Not so cute...

Friday night was a real doosey. While housesitting I was pulling together things for errands to do because I'm housesitting on the opposite side of the world from where any and everything is. So I drive over to the part of town where I grew up to get my errands done and meet family for dinner at a new restaraunt. Go to the store I used to work at, sold lipstick and gloss, and headed to dinner. I go to the restaraunt and tell the hostess that which group I'm looking for. She replies, "Oh, they called and cancelled the reservation." I tell her "thanks" and turn around and walk out. I was SO pissed. I call my dad to see if they had called him...nope, nothing. Call my cousin, whom I live with and knew I would be there, he didn't answer his phone. I was hot. So I go to my dads and I'm like this is just shitty. I"m tired of the horrible communication between the men on that side of the family. I had worked up being the bigger person to deal with my cousin and his horrific wife and then they pull this stunt. So I decide to go to Rick's.

Well, things weren't much better there. I overhear my mom talking about going to FLA at the end of the month....to talk to recruiters for the banks down there, a person who I can't stand walks in and is practically on top of me so she can stand where I was standing and then decides she's just going to dive in and eat my dinner. (yes, she really just reached in and ate things like it was ok) I would have had no problem with this if 1. I liked her and 2. she asked. So I go over to another table and sit and talk and what not. I'm still not feeling good so I was like "fuck this shit" and left. Everyone was asking what was wrong, but I really didn't feel like getting kicked out for starting a fight so I just didn't answer. UGH! Not so cute

Yesterday was great....stayed in my pj's all day and organized and cleaned. I love days like that! I know it's wierd, but I love to organize! crazy...I know! It was also a friends birthday so when I woke up at 830 (thanks dog) I rolled over, grabbed my phone and called and woke him up! Surprisingly he wasn't mad....he does the same thing! So yeah, we talked off and on all day yesterday (which isn't really any different than normal) And that was my day.

Today...more cleaning and organizing. Maybe a little designing for some flyers and postcards. But really, a laid back day.

Realization....

I've come a LONG way in 2 years. Yesterday marks the anniversary of a huge life change. Those close to me know what the life change could possibly be. In 2 years I have:

• loved and hated
• graduated college with 2 teaching certificates...while holding the honor of being the commencement speaker
• built my politcal career
• moved to a different state
• completed every semester there forward on the dean's list
• found out parts of who I am...we're constantly learning on this one.
• started my own business
• "grown up" - I use the term loosly
• built stronger friendships that would have never happened
• really realized that "everything happens for a reason"
• made peace with multiple people
• excommunicated drama
• honed personal skills and abilities that were being held back
• bought a new car
• become an "aunt"....again :)
• really realized that people aren't who they say they are....most the time. There are exceptions to every rule
• helped passed MAJOR policy on a campus near and dear to my heart
• become involved heavily in professional organizations.. that would have never been able to happen
• reunited with people from my past

and most importantly....

• learned to love again

Here's to the past 2 years that played a huge part into who I am and what I am and who I will become!!! A LOT can (and does) happen in 2 years. Here's to many more!!!!

Feels like forever

..since I've posted. Things have been a bit on the crazy side. I've been spending time with various friends this week due to the fact that I am, now, in Cincinnati until the 13th. Feels like my rent $$ this month is more like a storage spot. Because once I go home from Cincinnati...I'm home about 10 days and turn around to go to Career Conference in Indy. So the past few days have just been packing and making decisions on what to do with everything the next few weeks. Paying bills early (never a bad thing), running errands, etc. etc.

Oh, and as of March 1 I am officially a KY resident. WOW...that's kind of scary.....actually, it's a lot scary.

Well, more work to be done here at Josette's so I'll catch up later!

High on Life....

Yesterday was just great! I was in the best mood ever! Why was it so great?? At first I wasn't sure, but after looking back I know for a fact.

1. Saw some friends at a favorite place of mine
2. Took several things in to consign...and they'll send the check to me!
3. Received a belated birthday gift!
4. A certain someone in the acadmey came home in a great mood
5. Realizing the move to Lexington was a right one for me
6. Money isn't as big of a deal this moment
7. Placed a good size order
8. Will be placing a good size order in the next week
9. My team is rocking....how about my sister with a $300 order!!!
10. Talked to some old and new friends...for a long time...and the conversation flowed flawlessly
11. Saw my 10 month old nephew whom I hadn't seen in about a month.
12. Came home to home....being missed and such is a great feeling....that and I missed being home; thus being part of how I know it's a right move

So yeah...all of that in one day!! I'm happy..it's bubbling over!! WOO HOO!!!

Blast from the past.

I'm at my mom's this morning as I came up yesterday for a wedding. (pics and stories from the wedding to come when I am at my computer and can upload the pictures) While here, I've been cleaning out some of my things. I opened a huge tub of mine that was filled with nothing but pictures and photo albums of mine from high school and the beginning years of college. WOW. What really got me for some unknown reason was the scrapbook that I had started for Alex. Despite what has happened in recent years, I will always love him. Loving someone and being in love with someone are two entirely different things. A woman NEVER forgets her first love....There were so many firsts in my life with that man that I could never forget. The relationship we had is a part of who I am now and the way I act, react, and think about things. For the scrapbook I had printed off some emails and portions of conversations that we had had together. Yes, I read them. Yes, I cried (big surprise...I know) There's one that will always get to me....maybe it's because of the timing of our relationship, maybe it's because of the "grown up" feelings that were involved, maybe just because it was something nice said in love. What I'm about to put up here is from a conversation dated Oct. 5, 2002. That day turned out to be exactly a week before he asked me to marry him. This was his logical explanation on why I'm beautiful...

"that when I think about you and see you, my mind is filled with happiness and joy, when we talk, I"m constantly both challeneged by your intellect and attracted to your personality, and when I look at your picture, I get warm thoughts of the next time we are together, and I can see you again. Those are factual observations, not subjective, because they are my own about me, and from my experience, I am the expert of my own thoughts and feelings; more qualified than anyone. My statement that you are beautiful comes as an expression of the way you make me feel when I think of you, talk to you, and look at you, which are factual things. so the matter of you being beautiful to me is factual, and logically reinforced."

Now, don't go getting any ideas thinking I want to be back with him. We had too bad of an ending and history the past 2 years for that to ever happen. I wanted to say this because, well, I"m not totally sure. I just felt that it was the thing to say today. Yes there are other things that were said, but they don't need to be put in here. I guess I want to remember it for the reason that I know how I deserve to be treated, talked to, loved, yet sometimes I put up with someone sub-par....we all do.

I know that, "when it's the right time" the right person will come along. It's that damned waiting that gets me everytime. I also know that "when you don't look and when you least expect it is when it'll happen." Do you know how easy it is to say that when you are in a realtionship?? It's not NEAR as easy when you are single to say it let alone believe it.

So yeah...I don't know what my readers will think about this, but frankly, I really don't care. This spot is for me to vent, think, see things in writing. So if you have a comment and it's not mean and nasty, you can leave it. I really don't care one way or the other.

It never ceases to amaze me...

at the stupidity of people in the world. It's everywhere and you can't get away from it!!! They are behind the wheel of a car (one of the scariest places for them to be), they are in academy classes, they are leaders and followers. I think it is just about the only thing that is truly non-discriminatory.

Now, don't get me wrong...I'm not saying that I don't have my stupid moments...I do. They just aren't nearly as frequent as I'm finding it in others.

Thoughts on...

*Team members - YAY!!! I have another new team member as of last night. Such a cute girl!!! I'm very excited because as I move up on my ladder!! I've reached a new status with Mary Kay. I'm going to go to Career Conference on-target for my car...it's just how it's going to be. There's no stopping me now!

