The Best Man ever....

I'm not going to go into all the nitty gritty details of the events that took place last night, but I will say this. I've got the best man there is.

After I came home from my meeting I sat down to have something to eat (you know ladies...a day where you CAN'T get full....no matter what) Dan says he is ready to go to bed. We have this thing where we try our absolute hardest not to go to bed without one another....99% of the time it works for us. I told him I wasn't tired and he says that's ok we can talk. Well we did that for a while and we were joking around when something snapped. I got pissed. Don't ask me what or why or any of that becuase I honestly don't know.
I then got up and started doing things around the house that needed to get done...and not very quietly so my love could try to go to sleep. (it wasn't excessivly loud, just didn't take any steps to make sure I was quiet)
To make a long story short, he finally gets up and finds me in my office about to clean it. He stops me and asks me what's wrong....the only thing I can say is "I don't know" and then burst into tears. I seriously didn't know what was up. All that kept racing through my mind was all the stuff I needed to do and get done. He then leads me back to our bedroom (I'm just totally sobbing at this point) and sits with me and talks with me until I fall asleep.

I don't know what I did to deserve him, but I'm sure glad I got him.

Dreaming....

I'm at the point where I'm considering going to a "dream expert." Just about every morning when I get up, I'm startled awake froma crazy, weird dream. Not the kind where you wake up and go, "Wow. That was weird," but the kind you remember and play back in your head throughout the entire day.

The other day it was about a wedding. This morning I was being chased. I really just need to sit and write them down.

Could it be the change in the bed?? I know that changes in sleeping and what not can affect your dreams/dreaming. Is it becuase of the new bed and I'm actually getting real sleep at night that is casuing this? I'm not sure, but it's crazy. I'm not sure if I want to have anymore dreams like the ones I've been having.

No need to worry that I'm going on some sleep strike though....I'll never give up my sleep!

...Something New.....

something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue:

I got my something new for the wedding yesterday. Bought it for myself as a little gift while I was getting his band picked out. It's a necklace that will be perfect with my dress. Simply gorgeous!

Another something new will be here tomorrow!!! Our beautiful new bed!!! Thanks mom and dad! It's our wedding gift from his parents.

There is something new on the walls of my office....we painted it last week!!!

This weekend I got a cute new bag from my step-grandma....it says "BTB" and underneath it "Bride To Be." Super cute!!!

I think that is the majority of the newness around here!!!

The Past

For some reason unbeknownst to me I've been thinking A LOT about the past lately....past boyfriends, past friends, past schools, past dreams. Maybe that's becuase I turned down a teaching interview today. Maybe it's because I'm getting married in less than 4 months. Maybe it's because of the damned Facebook where I look at people I grew up with having "real" jobs. I don't know.

Don't read into this anymore than it's just got me thinking about people and where they are and what they are doing now...who they are marrying and all of that stuff.

I'm excited to be married and be a wife and a mommy and a rockin' Mary Kay director all in the near future!!!

I will say that the past does have me thinking and wondering about my future. I LOVE DAN!!! I love who I am with and without him. I'm totally excited for the future we will have together. I can't wait....for the near future and the distant future.

Oh!! Our invitations came today!! WOO HOO They look SOOO good!!!!

Well I think that's all....peace.





P.S. To Alex (if you even read this): I'm glad you are happy with your life. I've been wanting to say that for sometime now and just haven't gotten around to it. I still have that "gift" and have every intention on mailing it to you...as soon as time and $$ allows. (slowly but surely things are getting cleaned out of my dad's house where it is) Enjoy Michigan while you are there with Kristy. I've seen a lot of change in you in the past 2.5 years....good change. Even if we had never been thru our past together the you and I now still aren't right for one another and never will be. I will say this though....the past we shared has made me a stronger, smarter, wiser, and even a bit more stubborn woman.

Much Needed Update

I've looked and thought that I've updated I don't know how many times. Well, Thursday I FINALLY got my ring back from the jewlers. I was SO excited to play that message on the answering machine....I didn't even drop anything, I just turned around and walked out the door.

D and I had a GREAT weekend not having ANYWHERE to go. It was so nice to be on our own schedule. Yet at the same time where we've been SO stinkin' busy it almost felt like we were wasting the time. This weekend we are hoping to go bed shopping and pick out our gift from his mom and dad.

I talked to the people doing our invitations yesterday and asked if they by chance knew when they'd be complete. (had to call to let them know the proof was fine) The woman said, "well they are scheduled to ship on the 14th." I said, "Of this month?!" I was SO shocked and excited at the same time.

Other than wedding planning it's been birthdays and working for the both of us.