I know I know....it's been a few days.

I'm sorry for not posting in a couple days. I know it's been since like Thursday or something. Friday night was O'Charley's with Pamela. We have a waiter there that we like to go see so every couple weeks or so on a Friday we go and ask to be seated in his section where ever it may be. This time we go in and do the same and one of the hostesses looks at us and goes, "Are one of you his girlfriend?" We reply, "No...it's a long story." So eventually we get seated and tell B (to protect the innocent) the story. He goes, "You should have said yeah we both are." hehehe. Anyway, we always have a blast eating there with him and we always get something for free. This week it happened to be dessert. He looks at us after dinner and asks if we want any ice cream on me. Pamela and I just look at each other and laugh and then say yes. Side note... O'Charley's has the best ice cream! So anyway, we eat our ice cream and leave him a note, as usual. Pamela had already written on a napkin lyrics from Dirks Bently's latest "Come a little closer" so I added...Thanks for the ice cream "on you" YAY for fun times!!

Saturday was a big day for me. At 630 I got up to finish packing my suitcase and then had my last two Praxis tests. They really weren't all that difficult! YAY for that! After testing was over, mom came to campus and we packed the car and headed to Florida!!! Yup...We made it from Richmond to Ft. Myers in 14 hours!!! This included getting to Knoxville right as the losing UT game got out, construction that was stop and go in all of N. Georgia (which to my Ft. Oglethorpe viewer, we stopped there for some gas and snacks) and we also hit Atlanta just as the GA Tech game was getting ready to start. All in all we made some kick ass time! And no we didn't hit 3 digits...hell we didn't even hit 85.

So yesterday was just coming in and relaxing. We didn't do too much. Today we're not totally sure of the plan. I'm going to get my hair done at some point in time, finally. We also are prolly going to meet some family for lunch or dinner. Other than that, it's just running around doing what we want. Tomorrow I'm doing a Mary Kay party for 8 women!!! It's going to be great. Hopefully I'll make some $$$$ Granted they are all older women just wanting to have a fun time, but hopefully I can get some at least Christmas presents or gift certificates sold to them!! YAY!

Well I think we have some company over so I'm out. I'm sure I'll update in a day or so though!!

I got it!!!!!!!

Well, It's me!!! I'm the Fall 05 morning Commencement Speaker. Last month, I got a letter from the VP of student affairs office asking me to apply. So thinking, what the hell, I did. Well, last week they called me wanting me to interview. Monday evening, I did. Tuesday night after Senate, I asked Amy Jo what she had thought about it all. She and I walked into the interview at the same time and actually she was supposed to be after me, but due to the fact that we had a joint SGA meeting Monday, I told her to go in first. Apparently she talked me up in her interview too! Thanks AJ!!! Well, when I asked her about it Tuesday she was like, did you get it?!?! I said, I don't know. I've not gotten any calls about it or anything. She said, "Oh, he emailed me today and told me I didn't." I thought, well ok. I hadn't checked my EKU email so I ran back here and checked it. There was nothing. I double checked my caller ID in my room...and still nothing. So then I just continued on with my night and didn't think much of it. Well, yesterday was a wierd day. My teacher had an ARC and so she went to that while a sub came in (for liability) and I taught. Next thing I know, the phone rings...I don't think anything of it as the sub was there and answering it. Next thing I know, he's like, Ms. C_____ you have a phone call. "Who the hell is calling me at school?!" and "Oh no! What's wrong?" is what ran through my mind in the 3 seconds it took me to get to the phone. The secretary, Vicki, was on the phone and says, Dr. Conneely is on the phone for you and I'm going to put you through. I go ok. Well he hops on the phone and goes, "Katy, it's Jim Conneely. How are you today?" "Fine ", I reply. "Well, the committee has made its decision and really liked what you had to say in your message and has chosen you to be the commencement speaker!" I was so thrilled! He went on with a couple other housekeeping things and then we hung up. I screamed when I got off the phone. So the kids go, Miss. C______ why did you just scream bloody murder?! I explained to them what was going on. Questions started a flyin'! "Are you going to be on tv?" "Yes, there's going to be a huge press release done on me." "Can we come with you?" "I don't care if you come to hear me. I can't bring you, you're parents will have to bring you to it." Then one of my boys starts chanting my last name. The next thing I know, ALL of my kids are chanting. I got them calmed down and we started back to work. YAY!!!!!!!

Other than that....the day was fine. It was hump day, so Pamela and I had some girl time together. We ate at Wendy's (with Ben) and talked wedding talk...for the "whenever it happens" as girls do. (all for her and none for me as she's WAY closer to that time than I am) But I REALLY need to get going for school!! I just wanted to share my excitement!! Have a great day!!!!

They woke me up....