*Marriage - yes I totally want to get married, however, I'm not going to act as I have been treated recently. My dear friends, promise me that regardless of how you feel about your true love that you don't forget your friends and treat them like shit.

*Dating - well, there's not much to say in this section right now...not trying to say anything until I figure out what is going on in a situation.

*Living with J - most days are good. We all have bad days....couldn't ask for a better roommate, well maybe one who cleans up and does the dishes a little more often.

*Money - Money isn't everything, but it sure helps out! 'nuf said.

*Blogging - It's a great tool to vent, practice free writing. Readers...it's not about how many people read it. It's not really about who reads it. To be honest I don't care if I have 7 or 17000 people read it. Then why have a counter?? Becasue I'm curious. That and it became a bit of a safety issue when things started happening last fall.

*Life - I LOVE life!! LIve today. Don't live in the past or the future...live now!!

What to say....

Today is one of those days where I'm not totally sure what to say. So far everything is going the same. I'll be down in Richmond today helping my sister with a party. I do have to admit...after spending time with my mom Monday night, I've been a bit "homesick." It didn't really help that J came home in a very familiar (not from him) bad mood after a long day at the academy. He however did appologize for the way he acted.

Anyway, I was checking my email from EKU yesterday to see what all is going on in the next few days. There was an interesting one from student affairs in regards to facebook, blogging, myspace, etc. The letter spoke of being extremly cautious in the information put in these places due to "internet stalking"...makes sense. The letter then went on to say to also be cautious of what you put into them as employers look at it. Now, after the "blah blah blah" incident I can see to a certain degree as to how that might be the truth. However, I have a hard time believing that employers have THAT much time to stop what they are doing in the rest of the business, search the various places to see if you have posted anything, read whatever it is that you have posted and make a decision based on that information. I could be totally off and 100% wrong, but on this one I doubt it. I'm sure there are exceptions to every rule, however, not sure how many exceptions there are on this one.

Moving on...The calendar today is SO true. It says, "People judge you by your appearance. Whether you're selling a product, applying for a job or vying for promotion, they appraise not only your grooming, but the air of confidence you project, which is a reflection of how you feel about yourself. There is certainly more to a person than appearance. But you still get only one chance to make a good first impression." I noticed this very thing yesterday. Ran to the bank for like 2.2 seconds. I was in jeans and a hoodie, no make up, just in and out really quick. The teller was sweet, but no extra conversation or anything. About a week ago, I went in wearing my business suit, full make up, in and out really quick. Had the same teller as mentioned a few minutes ago. She was extremely nice, extra conversation. So yeah.

There was something else I was going to touch on briefly, but I totally forget now....oops! Oh well!

Have a wonderful day!!! (for those of you in the "regular" work week....It's hump day!!)

Tears and action

Last night was filled with a lot of both. After a wonderful day in Cincinnati, I came home to a conversation I never expected to have. While the conversation included adult, need to do/right things it didn't make it easier. Yes, I realize this is very vauge, but that would be for a couple reasons.

1. Protect the somewhat innocent.
2. You can't just know parts of the story and make sense of it all...hell, myself and the other person involved in the conversation and the entire situation can't even make sense of it all.
   
3. It would take days to tell the whole story.
4. Without knowing the entire story, one or both parties could be seen as horrible people with characteristics that they honestly don't have.

This would be the tears part. Those that know me know that I cry....when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when I'm angry, when I'm frustrated....all of it! Well, tears for nearly all of those reasons and more flowed most the night....all due to this one responsible conversation. WOW

Action: GREAT day and meeting in Cincinnati yesterday! WOO HOO!!!! YAY for mom's who come be your models, YAY for directors who ask your mom when she is going to join your team and your mom replies, I've really been thinking about it, YAY for being the queen of the meeting, YAY for having high goals for the week!! ($500 sales week and 1 new team member).
I say all of this because I don't know if I've ever mentioned how much I love my job. LOL. The other reason is what the calendar says this morning: "The president of a successful company was asked what it took to get to the top. He answered, The same thing it took to get started: a sense of urgency about getting things done." No matter how intelligent or able you may be, if you don't have this sense of urgency, now is the time to devlop it."

WOW What a statement! It's so true....Action is needed and coming!

Silence....

How often do we come across silence? Not very. How often do we sit in a room with 1400-1600 other people in pure silence. WOW. I've always been one to have a hard time being quiet...then tell me you want me to sit an entire service that way?! Well, I did it...really I did! I know, it's hard to believe. I don't think I'll do it again though as I think it's detrimental to my health. hehehe.

I will admit though, sitting in pure silence can be amazingly soothing...even for someone like me who hears how loud silence can be.

This weekend was pretty good. Nothing too exciting went on...other than the event I vaugly spoke of from Friday night. No worries about the opposite sex, no worries about life (well almost), spent some quality time hanging out with J.

I've also made the decision...I'm going to kick some butt and take some names to not only get in my car, but into and through DIQ. I've started taking the preliminary steps to do such a thing. Tomorrow will be a day in Cincinnati with Josette and then our unit meeting where I have a couple guests coming. Being persistant is the way things happen.

Have a wonderful day!! Don't miss me too much!!! :)

A positive note.

I went to a business meeting with someone I know, and his wife, this evening. Let me tell you...I LOVE MY JOB! What I learned from tonight:

• If you are selling me on all the bad points of other companies what are you actually telling me about your company?
• Be careful what you say and who you bad mouth...you never know who is listening.
• There's power in being positive...and meaning it.
• Build your business on quality...not quantity.
• When you give a presenation on anything, make sure it is your presentation; whether or not you created the power point.
• Be honest....it's always the best policy.
• When you meet someone who works for a company, don't bad mouth that company to them.
  

Wow...what a learning experience.

Long time no blog...

Life has been...well ...interesting!!

• I've added 2 new team members to my VIBE team! One is qualified and the other is working her way to becoming qualified.
  
• I've caught up with some friends.
• I got to spend majority of yesterday on campus visiting and finding out the various outlooks on the senate going to hell in a handbasket.
• I spent some wonderful time with a wonderful person (and can't wait for more)....care for a roadtrip?! ;) lol
• My sister and I are becoming closer.
• I'm alive and healthy
• I'm an intellegent, college graduate going to meet some "high-up" Lexitonians tonight. (I think that's a word! lol)
• I LOVE LIFE!

That's the Cliff's Notes version of the past few days. More to come....later.....maybe

SAD day...

That's right...it's Singles Awareness Day. The hopeless romantic in me loves the day....when I'm in a relationship that doesn't give me one earring for my birthday and one for V-day because that way it's "2 separate gifts" UGH! "Men: Can't live with 'em, can't eat free with out 'em"...thanks for that one mom!

So here's to all the (male) singles out there....need a date? Come find me!! lol

It's that time again!!

How about a cheesy quiz?!?!

