Stress and Migraines

I don't know what is wrong with me lately. I've been under so much stress and yesterday I got another migraine. Yeah, I get them, but come on....2 in one week? Yesterday was a not so good day for me. I slept in which was good, but I was so stressed for some reason. I didn't exactly handle it the best way either. I was snapping at Randall for stupid shit and every little thing made me cry. He's so good to put up with my shit. I'd better be careful and not take advantage of that fact....last thing I want is for him to leave because I've done something stupid.

What a weekend

OMG...this weekend was SO long. It all started about 2am Friday morning when Randall got up not feeling well. I was asleep and didn't know anything of it. I knew when he got back into bed about 3. ;) Well, a little after 4 he got back up...long story short we were at the ER by 5. There until about 4. Come to find out that they were thinking apendicitis, but couldn't find anything wrong with it. We're still really not sure what exactly it was, and neither are the doctors or surgeons, but he feels better.

Saturday I got to work only to find out that a friend of mine "no longer works here." Yeah, I honestly knew it was coming but never knew that it would go down like it did. We were kinda busy, interesting day. Then there was a bachelorette party...they had a "fun party" for her bachelorette party. Crazy times....good shit but crazy times.

Today was a pretty busy day at work. I woke up not feeling too well and a little nausous. Oh well, such is life. Tonight I came home and went to sleep early again...I've done this the past few nights and had a migrane on Thursday. This morning when I got to work it was like a cold had just randomly come on...I don't know what's up. Oh well. Anyway, I have to work early in the a.m. so I'm gonna check out. Hugs

Finally...

I got to scrap and it looked like something! I was working on something for the store and it turned out really cute. I busted out with some old paper...KI Christmas. That wasn't the best part though. I had Randall pring off a pic for me in black and white b.c I just wasn't feeling the colors of the pic and the papers I had that I knew were in the store. Well after he did that, he got to playing (even more) with his pic from the navy. Let me tell you how stinking cute it was! After he printed the pic, he took my trimmer, cut it all out and then looks at me and says: "Is it ok if I look through the paper?" So he tells me too, "I'm thinking a red, white and blue type idea with the flag and what not." Of course in my head I"m going duh, but on the outside I was like that's great. Then he adds to it by saying, we should look for an emblem of the navy or even I have some of my patches from the different places I was stationed. It was great. No one I've been with has ever appreciated my work like this, let alone jumped in and started helping! He's the best.....now only if he'd let me take random pics of him....I"ll get him there, one day!

confusion

Wow so up until a few days ago things were just going about their normal course....then I got "the message." A message that would change the way I thought and felt towards a person. You may remember Nate...the hot guy from the army...who I was wondering if he could be the one. That is of course until I got a voicemail from him the week after Thanksgiving saying to never call him again as he had another girlfriend. Well....7 months, yes 7 months later I hear from him again....he messages me and appologized for everything. Apparently that day, his mom had died, his sister tried to commit suicide as a result, and he had just gotten word that he had to go back to Iraq for this a third time. Well, then he found out about Randall. I couldn't keep that hidded. My love just oozes out of my pores, so even if I tried, he (nate) would've known that something was up. Well, we talked a couple times and actually Randall hopped on one evening while I was doing something else as Nate had messaged me. After that night, Nate told me that he felt like he was in the way. I'm thinking, you're effin in Iraq....I live with my man, how in the hell can you be in the way?! Regardless, I messaged him last night to see how things were going. He informed me last night that it would be the last time we would talk...ever. I'm still not sure how exactly to feel about it all. I mean, I'm in love with Randall and don't want to be with Nate in that way, however, I respect his decision as he can't be just friends with me and doesn't want to do something that he shouldn't. I'm just confused on what to do with this newfound information about both now and the past.

Shopping!!!!