Last night we had some not so good weather. It was windy and rainy and just yuck. Well, I was laying in bed and I heard the weather siren go off. I didn't think anything of it really. Maybe it's because at home they send it off if someone sneezes too hard and it's got a spray. So I just roll over. I"m almost asleep when all this commotion is going on outside my door and I hear hall staff knocking on doors. They knock on mine. I was just gonna stay in bed, but I thought, no they'll get me for something so I get up, throw some clothes decent enough to open the door on and go see what they want. Now the girl that's an RA here on my floor couldn't look you in the eye if her life depended on it....really bothers me. It'd be one thing if she wasn't an American and didn't do it, but well, she is. So while looking over to the side she goes I need you to go downstairs. At this point in time I'm pissed. So, I come back in, put different clothes on and get ready to go downstairs. Well, there's Jen at the desk. Jen knows me. She's one of our "stand-in" RHC's. I look at her and go, what if I go back upstairs? Some people were already asleep and get up at 530 in the morning. She knows my crazy schedule and knows that I teach all day long. Well, she just looks at me and goes, you can do what you want, we have to tell you during a city warning. NOW here's my beef with that statement. I have lived here for 4.5 years. Not a SINGLE time have they done this before. I know that the policy didn't just change overnight. THEN...if we really don't have to go downstairs, the RA's need to be saying, you may want to go downstairs for the tornado warning...not "I need you to go downstairs" UGH Then of course I was woken up again when all the "girls" came back upstairs and their commotion screaming up and down the halls. I never thought I'd be ready to move out of here as much as I am!

Now that it's out of my system....

Life has been totally crazy lately. Once I get them, I'll have to post some of the pics from Sat. night. I unfortunatly had to work, so I didn't get to go out, but Liz was in town so she, Pamela and Amber went to Budda's for some drinking fun. I was just getting off work when they came home trashed. Those of course make for some fun, hilarious times and pictures. Sunday I drove home and worked for Josette. It was great! We did about $1300 during her open house!!! WAY to go Josette!!! Needless to say I was worn out when I came home. After all of that, I watched Desperate Housewives and fell asleep.
Yesterday was a good day at school. I ended up not doing much more than being a copy bitch. But with as tired as I was, it was fine with me. The methods student that happens to be in our class is interesting. I used to feel sorry for her since she's got 4 kids and drives from Danville. Well, not so much anymore. It's one thing to be late once maybe twice by a few minutes. It's a completly different thing to be late almost every time by at least half an hour AFTER the fact that the teacher has spoken to you about it!!! Now, personally, if I'd been late like that, I'd be making for damn sure that my tail was on time. Oh, did I mention that 2 of her kids are in high school?!?! Yeah, they don't need help getting dressed anymore.
Anyway, after school, I went to an interview and felt pretty good after it. Then I went to a joint SGA meeting. Nothing really was accomplished in my humble opinion. So I stopped by a friend's to see how his papers are coming for a class. Then b.c I'm such a sweet person and it was raining AND I had my car over there, I drove him to his night class. I came home and it wasn't much longer before I was passed out. I was gone before 9. Slept HARD. For the second night in a row, I had a wierd dream about GC and I. hmmm.....wonder what it means.
Speaking of GC, the university isn't changing its bullshit decision. So, right now he's out looking for a full time job that will pay overtime as well. Not to mention, for the second weekend in a row, his car got broken into. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers.
Well, I need to finish getting ready for school today. There will be a sub for the afternoon today which means I have to teach this afternoon. Oh well! As long as the kids are being good I might do something special for them.

You are NOT the face of SGA

I get really tired of seeing one person time after time after time in every damn article or picture of an SGA event that typically he had NOTHING to do with yet feels the need to be in the limelight like he planned and put on the whole thing on his own. This has actually bothered me for some time. It was able to be curbed somewhat last year, but not so much this year.
Doing and saying socially inappropriate things is NOT funny or cool. I've felt this way for a long time now. I was made even more aware of it when your face was on the news this morning. Also, don't spend your time telling a group of people one thing and then turn around and say something completly opposite to administration. Another thing to not worry about...ME! Why put so much energy into getting rid of someone when they are graduating in a month?? Hello, I'm getting rid of myself without your help!! Should you run for a higher office next year, I really fear not only for the students who will still be here, but the administration and the future of the SGA. AHHH!!! You just make me want to scream!!!

Half way through a LONG weekend.

Well, I'm so wiped out that I fell asleep at work this morning! I NEVER do that. I was supposed to go to the game today, but as soon as I got home from work, I was totally passed out. I didn't get up until about 330ish. When the game starts at 130 that doesn't do too well for getting to see any of it. Oh well, we won anyway.
Pamela called me about 5 to see what was going on since I didn't show up to the game. She and Liz want me to go downtown with them tonight, but I have to go back to work from 8-12. UGH!
Last night was ok. Went to Brian's to help him write a couple papers. Got them almost done. That's actually where I am now....helping him write these papers. Oh well, at least I'm getting paid to tutor him! Actually, as a result I'm going to be tutoring a couple others as well. Yes, I can fit it into my schedule....somehow.
Tomorrow I'l be driving home for the day to help my sales director with her Open House again. Up and back in the same day. At least I'll be doing something I love and it'll be fun.
I don't know what's going on with GC and I. I'm definatly feeling neglected by him. Granted, he's going through some tough shit right now, but still. I'm trying to take it easy and just keep in my head that it'll all be better once I graduate and head back home for good. It's just hard sometimes to keep that in mind when you're upset or what not. Oh well, such is life.
Mom was texting me from Rick's last night. I was really missing being home with everyone there. It's truly a family. Any of them would do just about anything for someone else in the group. That's how a group of friends needs to be.
Well, I'm gonna get back to helping Brian on the papers since I have to go to work at 8. Talk to you later.