1. How tall are you barefoot?5'5"
2. Have you ever smoked heroin?I dont do drugs...drugs are bad!
3. Do you own a gun?not at this point in time in my life, however, I have a feeling it'll happen eventually..I do live with a cop and all.
4. Rehab?never needed it
5. Would you ever "do" someone in their parent's bed? Have to say I prolly would.
6. What do you think of hot dogs?Nothing like a hotdog with some french onion chip dip!!! (and no, I'm not pregnant)
7. What's your favorite Christmas song?ooo....tough call...
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? milk
9. Do you do push-ups? ha....I don't have to go too far down due to my chest.
11. Are you vegan? hell no!! Give me a good ol' steak!
12. Do you like painkillers? Well who doesn't when you are hurting?
13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? apparently I don't have one....I'm single!
14. Do you own a knife? just the ones in the kitchen
15. Do you have A.D.D.? one can only hope that's what it is! lol
16. Do you love the pain a tattoo brings? can't say I know the pain....not yet anyway
17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment: tomorrow is my birthday! YAY for recruits, Is Dave really going to take me out Wed.?
18. Name the last 3 things you have bought: groceries, subway, wash clothes
19. Name five drinks you regularly drink: milk, Raspberry Tea, Grape Soda, Water, Kool-Aid
20. What time did you wake up today? about 9...I think
21. Current hair? natural....that may change in a few weeks
22. Current worry? $$...but who doesn't worry about $$
23. Current hate? people who don't know how to drive and restaraunts who decide to take cash only
24. Favorite place to be? prolly Time Square NYC or in my bed under the covers cuddling
25. Least favorite place to be? in debt
26. Where would you like to go? on vacation
27. What do you wear when you go to sleep? depends on if I have company or not.
28. What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years?National Sales Director with Mary Kay
29. Do you burn or tan? HA! a pale skinned red-head...you tell me!
30. Last thing you ate? peanut M&M's out of the freezer
31. Would you be a pirate? maybe in a different life
32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? Jan. 24....again, sorry Chris and Nicole!
33. What songs do you sing in the shower? whatever I wake up singing
34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Captian Hook...
35. What's in your pockets right now? nothing
36. Last thing that made you laugh? a friend asking if my roommate and I had ever dated....he's my cousin and she was unaware of that fact!
37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? Cabbage Patch, Rainbow Brite and The Get-Along Gang!
39. What are your dreams like? craziness
40. How many TVs do you have in your house? here in the apt....there are 3
41. Who is your loudest friend? ohh...prolly Josette!
42. Who is your most silent friend? do I have a quiet friend?!
43. Does someone have a crush on you? actually yes
44. Do you wish on stars? if I see them
45. What is your favorite book? Harry Potter...all of them
46. What is your favorite candy?chocolate or sour patch kids or sweedish fish
47. What song do you want played at your wedding? currently, "that's what I meant when I said I do"
48. What song do you want played at your funeral? hmm...maybe a little, "Here for the Party"
49. What were you doing 12AM last night? Talking to a friend


whew...that was fun!

YAY!!

There is nothing better than offering the wonderful opportunity to a woman and she accepting!....times 2! The job that I have is AMAZING!!! Who gets to make women feel good about themselves every day?? It's not just about eye shadow and some lipstick...It's a people business.

Live today!

2 Sundays ago, while I sat in Southland's sevice for only the 2nd time ever they read a part of a sermon from a Pastor named Kyle Lake. His sermon actually was very prophetic. Before he had the chance to give his sermon that day, in a freak baptism accident he was electrocuted. Doctors in his congregation tried to revive him, but he was dead instantly. His words that he had written for the morning...WOW. I had tried googling his name all week to find the words...I for some reason couldn't find them. (turns out it was becuase I was one letter off on his last name) My plan last Sunday was to ask the pastor after service what his name was so that I could read and reread and reread what he had to say. I didn't have to ask...They used the same passage again just because of how powerful it is. If you are a devout Christian who is in services mulitple times a week, a person who renounces God, or somewhere in between YOU should read this. It's AMAZING!


"Live. And Live Well.

BREATHE. Breathe in and Breathe deeply.

Be PRESENT. Do not be past. Do not be future. Be now.

On a crystal clear, breezy 70 degree day, roll down the windows and FEEL the wind against your skin. Feel the warmth of the sun.

If you run, then allow those first few breaths on a cool Autumn day to FREEZE your lungs and do not just be alarmed, be ALIVE.

Get knee-deep in a novel and LOSE track of time.

If you bike, pedal HARD… and if you crash then crash well.

Feel the SATISFACTION of a job well done—a paper well-written, a project thoroughly completed, a play well-performed.

If you must wipe the snot from your 3-year old’s nose, don’t be disgusted if the Kleenex didn’t catch it all… because soon he’ll be wiping his own.

If you’ve recently experienced loss, then GRIEVE. And Grieve well.

At the table with friends and family, LAUGH. If you’re eating and laughing at the same time, then might as well laugh until you puke. And if you eat, then SMELL. The aromas are not impediments to your day. Steak on the grill, coffee beans freshly ground, cookies in the oven.

And TASTE. Taste every ounce of flavor. Taste every ounce of friendship. Taste every ounce of Life. Because-it-is-most-definitely-a-Gift."

Now, if that's not good stuff, I don't know what is.

Work it, Own it

That's how I've been with my business lately! It's great! I love my job! I love being my own boss! I love making my schedule mine and not being controlled by that "normal" 9-5 stuff! WOO HOO!!! I love living in Lexington!

Yesterday was great. I headed to Richmond to sit in the Faculty Senate Meeting. They were bring ing up a policy change that I had worked on with 20 different faculty/staff members for the past 2.5 years. With minimal questioning and 1 negative vote it passed!!!! It'll go down in history. I'm so excited to have worked on it and see it go thru. Afterwards, I got to catch up with some wonderful adminstration that I've missed. As a result of one of the conversations, I got to tell someone something that I've wanted to say for a long time. The beuaty of it all, is even though I've always thought what I said, I got to say it and it wasn't coming from me!.....I know that's very vauge, but I'd like to keep it that way...for a while at least. I may come out and say who and what it was, but now is not the time.

I'm going to close with words from Mary Kay Ash, "You cannot keep a determined person from success. If you place stumbling blocks in her way, she will take them for stepping-stones and will use them to climb to new heights."

Goodbye

It's official. Nate and I have said goodbye. It's been a long morning. It was inevitible that it happend and probably best that it happened now....before any more hurt could happen.

Viruses....

people get them....and unfortunatly so do computers. That's when my post about technology is 100% untrue...especially when you finally get things halfway running properly to find out that a wonderful man is taking a job in Australia. I can't be mad at him for it....it's a great career move, good for him...money rocks, but doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Does this mean the end of our relationship?? It's very possible. And probable.

life.....

It's always interesting. Never stops changing. The calendar from Mary Kay Ash today said this:

"Some "just for you" tips for relaxing...:Spend quiet time by yourself with a good book. Take a weekend to visit a college girlfriend; it's healthy to have women friends. Take good care of your skin and use quality cosmetics to make yourself look and feel beautiful; your entire family will benefit from how this affects you."

Life....Live it!

Technology is wonderful!!!

This morning, I started to be mad at myself when I heard someone messaging me as I hadn't turned down my sound last night. It was more than once...so I got up. With one miniscule movement of my mouse to get rid of the screensaver, my anger for being woken up had quickly changed to pure happiness. I saw the screen name of this wonderful man! (just look at those dimples!!!)

Not only did technology make it so that we could talk to each other for nearly 2 hours this morning with me here in Lexington and him in Iraq, but technology was even nicer to me this morning. ... I was able to see him smile at me! (and he wasn't in all that gear either!)

It amazes me how he can be halfway around the world and we can have a normal conversation. Sure the topics aren't always the best (from what he can tell me at the moment) or they may just consist of "hi...how are you...I miss you...I'm going to be gone a few days", but we are both able to smile.

Even though my technology doesn't always work the way I want it to...he is able to see me too...through stills right now. The connection in Iraq isn't ideal, but neither is the fact that he is there. We never know when there will be a power outage, or when someone will knock on the door and say we have a mission; be ready to leave in 10 minutes, but just a few seconds of talking to each other is fine with us. We are happy with the moments we get.

For most of the nearly two years that we have known each other he has been in Iraq. August he comes home...duty time complete. August is just 6 months away. Time always has its way of going faster than you expect it will. I'm excited to see what the next 6 months and the time there after holds for us!