Yesterday after the facial I had scheduled, Randall and I decided to run around and go shopping. It all started when I wanted to go to Skyline for dinner. Well, the one we stopped by happened to be across the parking lot from a Big Lots....we're in need of a bed, so we thought, what the hell and went over there. Well that trip to Big Lots suddenly became an evening of shopping and decorating "our home". No we don't have a place of our own yet, but we've sure got it decorated. lol We went from Big Lots to Hobby Lobby to Meijer's to then we were just driving around a bit. Well, somehow we got on the conversation of puppies and not wanting to housebreak one (because he feels guilty about how you are truly supposed to do it) and so I said, well what if we adopted one that already was?! He looks at me and says where is petsmart? So we head over there.....they DON'T do puppy adoption!!! We were like WTF?? What Petsmart doesn't do puppy adoption. So then we went next door to World Market. Let me tell you, at first he was all making fun of me for wanting to go in there. Well, next thing we know it's 915...we'd been in there almost an hour and a half and they never once said anything about it being past 9....oops! They were really nice about us still being in there...thank God...I've always worked retail and know how it feels to have someone in there past closing and then they don't buy anything?! Anyway, we've not had the chance in the past to do this so it was really eye opening. It was great. Our tastes are so similar and we like A LOT of the same things, colors and themes.

Throughout our driving around at one point, he looks over and says "thank you." I was totally shocked by it becuase we hadn't been talking about anything that I had done or what not. So I ask him why he said that. He looks at me and says because I can be me. The entire time he was with his most recent ex, he had to change and he wasn't himself. I love the fact that I feel the same. I'm me with Randall. We're us as individuals as well as being a couple.

Ok, enough mushy stuff for yall. I've gotta get ready for work. As a sidenote, I had my Mary Kay business debut this past week and let me tell you I had a great week! Got 9 bookings and did almost $350 in sales!!! woo hoo!!! go me!

Forever Love

So we went to Rick's tonight as our usual routine....Randall joined us since he's moved in. He actually gets along really well with our friends which is totally a good thing. He was cracking jokes and everything with them; even shot a game of pool with the guys. I can't count the number of times we were told to get a room...fine with me though. It's not like we were making out or anything, however, I know I was hanging on him. LOL Anyway, in the midst of the bar and the friends that are family, I started to get teary eyed. They didn't notice, hell, I don't know if Randall even noticed. He said some of the best, sweetest things to me tonight. The few that stick out most to me are: "I've found the one for me." and "Promise me you'll never leave me or hurt me." The first one, yeah sure it's cheesy, but let me tell you, he was looking straight into my eyes when he said it. I felt like no one else was around at all for that moment in time. The other statement is HUGE in both of our books. We've both been hurt way more than we deserve...in the same ways. It still amazes me that he just picked up everything and left KY this past week. I love him so much....I know it's just me and a result of my past, but I wonder sometimes that when I wake up he's not going to be here....after tonight though, I won't worry about that any more.

He's here!!!

YAY!!! Let me tell you how happy I am...well, I don't think words can describe it. I"m just beyond happy right now! Life is wonderful. This afternoon my man arrived here to live! So we unpacked the truck, took it back, came home, ordered pizza for dinner and now we (he) are starting to put things away and bring them in from the garage. A little bit at a time is all it takes.

Next, anyone know of a CHEAP, reliable car?? Mine is dead. Like WAY dead. So, I'm working on trying to find one.

Last but not least, my Mary Kay business debut is tomorrow! I have had a few people tell me they are coming and a few people tell me that they can't. However, I got an order from one of my cousins who said she can't. Every little bit helps....right?

Ok, I better help Randall at least a little bit! Talk to you soon!

Moving in....

I"m SO totally stoked! (wow, haven't used that word in years) Anyways, I am.....on Tuesday, yes as in a few days, Randall is moving in here!!! I know I know, it's a little fast, but let me tell you....he's not fucking around. Not that he's not used to it, but he's changing states!! The reason this time just happens to be different....to be with me. Spacewise, things'll be a little bit tight, but it's worth it! I SO can't wait. I'm so just wow.