Quoteable Quotes

The following are things that were said at the Ethics Conference on Friday last week. They can be used in response to a multitude of things.

"You don't just turn your back on a relationship you've had for years." - Tim Brown, former CEO oand President of Thomas Industries, inc.

"Honesty, Loyalty, Integrity and Trust. You either bring these things or you don't. If you don't, we don't want you." - Dean Luchsinger, Corporate Manager of Audit, Compliance and Ethics for Bechtel Systems and Infrastructure, Inc.

"Ethical decisions aren't based on what's right and wrong; they are between right and more right." - Dean Luchsinger, Corporate Manager of Audit, Compliance and Ethics for Bechtel Systems and Infrastructure, Inc.

"It's easy to do things right, but it's harder to do the right thing." - Joanne Glasser, President Eastern Kentucky University.

"The currency of democracy is public education." - Mike Caudill, Superintendant of Madison County Schools

"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere." - Martin Luther King, used by Mike Caudill in luncheon talk.


Now one of my personal favorites would be a letter that I got yesterday from one of my students.

"About Mrs. C______: Mrs. C______s really nice. And shes from ohio. And I like her. A lot. She is the best. Will I think shes good but most of al the best. Shes the best student techer."

Ok kids, it's gonna be a long one. After school today I'm headed to Prestonsburg to do some recruiting. Catch ya on the flip side!

Randomness

Ever have those times when people randomly come into or back into your life? That's totally how it's been lately. There are a handful of people that I haven't talked to in years or thought that I'd never talk to again that have just popped in. I'm not sure what to make of it or what the reasoning is at this point. I guess I'll figure it out as time goes on.

What's with people checking a blog 17 times a day?? Ok, maybe not 17, but I did have a record breaker the other day.....are yall ready for this?? 6 times! That's right ladies and gentleman. The same person checked my blog 6 times in one day. Now, I do good if I update once a day. If I'm REALLY bored, I might do a second one even though I should be writing lesson plans or what not, but I can promise you, I will NEVER update 6 times in one day.

I'm feeling "old". This discussion was had last night with one of my best friends, my big "brother". He told me that if I were to come visit him I'd look at him and tell him that he's old. Well, not so much. I feel the same way. I was telling him how one day last week my kids were talking about having of gone to bed at like 930 or 10. That very same night, I was asleep by 8. It's crazy! I have so much more to get done in the day, but I can't even stay up as late as a second grader!!!

Oh well. Speaking of second graders, I need to go print off all my lessons and worksheets before I head to school. Have a good one.

What a GREAT weekend!!

Oh my gosh!! This weekend was so much fun!!! It was just great to be home. Mom was totally surprised by me showing up. I went in and stood at one end of our table for a few seconds. She didn't notice me so I ran up and hugged her from behind and yelled, "Happy Birthday Mom!!" She just looked at me and said, "What the hell are you doing here?!?!" I reply, "well, it's Friday night so I'm at Rick's and it happens to be your birthday so I came home." I had a great time, one of the best time's I've had at Rick's in a VERY long time. Also Friday, one of my favorite bands ever, Dix Z Highway, was playing! I was out on the dance floor FOREVER!! I even ended up winning one of their CD's for shakin' what my momma gave me!

Saturday was great too. I went to the store and hung out for a while. It was great to see everyone! Got a HUGE sale while I was there when someone mentioned Christmas shopping. I was like, well I have all of our holiday things out in my car if you want to see them. They were like yeah! YAY for me!! $250 in about 20 minutes. I'll take that ANY day. Saturday night was Chippendales. I called GC to let him know what we were up to. His response, "nice honey, have fun!" Thanks sweetie!!WOW! Yeah it was fun, but not totally the thing you think it is. We got to Jillian's at about 730. The doors opened at 9 and we ended up getting a VIP seat at a table. The show didn't actually start until 11. They danced, but there was a lot of time spent where they had women come up on stage for a lap dance. That's all fine and dandy if you want to pay $20 for a 5 second lap dance. Yeah, not so much for me. However...I did like watching them dance!!! Here's a pic of my favorite, Lane.

Look at that YUMMY chest!!!!

Sunday was good too! I worked for Josette at her open house. Things went really well. In fact, I'm gonna drive home on Sunday again this weekend to help her out! Good for her and good for me!!! Drove back and relaxed. Woo hoo!!

Today I was in a pretty good mood at school. I needed to go to school today to get some rest from my crazy weekend. School was good today though. I was happy to be back with the kiddos! They were happy to have me back too. This evening Pamela and I went to Lexington and decided to have Outback for dinner! Yummy!! It was great and tasted so good.

I think that's about all for now. If more pops into my head...I'll write it down, maybe.

Friday is here!

This week has gone by amazingly fast. It makes me VERY happy that it has. I'm gonna need the mom time tonight! I'm excited that she has NO clue! One of our friend's called me last night while I was working and asked if I wanted to go see the Chipendales Dancers Saturday. Looks like we'll be headed to see them! That will be tons 'o fun. Well, I'll be headed provided GC isn't going to make time for me in his busy schedule.

So, it's a good thing I woke up this morning. I laid down to watch a movie last night, not planning on falling asleep. Well, I woke up an hour or so before I had to get up this morning....I went to go turn my alarm off and I hadn't set it! OOPS!!!