My abs hurt...

from dancing like it was my job all weekend long! Thursday night I went out with Chirs and Nicole for Chris' birthday. We went to Avio here in Lex. And that's all I care to say about it! Friday a very tired me drove to Cincinnati to work for Josette, and also go to Rick's. That's right DixzHighway was playing! I danced until 205 am. on about 2 hours of real sleep. Needless to say, I came home and crashed....after I started my laundry that is. *Note to self: 2 nights in a row of dancing is an amazing workout......your abs and legs will agree with that statement.*
Yesterday we a very long day. I guess it was because I was SO tired. Piddled around the condo while I was waiting for my laundry to be done. As I was doing so, I talked to Nate for a while...in the midst of power surges in his building. He got a job offer making more than his military and civilian job put together...in Australia. I sure hope he doesn't take it, but that's a decision only he can make. Back to yesterday.
Once I got everything I needed and/or wanted from the condo I decided I needed to go to SBC as it is one last time. It was good to be "home". Scary how stark it was. I'm excited about the new coming adventure though!!!
After a good visit in the store, it was time to head back. So with my loaded down little car I hopped on 75 and headed south.
We got the car unloaded and pretty much put everything in its place. Then reality sunk in. And I was not a happy camper. So we went out for some DQ and laughed and talked and things just seemed to be alright for a bit. We came home and watched Monsters Inc while I worked on pulling things together for my business. And then crashed.
Today is a new day! Everything WILL workout. It always does.

It took forever...

to get logged on. The "half an hour" down time turned into more like 24.

Well as I was listening to my VM for work this morning, the last message was from a florist here in town. Saying I had flowers and they needed to get my apartment number. I listened to the message about 5 times to make sure I was really hearing that. So then I took the phone number and did a reverse search on it to see if it really was a florist. It was. So I called, still in denial that they were for me. (especially since on my voicemail the woman called me "Mary") I told them who I was and they said yes, they had a delievery for me. I waited and waited. Abotu 115 or so I laid down and fell asleep. At 2, J came in from getting the mail and gave me the door hanger that they had been there. I guess they didn't hardly knock on the door as you practically have to pound in order for us to hear anything. So I go pick them up. All day I had been trying to figure out who it would be that would have been from. I'm there and the guy goes, "I just got back with them." In my head I'm going, then why did you write 1:00 on the tag as it's after 2 and we are located on the same street. So I open the card. It says "Katy, Happy new apartment, new adventure. Bev" They were from my step-mom. That was nice. Totally not who I was expecting, or hoping.

So, I can honestly say, still no flowers from a guy.

Ok, so I'm a dork!

Yes, I realize I'm a dork, but I just love things like this! OH WELL!!!

1. First thing you did this morning? Woke up when the lead foot that lives above us was doing who knows what at 6 this morning.
2. Last thing you ate? Arby's
3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap? Not usually, but it's acting up....phone never rang and I just got a VM that came through with a time stamp of 12:54.
4. What's the thing you look forward to most in the next 6 months? Earning my car and Nate coming home!
5. What's annoying you right now? the untrue statement, "Muscle weighs more than Fat"
6. What's the last movie you saw in a theater? umm....oh! It was Stealth...over the summer with Randall.
7. Do you believe in long distance relationships? HEH! If you can do it, more power to you. Mine have never worked out.
8. I don't know where 8 went! Pamela didn't have it either
9. Is there someone you miss? Totally! Several, some in this state, a couple in Florida, some in Ohio, and one in Iraq
10. Who was the last person you texted? Mom
11. If you could put together a concert of 5 bands or artists who it be? Oh.... Gretchen Wilson woudl definatly be on the list, prolly a little Kenny Chesny, and then to be different I'd prolly add some non country in there, just not sure who.
12. It ran away with 8!
13. What are a few things you wish you were better at doing? I wish I was better at being consistant...on everything.
14. If you could be anywhere this second, where would it be? In Nate's arms....really don't care where we are.
15. What's your most vivid memory from 6th grade? On "twin day" dressing up like my teacher preggo belly and all! (told you I was a dork)
16. Latest addiction? umm....oh!!! DVR!
17. Have you ever had the urge to kill someone? I wouldn't actually go through with it
18. How many people would you say are interested in you? Truly interested?? I have no clue.
19. What do you love doing? girls' nights, dancing, working my business, reading Harry Potter, sleeping!
20. Do you think someone thinks about you daily? I know so!
21. Who was the last person you saw or talked to? J....we just ran errands together
22. What do you want to be when you grow up? a wife, a mommy and a Mary Kay National Sales Director
23. What is your favorite food? depends on the time of the month!
24. How many people do you know with the same name as yours? heh...I can't count that high!
25. What was the last thing you spilled? half a can of Root Beer on the dining room table...saved my date book before it got too wet.


Hope you learned something!! YAY!

Newsflash....

muscle does NOT weigh more than fat!!!

I have heard the statement "Muscle weighs more than fat" about 17000 times in the past week. NOT TRUE. Which is heavier? A pound of feathers or a pound of bricks?? Neither they both weigh a pound! The same is true with muscle and fat. Now...when you workout, you build muscle and may not loose the fat right away. Your body has to get used to the new regiments that you are giving it. What's the difference? Muscle is leaner and more compact than fat. Thus your "weight" may go up in the beginning (due to the building of new/more muscle), but the girth of certain areas are actually going down, but that's only in the beginning.

Whew...ok...had to get that off of my chest.

Life in Lexington is rocking! Hanging out, working my business, occasionally talking to a certain soldier when he's not out on various missions.

Willpower....

While at 608 tonight at Southland, the pastor said something that just stuck. It was about willpower. He said, "no one has ever done anything because of willpower. If you were, God would have sent Dr. Phil instead of Jesus!"

How true is that?!?!

Men

OK...so I know it's been a few days since I've updated, but oh well.

Lexington is treating me well!! I totally love living with J! He and I were actually talking about that very thing last night. We love the fact that we are close enough to live together, to have fun, to laugh from the belly. It's just great.

Now, onto the title of my blog today. The subject of men is an interesting one. They come and go in your life....new and old, loved and hated, drop dead gorgeous and ugly as shit. The one you want is always the one you can't have; the one that's not there. Now, this is just a realization....not necessarily directed towards one man or another. There are some connections, but only I truly know what those are. Is there one for each of the descriptions?? Yeah. Am I going to say who? NO. It just needed to get off my chest.

Ok, off the sudsy street pulpit...hehehe (off my soapbox!)

My sister sent me these pictures of our move. Stinkin' hilarious!! So in going along with a new, current, popular song and the fact that yes the family on the back of our U-haul has a slightly darker skin pigment than we do. A comment would be made at how funny it would be if momma (she has 2 kids in the picture, but it won't load for some reason) had a "gold toof." Well, my darling sister remembered the sharpie that was downstairs in dad's shop and went and got it. Not toally gold, but close enough! So in the days of women's lib. let's not just have the woman looking for the grillz, but give the men a chance too!

Anyway, have a great day! I know I will doing whatever it is that I end up doing today!

Nothing like a snow storm...

to drive home in. Yup....I was headed south. I didn't expect there to be a problem, especially since it was warm ALL DAY yesterday. HEH! Boy was I wrong!!! There were times that I was going 25 mph hoping that I was going to stay on the road. I tried to call a friend of mine who's a paramedic in G-town as I stopped there to get gas, but I'm going to make the assumption that he was out saving people from various accidents. There are also several VERY happy children today. No school for them. That means, no mall for me. We found out the hard way the other day.

Other than that, nothing too exciting latly. I'm working my business!!! OH!! AND I have been able to talk to a good friend in Iraq several times in the past week. He's alive and well and coming home in August!! YAY!!!

All moved in!!!

Well, we're here! I'm in Lexington in my apartment. My very first apartment. I'm loving living here. J and I are having a blast! Nothing like laughing at something silly EVERY DAY!