How'd it all come about? Well we were talking about school in general, and he has NO motivation to be where he is. (I don't blame him, I wouldn't either) so he was looking at things around South Bend as that was a moving possibility. Well he got to talking the other day with a friend he was in the navy with. She was talking about ITT Tech and how she loves it there. She's at the Boston campus. Anyway, so he's looking to see where a campus is near South Bend if at all. I jokingly made the comment that we have a campus here in Cincy. So he starts to check things out. Well, Thursday he calls and says to me, I just got off the phone with ITT Tech! I was like what?! Then he goes on to say, how would you like it if I were there in the next week or two? I said that'd be great! I'd love every minute of it. Well, yesterday he calls and says...I'll be there on Tuesday! ROCK ON! So that's where we stand right now. Man, I love him!

ahhhhh....Life

Things are going pretty good right now. Randall and I are great, I've caught up with some friends recently which has been really good. We're trying to get my Mary Kay business off and running so if you know anyone who would like to purchase products or you think they'd be good at selling let me know! So anyway..still no news on the car. I may be having to buy a new one. That's gonna be hellish if I do, but life happens...right?! Well, I have some things to get taken care of. I'll check ya later!

3 down....1 to go

....days of partying that is. With the group my mom and I run with, a 3-day weekend equals 4 days of partying. I can't take it...it's a good thing that I"m gonna have the next few days be easy days as far as work is concerned. Oh well, such is life. You never know when you'll have the time to hang like this, so you might as well take it while you can!

To the love of my life: honey I love you with all of my heart. I just want you to know that. Hopefully I'll get to see you this coming weekend! I miss you baby.

Parties galore!

Well, you know it's a holiday weekend with the holiday being on Monday....we had our usual going out Friday night, last night was a party, today is a pool party and tomorrow is another pool party. Fun times!!! The crazy part is, all the parties are with the same group of people...we just keep changing the location!

On a side note: You know you are in Hamilton when: you pull the grill down the street to another house where we are cooking out. That's right ladies and gentlemen...I pulled it down the street. Thank God Cindy wasn't home yet or it'd be on camera!

On the other side note: Randall and I are great!!!Things are back to "normal" (if there is even such a thing as normal). He's gonna try to come down next weekend which will be awesome! I miss him SO much.

Slow and Steady wins the Race

Well....Talked to Randall last night. It was a GREAT conversation. We've decided that we both want to be with each other, we're just gonna take it slower. So that's what we're doing! I'm way excited about this. I"ll update more later on.

When it rains, it pours

So here's the day in a small scale: I quit one of my jobs, my car broke down, I got declined for the loan I need for my business and the biggest shock of them all I got an email from Randall ending things. I've just had a GREAT day. I just don't get how one night a guy can answer the phone saying, "Hey sweetie" and end it saying "I love you" and then 12 hours later send an email like that with no explanation. Not to mention the fact that we talked after the time the email was sent and there was no illuding to anything. UGH! I guess I"m destined to be single and not be the wife and mom I long to be. Hey Amby, what about cloning RG?

BIG shock of the day

Well, in an email, I got the "we're better as friends speech." There was no indication of it earlier today when we talked...everything was as normal. I just don't understand. I'd at least like to know what the deal is and why this came up all of a sudden.

Life is CRAZY!!!

Thing in my world have been total craziness lately. Here are just a few things going on: my MK debut is scheduled for July 13, I'm going to quit one of my babysitting jobs today (and not necessarily in a nice way), I got to catch up with 2 good friends yesterday!, and I'm staying the weekend with Randall this weekend. These, in my book, are all great things! I know this is super short, but I've got to jet. I'll write more on the subject of quitting when I get home tonight!

In the words of Cinderella....