The ethics conference started off on a great note yesterday! I'm so excited about that! Today should be even better. It happens to be my favorite day as the CEO's will be there!!!!

Well, I'm gonna go piddle around for a bit before I have to get ready. Peace.

A few days off...

I think I'm really in need of what is about to happen. I'm off from teaching today, tomorrow and next Tuesday. Today and tomorrow is the "Face to Face with Ethics Conference" here at EKU. It's going to be similar to the conference I was at last year at West Point, just on a much smaller scale. I'm not going as a participant, but a facilitator. There will not be another college student in my position. I feel honored to be chosen to fulfill this capacity. I am the student that continues to sit on the committee though. My only problem with going is that my eyes are swollen from tears last night.

I just don't know what to do about my situation. I feel like I'm being blown off by GC. Yes, we are both stressed with various things in life and school, but that didn't seem to matter a month and a half ago. I know it's going to work it's way out in whatever way it's supposed to. I also know that things will be easier on us in a few months when I'm moved back at home. As Pamela reminded me, "Relationships aren't meant to be long distance." She and I both know this first hand.

This weekend I'm going home to surprise mom. Her birthday is on Saturday and I'm going to show up at Rich's Friday night to surprise her. GC is welcome to come...if he gets ahold of me so I can tell him. I'm just excited to get go to on a Friday night...it's litterally been months since I've been there with everyone. I think it'll be something I need! Saturday I'm getting a cut and color. Another thing I'm excited about as I get to spend time with Linda, my best friend from high school. I've not seen her in almost a year!

Well, I really do need to get going and get dressed and ready for the conference. Oh yeah, the pic is of Pamela and I at Hooter's Monday after Trick-or-Treating.

Have a good day! Hopefully I will too!

I'm quitting life

Tonight....not so good. End of story.

<---- This is what Pamela has to say about the reason I feel the way I do. (Yes, that's her and yes she took that picture of herself with my camera)

It simply amazes me...

I was just checking to see who has looked at my blog recently due to my wonderful counter. I'm amazed at the fact that there are people out there who check my blog 3 and 4 times a day. I didn't realize it was THAT interesting. I don't know how to feel about it really. Part of me wants to be flattered, but then another part of me wants to be like, "Do you not have anything else to do in your life???" Oh well.

Is a title really needed?

Well, nothing too exciting has gone on the past day and a half or so. Monday night, I went with Jennifer, Andy, and Pamela to take Logan trick-or-treating. How many adults does it take to get 1 7 year old through Halloween?? Apparently 4. After trick-or-treating we went ot Hooter's for dinner. Poor Logan was so wiped out that he fell asleep at the table. We all got some great pics of it though! (maybe one day I'll get pictures on this) Other than that, not too much excitement. Yesterday wasn't exactly the greatest of days...wasn't the worst, but not the greatest. I had a dream that I was at school and someone called (don't know who) and told me something (don't know what) that sent me sobbing. I didn't get that call or anything, but I did get some info yesterday afternoon that made me want to do that. GC is fine, but is going through some rough times right now. Keep him in your thoughts and prayers please. That's really all I'm at liberty to say.

So I went to bed at like 9 with a headache and now here I sit needing to get ready for the day with no lesson plans typed. Oh well....not like I'm gonna teach hardly at all today anyway...The practicum student is in our class today too. I'm just rambling so I'm gonna go get ready for the day. "Seacrest, Out"

I can't believe I did that!!!

So I get back last night and realize that I've forgotten my little "wallet" that has my driver's lisence, student ID, debit card, credit card, etc in it. I thought I had gotten everything out of a purse that I used Saturday night, but apparently I didn't. The thing that really gets me is that not only did mom ask me as we were walking out the door if I had everything, but I forgot something of grand importance last time I went home! Thanks to mom for overnighting things to me!

Feels like a long time.

It's been since Wednesday since I've posted anything and that feels like forever!! Well, for those of you who check my blog 2, 3, 4 times a day, here you go:

Thursday - School went pretty well. The week was really dragging and so was I. I came home and didn't do too much. I took a nap, got up for a little bit and hung out with Pamela and Neil for a bit and then pretty much went back to bed.

Friday - I decided that the worst day to be a teacher is one where you have a class party. People don't be have like they should and it's just plain old craziness. On my way home from school, grandma and grandpa called me as they were coming home from Florida. So, I got to go out to eat and visit with them for a while. It was great! Grandma did her usual "sly" slip of the money when they were leaving. I always know when that's coming as she reaches for my hand right after she hugs me. YAY for free dinner and $20 extra!!

Saturday - Got up to go to work and that was exciting. (not really) Then I drove home. When I got home, mom and I went to the grocery.....after I got stung by a bee. Damn bees!! I'm allergic to bee stings just short of needing an epipen. (it's itching like crazy now) Anyway, while at the grocery it dawned on me that going to the grocery with your mom at 22 just isn't as exciting as it is when you are 4. So anyway, I ran a couple errands when we got back. While I was out, I ran into a couple of the girls that mom and I hang out with at Rick's. They talked me into going to our Halloween party even though GC was in Chicago this weekend. Well, I went and had a blast. We were all dressed up at the bar. It was so much fun! Afterward, I came home and went to bed excited about the extra hour of sleep.