The move went very well. Just about everything is unpacked already. Sure there are a few things that we need to get, but that will wait until $$ come in. My brother is home from Wyoming. I talked to him for a couple minutes, and found out where the house is. He lives like 2 minutes from the apartment! YAY!!!!

Tomorrow will be spent in Cincinnati working for my sales director and a Mary Kay meeting...important one dealing with taxes. I'll write more later!

Sex Therapy

The following is information from an email that a good friend sent me. Not sure if it's all true, but it certainly makes sense!!!

1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth.

2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.

3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.

4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!

5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.

6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!

7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.

8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.

9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.

10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.

Hmmm....interesting if I do say so myself. Do what you wish with the info. If you find any of it really works be sure and let me know!

: )

Minor breakdown?? Is over hehehe. Just a couple of minutes where I was freaking out over nothing really. Talked to J and we have some things worked out. Only a couple minor things to finish taking care of and we'll be golden!

Business is great! I"m going to do 100 faces by March 31! WOO HOO here we go are we ready for an adventure?!?! I sure am! It's going to be hard work, but let me tell you, I CAN and WILL do it!

And from Mary Kay herself on Leadership, "Remember that a leader has two important characteristics: First, she is going somewhere; secondly, she is able to persuade others to go with her."

Getting scared....

WOW....Time has moved so fast. We're moving this weekend. Sure I am looking forward to this adventure, but there is a huge part of me that is getting REALLY scared. I mean REALLY scared. What if I don't cut it? What if my business doesn't take off like I want it to? What if I hate living with J even though I love him dearly??

SUCK IT UP KATY!! This is real world!


Whew...that feels well, a little bit better....kinda. Ok, business is going well. I'm going to deliver some product tomorrow and hopefully upsell. I have a facial and I'm calling a possible recruit. I can do this. I will do this. I'm going to be driving for free in the next couple months!

I LOVE my job!!!

I know I said I was going to write more here, but lately I've been so excited with my Mary Kay business! It's just going wonderfully. I've set up a facial and 2 virtual parties alone today! More on the list for tomorrow. After talking with Josette, it has been decided that I am going to work my ass of and get myself into that new free car! Oh, I can't wait. Karen Hills a director I know was in her car in 8 weeks! Usually people get in their car in 4 months...but she did it in only 8 weeks. I'm not saying it's going to be that quick, but let me tell you, I'm working my ass off so that we get it soon! Josette also wants me to have my DIQ (Director-In-Qualification) papers in by seminar which is July. I plan on it. I'm going to be a director with Mary Kay THIS year! That's my goal. It's high, I know. The quote from Mary Kay Ash for the day goes along perfectly with it. Her quote is on goals. She says, "It is important for you to have a goal. You simply can't get there if you don't know where you are going! Begin to build in your mind a dream. Then write it down and make your goal realistic. Aim high enough that you will have to stretch your ability and your potential to reach it." Well, here it is I've got a dream, it's written down, and I am definatly going to have to stretch to get it accomplished.

In other good news, I got to talk to Nate both yesterday morning and this morning. He is alive and well in Iraq and will be coming home (for good this time) in August. Whew! Boy are we both glad over that one. I told him to tell me when and where and I'd be there at the airport waiting for him to come home!!

Ok, off to go get some more things for my business done!! I LOVE MY JOB!!!!

The Year in Review..

I saw this on another blog and thought it was a great idea. I've already had to think a lot about my answers.

JANUARY

• Did you have a New Year's resolution this year? Probably, but I don't remember what it was
• Who kissed you at midnight? No one....just the same as this year.
• Did it snow where you live? I know we had snow right before NYE, but I don't remember if it snowed that day or not.
• Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop? No, but I'd sure love to go sometome

FEBRUARY

• Who was your Valentine? Didn't have one.
• What did your valentine get you? see previous answer; however, being that it's the day after my birthday and we had class that day, Jason did bring me a piece of cake...
• When you were little, did you buy valentine's for the whole class? Of course I did!!

MARCH

• Are you Irish? Yup...sure am!
• Did you wear green on St. Patty's Day? Definately!
  What did you do for St. Patty's Day? I was in methods all day talking with Jason about how we wanted to be in downtown Cincy drinking!

APRIL

• Do you like the rain?I like certain rain....storms when it's time for bed, and light, warm sprinkles when you are with someone you care about so you can go walking hand in hand
• Did you play an April Fool's joke on anyone this year? Not this year...I've had some good ones in the past including the ever popular, I'm engaged or when I told mom I was pregnant.
• Did you get tons of candy on Easter? yup...still get at least 2 Easter baskets!
  

MAY

• What's your favorite kind of flower? You know that's really hard. I love lots of flowers. I think I might have to go and say that "crazy daisies" are my favorite.
• Do you like the spring?Yes I do....no shoes!!!
• Finish the phrase, "April showers bring..." May flowers....and mud
• What would you think of as a spring color? light, dainty colors....and a vivid green!

JUNE

• What year did you graduate from school? 2001
• Did you go on any vacations last June? No....came home and worked.

JULY

• 
  What did you do on the 4th of July? Lord...since it fell on Monday, we partied from Friday night until Monday night....Friday at Rick's (per usual), Sat. day at Jim and Tari's in the pool, Sat. night at Chuck and Cindy's, Sun. day at Jim and Tari's in the pool, Sun. night Jeff's pool party, Mon. slept in and went to Hamiltucky with everyone for fetivities and fireworks. I was happy for nap time on Tuesday!!
• Did you go on any vacations this month? no....not unless you count the fact that I was out of school for the summer

AUGUST

• Did you do anything special to end off your summer? Heh...it was an interesting one as I got ready to move and the day I was moving Randall went to the hospital...again
• What was your favorite summer memory of '05? Starting my Mary Kay business...and Dixz Highway
• Did you go swimming a lot in the summer?a little bit.
• Did you go to the beach a lot? not once

SEPTEMBER

• Did you attend school/college in '05? sure did....started my student teaching!
• Who was your favorite teacher? I've had so many....this semester I don't know who it was. I loved working for MRs. Broaddus though!
• Did you like fall better than summer? Yes, it's not as hot and I LOVE the colors!

OCTOBER

• What was your favorite Halloween costume ever? hmmm...prolly my care bear one from when I was 2!
• What's your favorite candy? I love chocolate, but otherwise sour patch kids if it's a non-chocolate candy
• What did you dress up like this year? a pimpless hooker

NOVEMBER

• Whose house did you go to for Thanksgiving? Brenda and Don's on Marco Island!
• Do you like stuffing? Now that I'm older
• What are you thankful for? so much that it could be one post alone!

DECEMBER

• Do you celebrate Christmas? yup...several times!
• Have you ever been kissed under the mistletoe? uh huh! (hang it on the headboard of your bed ;) )
• What do you want this year for Christmas? I got mostly what I wanted...scrapbooking, Desperate Housewives first season...money for rent.
• What's the best present you ever got for Christmas? oh...that's a hard one.
• Do you like cold weather? Only if there is snow on the ground..otherwise, give me the 70's.
• How would you rate your year on a scale of 1-10? pretty good....not sure what number...mabye about an 8 or so! I did a LOT of learning, not just in the class, graduated, was the commencement speaker...it was a pretty rockin' year.

Ok...I'll at the quote from MKA in the morning with other news. Saw that and wanted to get it posted!

2006....

It's here....ready or not! First things first...I made it home okay and in one piece. I decided when I left tonight that driving home would not be a problem for me. A drink early on was it for me. No speeding, wearing the seatbelt and using turn signals at all times.....that's what got me home safe...that and taking the back roads!