"so this is love" I have the best man in the world...sorry ladies, he's all mine! Tonight I was watching Harry Potter. He's having cable "issues" right now so he's been watching DVD's for like the past week. Not that it's really all that much of a problem since he's got like 300. Anyway, he asked me which one I was watching...I told him...next thing I hear is Harry Potter in the background. Then he goes what part are you at? I told him and he found where I was so he could watch the movie with me. Unfortunately I have to work tomorrow, otherwise, I'd be down there watching a movie with him. ;) That's just one example at one point in time today of the reason he's the best!

In other news, my Mary Kay business is starting to take off! I'm SO excited and pumped about doing this. Randall is pretty much supportive of it all, especially if I start making the big bucks that my "go-getter" life style will bring on! I'm actually having a party tomorrow night, well I guess it's tonight at my house. Let me know if you want to come! If nothing else, it's a free facial! Ok, back to the business site...I'm SO ready to get going with this and earn my first car....my goal is to have it by Jan. 1!!!

What a great day!!!

Well, Adam was ok today while I watched him...I only had him today. We went to Sharon Woods and played for a while...it was fun! Then he took a 2.5 hour nap!! Let me tell you how much that rocked. It meant that I got to take a nap, I worked on a project for the store AND I called Randall....so here's the update with him: He went to the doctor on Monday b.c he had an appointment anyway. The dr says, that's not strep, it's tonsilitis. So then they are like, take the meds you are and it should work itself out...if it doesn't, you'll have to have surgery. Ok, no big deal. He's on another med anyway right now and they said that the only sideaffect of the 2 together would be possibly being sleepy. Heh, boy is THAT the truth. The reason I've not talked to him in the past few days is because he's been asleep since he came home from that doctor's appoint ment on Monday! When I called at about 3 this afternoon, I think that was the first time he'd actually been up! CRAZINESS!!! BUT, at least I don't have to worry...as much...since I know he's ok.

Tonight, I made the leap and started my Mary Kay business...that's right, I now sell Mary Kay. Let me know if you need/want anything and I'll take care of you! Anyways, that's life in a nutshell today. Hope yall had a good day!

P.S. What's a girl gotta do to get some comments?!?! LOL

To call or not to call?

What do you do when the man you love is sick?! You go home early from your weekend together. The last time you talk to him is Saturday night. You've called each day since then. It is now Wednesday morning and you've not heard from him. You know he's got class tonight. Is he going? Is he not going? Is he really sick still? Is he ok? You're worried. Things start running through your head. Things that are probably not true, but you always think about the worst. I just love him so much. I know he loves me. I just wish that even if he didn't want to talk or be bothered since he's sick that he'd leave me a message saying that he was ok. He told me that when he's sick he doesn't like people to be around him. That I can handle. I don't like the change of going from talking several times a day for hours to nothing....no contact whatsoever. I guess it's the mom in me or the fact that I just love him and I don't want anything to happen to him. I know by no means am I superwoman, but hell, I sure give her a run for her money. What should I do? Do I call? Do I not call? What do I do to pass the time so that I don't worry?


Heh, quick story from VBS last night. So I'm teaching third graders....my favorite age...right?! Well, last night one of my girls calls another one of my girls an "annoying bitch". Yup folks, you read that right....right there in the middle of church! Whew, I think it's a good thing that I'm not going to be there tonight or tomorrow night.

Worried

I try REALLY hard not to worry, but I just can't help it. It's the type of person I am. *SIGH* I know it'll be ok...there's a reason I've not heard. I just wish I knew for sure.

Missing My Man

Wow...I KNOW he's sick....I've not heard from him in a couple days. He needs to get better though and prolly doesn't need my help. Oh well.

Today was a decent day. The kids were pretty good all around. Tonight was also the first night of VBS. I was only going to teach 2 nights, but then I got there and felt guilty...so I'm teaching 4 of 5 this week. In other words, yes I know I'm nutso!

I've aslo been inspired to do a project for the store and actually get it done! I'm not telling anyone at all what it is though until I"m finished with it. Why do that and ruin the amazing surprise?!

I think that's all the bits and pieces of news. I still miss my man. I love him with everything that I have and everything that I am.