Today - Nothing too exciting when I up. Hung around for a bit just relaxing. Mom went up to the Flea Market with Dutch for a while. However this afternoon/evening we went to a festival at one of the local Y's as my great uncle was playing in this harmonica group there. At first I was like, I can't believe I'm gonna be late getting back to campus b.c of a harmonica concert. It was interesting though. Then we all went to their house for drinks, dinner and dessert. I had a good ab workout laughing at stories that were being told and mom's side comments to things. About 9 it was time to hit the road. So I hopped in the car and came on back. Made good time. I was in my room at 1030!

There's the update that yall who read this regularly (and sometimes obsessivly) have been looking for. I'm beat and headed to bed. Have a good one!

The Ultimate Compliment

WOW! I got the best compliment in the world today!!! My cooperating tacher got a call and she had to leave school this morning for about an hour or so. She called down to the principal to let her know what was going on and just left. I was out of the room with a student when all the phone calls went down. I came back in and she told me she was leaving and just to go on with our normal morning routine. Why is that the ultimate compliment??? I've only been in this classroom a week and a half and here she is telling the principal that they don't need to get someone to come into the room as I'm there and know what I'm doing! It was a great feeling!

GC took his last exam today! Thank God he's done.....for a while. He's been so stressed out about it that he's now sick. His stressing out got me stressed out for him too. Oh well. Unfortunatly I can't spend the weekend with him like we could as he's flying to Chicago with his family to see other family this weekend. Oh well. I'll be home in less than 2 months and we'll be able to spend a lot more time together.

Well, I still need to eat dinner and get a few little things done. Catch ya later!

It's only Tuesday...

...and it's already a long week. Last night I was going to post, but I passed out at 8. I was SO tired. I love my kids, but man do they wear me out. After the weekend I had though, I needed the sleep. Sure in the long run it was good that everything happened the way it did this weekend, but boy was I a hot mess while it was all going on. Saturday night all I wanted was a hug. GC wasn't here, my twin was with her man, my "wife" was with her man in Georgetown, my brother couldn't answer his phone and my friend that was gonna let me stay had to go be a DD. It was craziness.

Tonight was parent/teacher conferences. That was a learning experience in it's own. WOW! I came home to check emails and my dad left me one. It wasn't anything that I expected to see at all. Sure it had the typical, I miss you etc. stuff, but this also included comments on how he's never seen a "young person" as well suited for their career as I am. He also said that I have talents with children that he could only dream of having and then if he did have them he wouldn't know what to do with them. I was beyond shocked.

GC has another exam tomorrow. Thank God it'll be the last one....til the end of the semester! Exam weeks are VERY difficult on him which in turn makes me crazy b.c I don't get to spend as much time wihth him as I'd like. School is more important and I just have to remind myself of that. It'll all be better once I graduate.

Well, lesson plans are a calling my name! Check ya later!

It's amazing what one comment can do...

I had a breakthrough tonight. I had a wonderful conversation with my ex, Alex. The things I'd been feeling have been lifted. Tears were shed, of course, but they were a mixture of good and bad. I feel that I'm able to move on totally in my life as far as my dating relationships are concerned. I don't have those old feelings any more.

Alex and I spoke of things that had changed in our lives...in several areas. Much of the conversation doesn't really need to have great detail spoken about it. Just know that I feel at peace now...like I have full closure on that part of my life. Will he and I talk again? Probably. I still learn from him. I still like to hear his point of view. It will be interesting to see how things play out down the road. (and no I don't mean in terms of us getting back together as that couldn't happen)

In other news...I went to the game after all tonight. Boy am I glad I did!!! We won in the last 10 seconds...33-32! It was a blast...nervewrecking, but a blast.

I love it, but.....

waking up just after 6 on Saturday morning isn't excatly my idea of fun. I love teaching. Yes at the end of the day I'm wiped out, but that doesn't mean on my one morning that I can sleep almost as late as I want that I have to wake up at 6!!!

So what do you do at 6 am when you are wide awake?? I think...and that gets me in trouble. I start questioning people's "truths" (as truth really is relative I learned about 2 years ago) I also start to think about all the things that I really should get done....not just lesson plans, but you know cleaning, dishes, sending emails...all those "fun" things. But one of the worst things to think about , and I do, is home. I was never this big on going home and being with my mom and my comforts there. Yeah I'm independant, but come on, even the most emotionless person wants to go home to their mom every once in a while. The other worst thing to think about is the past. I start to think about the shit I've gone through in the past 5 years. Even I have to take my happy mask off sometimes. Unfortunately for me during part of that time I was constantly told to think about the worst case scenario and have that in the back of my mind (just so you can be prepared for it). Up until right before my 21st birthday I didn't worry too much about the worse case scenario. Well, that person got it in my head. I do that now. Let me tell you, it sucks thinking that way. And when you are a "crier" it sucks even more! I try not to let my past affect how I think/act towards the men in my life, but it's really hard. I need to talk to GC about it. He needs to know why I do some of the things I do; why I think some of the thinks I think.