Resolution: a course of action determined or decided on....Was I supposed to do that before now?? Oh well. I don't want to say that I'm making resolutions, more like I'm doing some life evaluation this year. What are those things??

• Take care of me - most of the time, I put others before me. This isn't a bad thing, but I tend to neglect things I need be it time, peace, emotion, etc. I plan to take some time each day just for me. What will I do with that time? Not sure yet. Some days it may be a hot bath and a good book. Others it may be scrap. Still others may be splurge on something. This also includes everyones favorite part of the new year and saying that I'm going to loose some weight. blah.
• Work my business - I LOVE having a Mary Kay business. I am okay at what I do considering the time I've put into it. I want to earn the use of a company car...and quick. We all can do anything for 4 months.
• Be more adventurous - I tend to be a creature of habit and just be instead of do. The first huge adventure comes in 13 days...moving to Lex. I can't wait, yet even though I don't come out and say it, there is part of me that is scared shitless.
• Stay organized - I don't have a problem getting things organized...it's keeping them that way. I think the move will help with that as everything will have to have a place since I"ll be sharing an apartment with J. We'll both have to stay organized (and neat) or we'll get on each other's nerves.
• Write more - be it here, or in a notebook or on my layouts. Putting it down on paper sometimes gets rid of the angry, upset, whatever bad feelings but it also helps you to remember the great, wonderful, happy feelings.
• Keep in touch - with friends and family. I'm getting to that point in my life now that I'm graduated where we are all starting a new life and moving on. I don't want to forget those that mean the world to me. I want them to know that they mean the world to me.
• Losen up - this kind of goes with being more adventurous, but there are times when I can be too serious. I need to take life and laugh at it!

Those are some of the things I'd like to do with my life this year. I'm excited for things to come. Who knows what tomorrow holds.

I end with words from Mary Kay Ash as her daily calendar for the year says: "Make every day count. Make every hour count. Make every minute count. And don't stop until you have exercised your full potential, realizing your total destiny to become the person that you, and only you, are capable of being."

Dancing Queen

Those that know me know how much I LOVE to dance. Last night was a Rick's night just like every other Friday night. I actually left to get there early as I was tired of sitting at home by myself....mom was going to be really late getting there anyway. When I got there part of the group was already there...just like usual. The pool tables had been taken out though. A few of the guys HAVE to play pool so they left to go to Wildwood Pub; one of those guys happens to be mom's boyfriend. He asked if I was going to come join them and it was then that I realized the band that was playing: Dixz Highway!!! I told them to have fun as I was staying to hear them. Dixz Highway...one of my favorite local bands!!! I try to be at Rick's at least one of the two nights any weekend that they play. Well last night, I wasn't planning on staying too late, but the next thing I knew....it was 2! WOW! I'd not stayed out that late in who knows when (having to teach during the week will do that to you) What a great time....ended up winning a CD of theirs for dancing, flirted with the bass player (like usual..we have been since July), drank nothing but water and just had a blast. I love the friends that I have made there and in fact that's where I"ll be for New Year's Eve tonight (not Rick's but one of my friends' place).

Have a great day. Be careful and safe. Don't do anything stupid tonight!!!

Motivation

All I needed was the little bit of motivation I got last night at my Mary Kay holiday party. I"ll tell you what. I was out there today like it was my job....oh, it is! hehehe Met an owner of a brand new bridal shop in Reading. She's a real sweety and fun! So we've exchanged information and cards so we can recruit for each other. Her place is www.readingbridaloutlet.com She's on Benson Street right at Reading Road almost. At her store, I left a thing to win a free facial and $50 gift certificate. I did the same thing at Salon Rapport in Loveland. Don, the owner, has cut my hair for nearly 20 years now. Craziness...yes, he was my first "real" haircut. Hopefully I'll be able to drum up some business out of this!

I just needed to go out and do it and I did. (now if I only had the same motivation to clean around here)

Hopefully I'll get subbing jobs in Lexington once I get down there....maybe even in Winchester. I should call the board there and get on their list.

Well, with business starting (hopefully) to boom, I'm hoping to be quite busy before I move. I need to come into some money...or find a sugar daddy!

Lexington....

OK OK I know I've said that I'm moving to Lexington, but I'm SO excited. It's going to be a GRAND adventure. I overheard someone say to their husband on Christmas, "Is there any of your cousins that you could live with like they are?" The answer was a most definite NO. J and I have an amazing relationship. Hell we've had this relationship all our lives. I certainly don't remember the 6 weeks I lived without him and I can't imagine him not being there.

I happen to like the city of Lexington quite a bit. No it's not the size of Cincinnati, but it's not small town America either. (tried that...don't do well there). Our apartment....can't beat the price. $530 for a 2bed/2bath that's 936 sqare feet?! I mean really! Can't beat the location. 5 minutes from Man O'War, 5 minutes from New Circle (the 2 ring roads of the city), 2 minutes from my "brother's" house, and about 10 from the scrapbook store! Jobs: not yet, but I talked to a friend who's down there and they said that everyone and their brother is hiring in Hamburg so I'll start looking there.

It's just going to be great! Lexington will never be the same again! hehehe I can't even remember any major argument between J and I. Sure I had to put him in his place a few times, but nothing to the point of us not talking or anything. woo hoo!!! Ok, I"m out to go find something to do. I have a paycheck that got misplaced in all of the moving....it's only $25, but hey...that's a tank of gas! (almost)

I'm over it.

Christmas ended up being pretty good. New clothes, rent $$, desperate housewives first season!, scrapping supplies and a 3.5 foot nutcracker. Who could ask for more? The part I'm over though is being fake towards one member of our family and his wife. I'm done. I'm not catering to them just because they think and act like they have money. Growing up there were 4 of us that made a pact that we would not be like our fathers....he's done just that and taken it to the next level. How does a person think it's ok to listen to what his wife says when she says he's "not allowed" to talk to his own mother and brother?!?! Heh, not to mention his cousins. It's been like this WAY too long. Other than not catering to it, I'm not totally sure on what to do. I'm sure it'll be interesting as J and I move in together to see how his brother reacts.

The Christmas Spirit....

I don't know what it is, but I just don't have it this year. I know that's WAY shocking coming from the one that's dragging out the decorations and turning on the music Friday after Thanksgiving while shopping. It's just not me this year. Hell, it's practially here and I'm not ready and still no spirit.

I do think that part of it has to do with everything that is going on/has been going on in my life lately. Lots of BIG things have happened in recent weeks. Right now, I just want to get everything together to move.....not even focused on Christmas. Oh well, maybe next year.

It's been a whirlwind.....

It's kind of funny how things happen. 4 months ago, I didn't want to leave to go to school. Now here I am, graduated and can't wait to get back down there. The decision has been made. I AM moving to Lexington with J. I can't wait. It's going to be so much fun!!! While we were driving down on Tuesday, we caught a plastic bag on the antenna....one of the funniest things ever! He and I were just laughing SO hard. Aunt Debi looked at us and said, "You two sound exactly the way you did when you were 2 years old playing with pots and pans on the floor of the kitchen." That makes me really happy. Here we are 20 some years later and can still by just as happy and such with each other. This is going to be a GREAT adventure! Somehow I can't believe it....but it gets even better!!!!! I'm going to be living only 2 minutes from my "brother's" hhouse!!!! Let me tell you about exciting! We both are so excited and can't wait!!!

At first I wasn't gung ho on it all, but J and I had a heart to heart and he just looked at me and said, "Katy, what is holding you here?" He's right....there's nothing keeping me here. I don't have the responsibility of a relationship or kids. Hell I didn't even totally have a job to come home to. I have my Mary Kay that can go anywhere! It's time!

