewhere in between YOU should read this. It's AMAZING!

"Live. And Live Well.

BREATHE. Breathe in and Breathe deeply.

Be PRESENT. Do not be past. Do not be future. Be now.

On a crystal clear, breezy 70 degree day, roll down the windows and FEEL the wind against your skin. Feel the warmth of the sun.

If you run, then allow those first few breaths on a cool Autumn day to FREEZE your lungs and do not just be alarmed, be ALIVE.

Get knee-deep in a novel and LOSE track of time.

If you bike, pedal HARD… and if you crash then crash well.

Feel the SATISFACTION of a job well done—a paper well-written, a project thoroughly completed, a play well-performed.

If you must wipe the snot from your 3-year old’s nose, don’t be disgusted if the Kleenex didn’t catch it all… because soon he’ll be wiping his own.

If you’ve recently experienced loss, then GRIEVE. And Grieve well.

At the table with friends and family, LAUGH. If you’re eating and laughing at the same time, then might as well laugh until you puke. And if you eat, then SMELL. The aromas are not impediments to your day. Steak on the grill, coffee beans freshly ground, cookies in the oven.

And TASTE. Taste every ounce of flavor. Taste every ounce of friendship. Taste every ounce of Life. Because-it-is-most-definitely-a-Gift."

Now, if that's not good stuff, I don't know what is.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Work it, Own it

That's how I've been with my business lately! It's great! I love my job! I love being my own boss! I love making my schedule mine and not being controlled by that "normal" 9-5 stuff! WOO HOO!!! I love living in Lexington!

Yesterday was great. I headed to Richmond to sit in the Faculty Senate Meeting. They were bring ing up a policy change that I had worked on with 20 different faculty/staff members for the past 2.5 years. With minimal questioning and 1 negative vote it passed!!!! It'll go down in history. I'm so excited to have worked on it and see it go thru. Afterwards, I got to catch up with some wonderful adminstration that I've missed. As a result of one of the conversations, I got to tell someone something that I've wanted to say for a long time. The beuaty of it all, is even though I've always thought what I said, I got to say it and it wasn't coming from me!.....I know that's very vauge, but I'd like to keep it that way...for a while at least. I may come out and say who and what it was, but now is not the time.

I'm going to close with words from Mary Kay Ash, "You cannot keep a determined person from success. If you place stumbling blocks in her way, she will take them for stepping-stones and will use them to climb to new heights."

Sunday, February 05, 2006


It's official. Nate and I have said goodbye. It's been a long morning. It was inevitible that it happend and probably best that it happened now....before any more hurt could happen.

Friday, February 03, 2006


people get them....and unfortunatly so do computers. That's when my post about technology is 100% untrue...especially when you finally get things halfway running properly to find out that a wonderful man is taking a job in Australia. I can't be mad at him for it....it's a great career move, good for him...money rocks, but doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Does this mean the end of our relationship?? It's very possible. And probable.