I didn't get on here to just be sad and sappy....who wants that?! I certainly don't. Who wants to read it?! I'd bet that most of you don't. I hopped onto my blog this morning to see what I ended up writing. What's on my heart; What I'm thinking; What I'm feeling. There is one thing I've felt the urge to say for sometime and I know this person has been reading my blog:
Alex...I want you to know that there is a small part of me that will always love you. You were my first love, my first bit of hope in what was going on at the time. I will never forget what you did for me during that time of hurt in my life. I also know that somewhere deep inside you is not the bitter, emotionless man that you have a tendancy to portray. You are going through a rough time right now and I'm truly sorry, one hundred times over, for using your hurt to make me feel better in recent months. You and I both know that that isn't really the person I am. I've been blessed to not go through what you are going through now, but I wish that you didn't have what is sitting in front of you on your plate. I hate how things ended with us and I wish that it never had to end that harsh. I'm sorry for being immature at times and I'm sorry for some of the thoughts that I had towards you. I feel that I want to say more to you, but I'm not sure exactly of the words to say.

This is where I end this mornings post.

Ever noticed....

How sometimes you just REALLY need your friends and/or someone to talk to. I had a night like that last night. The thing is though, no one seems to be around until you put up an away message that physically says you're crying. THEN people you've not talked to in weeks or even months leave you a message. WTF? You've not talked to me in months, I know you've been around, I'm upset and NOW you want to talk to me? I don't think so.

Yes, I appreciate the concern of those who left it last night. Really, I do. I was already asleep when it was left from everyone though....I didn't even make it to 9 last night. What happened? I think I was just so tired that every little thing was getting to me. You know, it's kind of liek a little kid. You know when kid is tired becuase they start to cry as they just can't handle being up anymore but they are fighting the sleep. I think that's all it really was.

Overall yesterday went well. In fact, it was kind of funny at the end of the day. Some of the kids had already been called to leave so the rest that were in the class were antsy and ready to leave. I went around the room and let them ask questions about me. Well I was getting the typical favorite color, favorite food, etc. Then the questions really started coming one asked if I was married, the answer of course...no, so then it was do you have any kids, no but the one that really got me was directly after that, one of my kids asked if I was available! Yes, ladies and gentlemen you heard that right. I about died. I didn't know what to say at first, but I handled it and then we left for the day.

I really have to get going, but I'm pretty sure I"ll post more later on. Have a good day!

Thought for the day....

While I had a few minutes I was piddling a bit this morning and came across an article that a friend had in her away message. The article talked about "soul mates vs. sole mates" This, though, really stuck out in my mind: When we get married for trivial reasons, we tend to get divorced for trivial reasons.

Chew on that a while! Have a great day.

"Natual Born"

No, I'm not talking physically like a natural birth, but charictaristically. After 3 days in the second grade, my teacher and I sat and talked a few minutes after school. Well, I got the, "You're a Natural Born teacher" talk today....after only 3 days!!! How exciting is that?! We have a good class of 19 kids. Sure there are issues, but over all it's a really good class. She said, I'm not worried about you one bit. Do your thing. I feel excellent reccomendations from both teachers coming in the near future!

Well, it's Wednesday which means that Pamela and I had our weekly girl time. It also means another rewrite to a song! It's been waiting to be rewritten for 2 weeks as we couldn't be together last week. So without any further ado, I give to you our version of John Mellancamp's "Hurt So Good" BTW...this is nothing against him...I went to school with his nephews. We just started singing the song one night and decided that this was the one to redo!

When I was a young girl,
Said put away those young boy dreams
Now that I’m getting older so much older
I long all those young girl days
With a boy like you
With a boy like you
Lord knows there are things we can do, baby
Just me and you
Come on and make it a

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good

You’re gonna need to be excitin’
Just tryin’ to give myself a little bit of fun, yeah
You never did like my bitin’
You make me think you are a nun
Hey baby it’s you
Come on boy now it’s you
Sink yourself right into me, baby
Let’s see what you can do

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good


I’m not talkin’ no wedding bells
I’m not making no plan for that hell
I’m not movin’ to the Dells
Maybe we could layin’ around, all day long,
Layin’ around, all day long

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good

Hurt so good
Come on baby make me hurt so good
Sometimes sex don’t feel like it should
You make me hurt so good
Hey, Hey

So there we are...Not too many lyrics to be changed this week, but we had fun and it's always a good laugh! Have a great one!

Second Grade!

Well, I enjoyed my first day in second grade today. When I got to school today, my teacher nor the principal knew that I was even coming. They were happy to see me, just not so happy with EKU. I don't blame them. I started learning a bit of what the day will be like. It's a long monring, but if you can make it to lunch, you're ok! I saw several people I knew today too. It was crazy to see kids I'd had before at different schools. I really think I'm gonna like it.

GC is doing well. He's definatly happy about the outcome of the game yesterday....I knew he would be. He's gonna see what he can do about coming to see me this weekend, but not sure as his sister wants him to go see her. I understand if he goes to see her, but there's a large part of me that wants him to spend the weekend with me, especially since until I graduate at least it's only going to be the weekends that we get to spend together anyway. Oh well, only 2 more months til I graduate!

Well, I'm wiped out. Have my lessons done and I'm ready to go for tomorrow! Night night and sweet dreams!

Why??