As far as the "fairly serious" question... I asked that because of a converstation I had. Someone I know flew to MI see a girl. (the man NEVER flies and HATES cold). This person, only about 2 weeks later is driving to see this same girl and spend Christmas with her. I asked if they were getting serious, and the comment made to me was "fairly serious". My speculation is anything like that must be more than fairly serious. Just an observation. I honestly don't care who this person dates. If he's happy, then I"m happy for him.

All graduated

Whew....I"m done! I never thought this day would come! I"m all done! Pictures and lunch with the president went great! My speech was awesome! It was just an all in all great day! Drove home after checking out of "home" and went straight to the store. That was great! It's real different in there right now. Anyway, in a nutshell is how my days have been since Saturday.

Sunday - Got up, went to church, heard the contata (and my little cousin sing a solo....way to go Zach!), came home, unpacked the car, went to a Bengals/graduation party, came home and crashed.

Yesterday - Got up, stopped by grandma and grandpa's. Got a BEAUTIFUL white gold and diamond bracelet from them (it's X's and O's all the way around with the O's being diamonds) headed to Lex. with Aunt Debi and JT, made the decision that I am going to move to Lexington with JT. Throughout the day, I talked to my "brother" He appologized for not being at my graduation, but it was b.c he was in the hospital! I couldn't believe it. I told him, of course, not to worry about it since he was in the hospital. He said, I did hear your speech though. I was a little confused. He had his sister drive down to graduation and had him on the phone during my speech so he could hear it in the hospital. I love that family!!!

Today - Headed back to Lex. to look at some more apartments.

There are several other things that I want to comment/ponder, but we'll get to those later!!! For now....what does the term "fairly serious" when used in a relationship mean to you?

Well....this is it.

Here I am. It's my last day with my kiddos. There were days that I didn't think it'd come soon enough. I don't want to leave them though. I didn't sleep much last night. Maybe it's becuase of the nap I took yesterday. Maybe it's because I'm like a little kid at Christmas ...especially since we're having our Christmas party today. There are gifts galore in that room!

Just look at them underneath my "tree". (I thought it was a cute idea at least!!) Well I should finish up getting ready. Have a good one!!

Only 2 more days until graduation!! AHHHH

This is SO true....

While checking to see what a friend was up to, I found this. I think it is perfect!

You might not be her first, her last, or her only. She's cared about someone else before and possibly will again, but if she cares for you now, then what else matters? She's not perfect and you aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect, but if she can make you laugh at least once, hold onto her & give her the most you can. She might not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break. So don't hurt her, don't change her & don't expect more than she can give. Don't over analyze, smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.

Have a great day! I'm almost done! It's hump day!!!

Long, Busy, not totally productive weekend

Well, Saturday was full of nothing really! I worked from 8-11 and also from 8-midnight. Geez, I'm SO glad I'm done working a front desk job. Other than that I ran some needed errands and come home to try to get ready to move a bunch of shit to Cincinnati. I still hadn't heard from Brian as to what time he wanted to leave since we were going to take his car. When I came home from work Sat. night there was someone waiting to talk to me. We talked....FOREVER. It was a very eye opening experience; one that made me happy I'm where I am.

Sunday I got up.....after not much sleep since my conversaion had continued to about 330. Still no word from Brian. I call him and once again get his voicemail. At this point in time, I'm VERY NOT happy with him. So I pack a little bit, but then realize I need some retail therapy. So that's what I do. Went shopping, got myself some things, but I was also able to get some Christmas shopping done as well. Still nothing our of Brian. So I come home and pack some more and give a friend of mine that was wanting to spend some time together before I move a call. He ended up coming over and we hung out for a bit. Ordered pizza, bullshitted, played on Ebay. Next thing we knew it was going on 11 so he left and I headed to bed.

Yesterday my mom saved the day!! I got a call from her while I was at school saying that she was going to get the van and bring it down so we could take a bunch home. Grandpa came too. Man, they were shocked to see how much I had actually finished. In about an hour, we had the van packed to the point where grandpa said that he couldn't see anymore if we put anything else in it. Then it was off to dinner...at Outback!!! WOO HOO!!! Janine and Bobby met up with us there. We laughed and ate and laughed some more. Other than that, I was wiped! I came home and by 9 I was passed out. I needed it though as I could hardly keep my eyes open yesterday at school. That's what happens when you stay up until 330....the next day I'm fine...it's the day after that I'm screwed.

Have a great day yall!!!

What a day....with "Mission Accomplished" at the end

Well I went to bed Thursday night expecting to get up see that we were cancelled for Friday. Heh, NOT the case. I was NOT a happy girl at all Friday morning. Just like a little kid, I continued to watch the school closings until the very last minute. So I head out in the cold to stop by Wal-Mart on my way just as I do every morning. I unlock my door and it's frozen shut. After enough pulling, it opens up. Then I turn it on and realize my idiot light is on E...a VERY LOW E. I head to Wal-Mart so I can get my breakfast, lunch, supplies for an activity and now gas too. I'm headed through the line only to see that I've left my wallet out in the car. So I run back out in the bitter cold to grab it, run back in, pay and head back out. Did you know that the Wal-Mart gas station is NOT open at 7am....even on a weekday?? So I head to the rinky dink gas station that is on the way to school. Well, I start pumping my gas and I'm sitting in my car b.c well, the wind was cutting through me. I look over to see how far it is...and I think ok, only about half a tank more to go. A few seconds later I look over and see it's stopped. I get out to check the nozzle and it's still on "automatic" I life the lever and pull the nozzle myself....nothing. The gas station has now ran out of gas and I don't have a full tank! I run inside to pay and let them know. His response, "probably I knew we were getting low. I do have a truck on it's way today though." I'm thinking...a lot of good that does me now. The only thing at this point that can make my day get worse is for it to be Monday. I get to school 15 minutes late. There are hardly any children there...unusual for this time. Now I'm lucky to have a small class of 19. I only ended up having 12 all day long. It's hard to do group work on the 9 planets when there are only 12 kids! So we made fudge!!

When I got home from school, the fight with UPS was over! I didn't have to drive to N. Lexington to give them a teacher look at all!! It was here waiting on me! WOO HOO!!! I messaged my "wife" and said, "Please tell me we are going to O'Charley's tonight...I NEED it." The answer was yes. I head downstairs to get ready to leave and she informs me that she's sick...not the contageous kind, but still. YUCKY!

So off to O'Charley's we went to see our waiter! Had a grand time as usual. We went in and asked to be sat in his section. The guy sits us there and after a couple minutes, a girl came over and asked us to take our drink order. Well, I just look at Pamela...She looks up and says, "We thought this was Brandon's section." The girl says no. Pamela goes on and says, "We're sorry, but we just asked to be seated in his section." The waitress was very understanding and told the obviously new host where to seat us.

Well, Brandon was in smoking...wasn't really all that bad. We just weren't used to being all the way back there...neither was he. He was glad to see us! (as always...hehehe) Fun times had by all when dining with Brandon as your server. Pamela, not always thinking has 2 drinks on her food empty, but medicine filled stomach which is why the mission started in the first place!

This is my "wife" in all her sick, glory! Isn't she cute!!! :)

So what was the mission?? Wel..Pamela continually knocked over these golden reindeer decorations. As a result it became a real joke. So she asks Brandon if she can take one home. He says, "only if you put one in my car too." The next natural question is well, which one is it?? He tells us which one and tells us the fact that it's unlocked. Well, as we leave, Pamela actually takes them with her. I couldn't believe it. She picks them up in her coat and heads to the bathroom. Well she can't get them zipped in her coat at all. So she folds her coat over and high tails it out the door, without looking suspicious. We pull around to the side of the building where Brandon's car is and he's in it...I roll my window down and say, "Hey Brandon, we've got something for you." He runs back in the building saying, "I can't see this!!" We have pictures to prove our mission:

The reindeer must say one last adieu to one another as they will miss each other.