Why is it ok for the head of a building to loose the master key to the building without any reprocutions? I came back to school on Friday to a note left on my door about a key core change. I go downstairs pissed that it's going on in the first place, yet calmly ask at the desk, "so why did they all get changed?" The response I got, "Well there's a letter underneath your door explaining it all." HELLO my door is locked and apparently I don't have the key to be able to open it anymore?!

Why do we have pictures of Nemo on our door with our names on them?? Sure, everyone's a big fan of the movie, but why does he have to hang on my door. Who has that much time anyways?!

Why when people are drunk is it 'ok' to leave 'messages' for others who are sleeping soundly?

Why did I wake up at 8am today when I didn't even go to bed until 2 am? I HATE doing that. I've done it the past several days, except it's been more like waking up at 7.

Why when I'm packing do I think of things to pack, but don't remember to pack them. I forgot my phone charger and my video that I'm supposed to transfer my lessons to at home. Luckily I have the best mom in the world and she is going to overnight my charger tomorrow. I don't know if my phone will last until Tuesday so I may go buy a car charger as I don't have one anyway.

Why is it that 'educated' people feel the need to not spell out entire words just becuase they are posting on internet message boards. Hello, if you are trying to get published or onto a design team, don't you think it might be helpful to show that you know the language??? Also, the word AN comes before a word that starts with a vowel/vowel sound. A comes before the others. Else is spelled just like that....NOT elece!

Why do people feel the need to cut others down, but then aren't big enough to "show" their face. To my friends who leave nice messages and comments I'm sorry that you can no longer post unless you are a member. I thought things had stopped with the anonymous poster, but I was wrong. I know who this person is and this person creates drama just to create drama.

Why did I not find my ticker earlier?!?! I LOVE it! Not only does it track how many hits I get, but it tells me the exact location of where people signed on and where they got my link. It's so neat to check it out as there are people from all over the states as well as a few from outside the states that check it on a regular basis. It's pretty neat!

Ok...I'm done venting. Life is good...I start in second grade tomorrow at my new school. I'm really excited about it!

Happy Sweetest Day!!!

Today has been pretty great. I woke up and went to work. After work Pamela called on her way home from bowling and we ran and grabbed lunch together. Then I went to one of my other jobs....prolly my most favorite, recruiting for EKU, specifically for the COE. While I was there I got to talk to some of my favorite people in administration. I tell you what, I just love Dr. Aaron Thompson to pieces!!! Well, while I was rubbing elbows and kissing babies, I missed GC's phone call. That's ok. He left the world's longest vm. He just wanted to tell me what they were up to and wish me a Happy Sweetest Day. So then I walk into the building and I ended up showing a perspective student and her family my room as well as the rest of the building. They were really nice and from an area back home! Took a nap afterwards, and now I"m eating and getting ready to go to work. Not a boring day, not a thrilling day, just a good day!!

Happy Sweetest Day!!!!!

"I'm like Ronald McDonald.....

...I just love to see you smile!" Yes, this would be one of the "lines" that GC used last night when we were hanging out, but I love it! I had missed him SOOO much and he felt the same way. He came over for dinner with mom and Dutch. It was great. He was just so comfortable with them as soon as he walked in the door. What I love, he wasn't afraid to kiss me in front of them! So after dinner, we're just standing there in the kitchen kissing and talking and mom comes in and is like get out of my kitchen and go show him the rest of the place. So we do. Of course the last stop is my room where, yes, we made out some. But that wasn't the important part. Right now there is stuff all over the basement as we are looking at having to move. So in 100% honesty, the only surface to sit on is my bed. So we sit on the edge of the bed and just kinda lay back. He just sat there holding me and looking at my face and kissing my forhead. It was getting to be later than he had planned on leaving so we went upstairs and got ready for him to leave. Well, mom stood up and gave him a hug!!! In the 6 weeks that Randall lived here she never hugged him, but she gave GC a huge hug last night!!! YAY!!! So we walked out to the car and I showed him a couple cards I had designed lately and a couple layouts. He liked them. Then we went out to his car where we stood and talked for a bit and kissed a couple more times and right before he got into his car, he leaned down and kissed my forhead.

After he left, I came back in and mom was like, "He's a dollbaby. He's a keeper. I like him a lot." We talked a little bit more and I was like, "mom I think he's probably better than everyone else I've been with." She said, "yeah, there's no doubt in my mind about that."

So that was my great evening with GC. He did appologize for being a "bad" boyfriend and not seeing me more this week. I told him that I kept trying to tell myself that it he wasn't off this week and it was midterm.

Today, I'm headed back to school....I have to work at 8 so I'm not in any real rush to get back, as long as I"m back in time for work. I'm gonna run out and pick up my $$ from the store and get an oil change and all that fun "adult" stuff I'm beginning to have to do on my own. Catch yall later!