This is Pamela "breaking into" the unlocked car to leave him a present. As a side note: he had his keys in the ignition and that annoying dinging was going on while we were trying to take care of business!

This is his reindeer waiting for him to drive off into the sunset....well, into the darkness since the sun was well beyond set.

What's the moral of the story???

When you've had a bad day, go to a restaurant and sit in a hot waiters section!

The rest of the story...

I told my sister about loving what she had written so she sent me the entire thing! I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

scene 3.
it's cold outside and i like it.when i can feel the tiny places in my hair, the underneath side and behind my ears, that aren't quite dry yet. and there must be a drop or two in my ears because, since my hair is pulled back, i can feel them almost freezing in those little curves and crevices. and way up top where two studded earrings lay side by side... it's cold there too.and my nose must be running at a constant pace by now. my breath bearly beating it, with it's statement right in front. shouldn't the nose win... by a nose though? it is a nose. nosy. a nosy nose with rosy cheeks as neighbors.and they all join in, face freezing, breath breathing, heart beating. in sync.as i walkand walk along a heavily treaded way. and you wouldn't even know it because it looks as though no one has stepped foot here before. until i see others walking ahead of me and look back and see they're coming up from behind... and look side by side and see that some have reached their final destination and are turning back again... they must not have liked what they saw.they must not have known how to appreciate the warmth... where the little places, heads and faces, begin to flush again with heat and hot.what more did they expect.warm grace was not enough.salvation from the chilled at heart.

Also, I had seen this before, long ago, but it was sharted with me again last night. It is TOTALLY true.

One Flaw In Woman
By the time the Lord made woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime.
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic,
have over 200 movable parts, all replaceable
and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,
have a lap that can hold four children at one time,
have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart
-and she will do everything
with only two hands."
The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."
But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick
AND can work 18 hour days."
The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."
"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."
"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.
The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."
The angel then noticed something,
and reaching out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops, it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."
"That's not a leak,"
the Lord corrected,
"that's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.
The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy,
her sorrow, her pain, her disappointment, her love,
her loneliness, her grief and her pride."
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."
And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens,
but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel
and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about
a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN,
IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH

I'll post later on how my day has been.

Snow Day...

No one needs one more than I do tomorrow. Life has happened....solo week, moving, friends, projects, trying to get to the post office, work...everything! If I got a snow day I could: pack, actually get some sleep worth having, get to the post office (I live "in town"), get things done that I NEED to get done in general. I think my head just might pop off here in a minute!!! I'm at that point where I just want to scream...well, just because! It started getting there yesterday. I calmed down once my phone interview called though....it went REALLY well! I'm VERY excited about that. OK....of course, I need to get things done and not be sitting here typing.

She is so artistic in everyway.

I found this...written by my sister. She is such an amazing writer, singer, artist, etc.

scene 3.
it's cold outside and i like it.when i can feel the tiny places in my hair, the underneath side and behind my ears, that aren't quite dry yet. and there must be a drop or two in my ears because, since my hair is pulled back, i can feel them almost freezing in those little curves and crevices. and way up top where two studded earrings lay side by side... it's cold there too.


I'm in awe of her talent.

Nothing better than....

* when it's cold outside to lay around in your pj's all day.
* when it's warm and raining to walk hand in hand with someone you really care about.
* when you're bored to catch up on sleep!
* when your back is fried to lay on your stomach underneath the fan.
* when you're upset to have some icecream with a girlfriend.

ok....and for a little bit more about me! YAY for stolen surveys! hehehe

I AM: tired, sick of working the desk, ready to move home
I WANT: people to stop asking if I have a job lined up.
I HAVE: great friends and family
I WISH: things were better for some of those I care about.
I HATE: not being able to get everything done I want to get done the way I want it done.
I MISS: home, my "wife", my mom, Skyline
I FEAR: not becoming the person I'm supposed to be.
I HEAR: the tv and my typing like mad!
I WONDER: what people in my past are up to, if I'm going to have any snow days this week (I wish!)
I REGRET: a handful of things, bu they wouldn't make me who I am today.
I LOVE: the little things in life.
I ACHE: in my right gludeous minimus...not sure what I did...woke up like that.
I ALWAYS: have something that aI *should* be doing
I AM NOT: ready to leave Richmond.
I DANCE: when I'm at the bar! or in my car.
I SING: when a song I know is on!
I CRY: a lot....when I'm happy, sad, angry, etc.
I AM NOT ALWAYS: right, even though I like to think so sometimes.
I WRITE: when I have to.
I WIN: board games...when I get to play!
I LOSE: my mind....several times a day! hehehe
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: some genuine TLC
I SHOULD: write lesson plans...UGH

.x. father thinks I am: 12
.x. mother thinks I am: a wonderful daughter doing things she never expeceted me to do
.x. my ex-boyfriend thinks I am: someone he shouldn't have let go
.x. three things you are often complimented for: smile, laugh, way with kids
.x. you get embarrassed when: someone compliments my looks
.x. makes you happy: friends, girl time, my business!, scrapping
.x. upsets you: when unnecessary, negative comments are made on ANY topic.
.x. you keep a diary: blogging and scrapping, I guess
.x. you like to cook: "real" food and not just for one.
.x. you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: yup...I've had this secret since I was 12.
.x. you're in love: not currently
.x. you set your watch a few minutes ahead: always....have to anymore
.x. you bite your fingernails: not on purpose
.x. you believe in love: totally

OK...that's enough for the time being. I have to work again today...noon-3

Comments......

I'm not sure exactly what to say to those who left such *sweet* comments for me. Trouble is, I know who you are due to wonderful technology and dective skills. I don't post things to be contraversial or start shit. They're just my thoughts. Those same people who have posted comments are some of the same ones that "stalk" my blog. Do you think I'm going to put some formula for a miracle medicine or something??? Apparently though, my thoughts are so important that people feel the need to not only read the same thing 5 or 6 times in one day, but to also leave nasty comments about my opinions. I'll all for everyone having their own opinion, but I'm not about people being put down for their opinions. Obviously if you had problems you went elsewhere. That's fine, you are entitled to do that. Apparently there are some out there with bitter feelings for whatever reason towards my happy place. This is not the place to take care of those or vent about it, especially since I'm not the person in charge of the decision making in any way.

So I guess what I'm saying in a nutshell is this: have your opinion, but don't put myself (or anyone else for that fact) down for having our own.

100th post is a sad one.

Well, yesterday wasn't exactly what I dreamed it would be. I had to wait to post the information as it hadn't all been totally public yet. Unfortunately, due to mass production companies, the little store that I love and work at is going to have to close it's doors. My happy place will have to change. I LOVE this store and what it has given me as a person. No matter what, any time I've walked through the doors, I was able to smile. Whether I had just gotten into an accident, been left/ left a dumb boy whatever the case may be...it was forgotten there. Thank the Lord for a place like that. My only wish is that I'm able to find another place that can do that for me. How is it that your "boss" is truly a friend?! I had that....it's a rare thing. While it's been a struggle and honestly, hard to believe, it's what is best for her. I understand completely as to why she's doing what she's doing. I'm going to miss my happy place dearly.

On another sad note, (but not near as sad), Pamela and I went to O'Charley's last night and Brandon wasn't there. Not only was he not there, but our waiter was horrible. Now it's very rare that I don't leave a tip at all, but last night was one of those nights. UGH! He made what was supposed to be an enjoyable night, something else to bitch about.

Now, a happy note. I was observed today and it was WONDERFUL!!! I received nothing but excellents! YAY for me! I rock!! :) Only 16 more days til the real world.