So I'm a worrier....

well, I know GC is having a really bad week. I've not hardly talked to him. The past few days I've talked to him at least like 2 minutes, but not yesterday. I can't help but worry; it's just the way I am. Can I help it that I want to see him while I"m home?! Most girls like seeing their boyfriends when they can. I know we have this "pact" that family and school is more important than each other...because, well....it is. However, I just wish that he'd even call me or message me back and say, "you know honey....I don't have much time this week. It's midterm and you know how I am about needing to study." *big sigh*

*sigh*

So I feel better tonight....Worked from 10-7 today at my happy place!! About an hour or so before I was gonna leave, my sister and noodlebutton brought me Skyline!!! I LOVE Skyline! So I ate a little bit of it and saved the rest for dinner after I came home. I talked to GC today...he's had a hard day, and really a hard weekend/beginning of the week. I"ll be able to spend a little time with him (hopefully) at least one night this week and help cheer him up. I got a call from my MK director today and she wants to hire me as her administrative assistant!! YAY for me!! I'm gonna have some money coming in once I graduate!!! I also caught up with my best friend from high school. We lost contact due to some technical difficulties...that and her dad being and ass. SO all in all, it was a good day! Tomorrow I'm gonna go to work for a bit, hopefully catch up with Linda and see my neice and even better would be if I got some GC time.

Hope yall had a good day!!!

Home....

Coming home has been pretty good so far. I went to the store and scrapped all day yesterday. It felt so good to be in my happy place again! I told Patty that I was coming home after Dec so she was very happy about that! YAY for me too b.c that means I'll have at least a little bit of $$ coming in while I"m looking for a job. I did have a rough night last night though. I came home and it was so empty. Mom stayed with Dutch last night. I tried to get ahold of GC....but nothing. We talked about 2 seconds online. He had just gotten in from wrestling practice and was going to take a shower....he said he'd call in a "lil bit". That was at 738. I never did get that phone call. I was going crazy being here all by myself. A little after 10 I decided to take a walk....Walked a decent bit, not sure exactly how far though. All I know is that I was gone til just before 11 walking. Oh well. What am I doing up?!?! I don't know...I just sat straight up....partially due to the fact I forgot to put the sleep timer on the tv last night...partially b.c I'm a worrier. (especially since he's only been idle for a little bit, under an hour)

GC is supposed to be coming to see me today as my sister wants to meet him/remember who he is. He was a sr her sophmore year of high school. I"m going to work at the store some today. Yay for a little extra cash!!!

100 Questions and Answers.....

1. Kissed your cousin? not in the way you are thinking
2. Ran away? yup....packed my suitcase a couple of times and headed off to grandma and grandpas...thank God they only lived a block away since I was only 4!
3. Pictured your crush naked? pictured isn't exactly the word for it ;)
4. Skipped school? not this semester, but yes....I LOVE "personal" days. or days when it was like, "hey it's pretty outside, I think I'm gonna skip class."
5. Broken someone's heart? I think it's a possability.
6.Been in love? for sure
7. Cried when someone died? uh yeah, I'm a crier...I cry at everything...even when I don't mean to!
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have? haven't we all??
9. Broken a bone? actually I've not...I've come woah close, but no
10. Done something embarrasing? just about everyday...it's just a matter of if someone actually sees it.
11. Done a drug? if you are counting nicotine and alcohol as drugs then yes, otherwise, no
12. Cried in school? *see answer to #7*
13. Coke or Pepsi? Coke
14. Sprite or 7UP? Whichever
15. Girls or Guys? Guy...one in particular....although, ask Pamela, she and I are married! heheheh
16. Flowers or Candy? Shouldn't a girl be spoiled and get both??
17. Scruff or Clean shaved? in the middle.
18. Blondes or Brunettes? red head all the way!
19. Too Fat or Too Skinny? what exactly is the definition of "too" ?
20. Tall or Short? I'm short.
21. Pants or Shorts? pants
22. Night or Day? for what?!?! That question leaves things WIDE open

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX.........
23. What do you notice first? smile (teeth) and then eyes
24. Last person you slow danced with? heh....slow danced....I don't remember the last time, hopefully that'll change soon.
25. Worst question to ask? "Are you sure??"
26. Showered? earlier
27. Stepped outside? just a few minutes ago when I was coming home from work.
28. Had Sex? heh.....take a wilde guess

STUFF...
30. Your Good Luck Charm: uhh...not really sure what I use.
31. Person You Hate Most: I don't know that I honestly hate anyone....but there are several people whom I STRONGLY dislike for one reason or another.
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: getting a second chance
33. On your desk: computer, senate binder, random jewelry, pen box, stapler, paper clip holder, tape dispenser (with tape), 3-hole punch, scanner, remote, cell phone, graduation info, Haitian box, sunglasses (in their case)....I think that's about it
34. Picture on your desktop: fall leaves
35. Color: blue!

FAVORITES..
36. Movie: hehe.....movies are great! I love comedies, harry potter, and "chic flicks"
37. Music artist: don't know that there is one favorite
38. Cars: I could be really sappy and say my man's...I do really like his car.
39. Ice Cream: greater's
40. Season: spring
41. Breakfast Food: breakfast casserole

WHO...
42. Makes you laugh the most: GC, he's awesome about that!!
43. Makes you smile: my friends, my mommy, GC!
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: Katie, Pamela, GC, mom
45. Has A Crush On You: I think GC might...well he did for 5 years, and now we're together
46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: see above
47. Who Has it easier? kids....oh to be a kid again!!!!
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: What kind of funny feeling?? Like that butterflies in your stomach, high school crush feeling?

DO YOU EVER...
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night:there are times I do...I try not to, so I just put the phone by my bed and if it rings I check the caller ID
50. Save MSN conversations: not MSN....but others.
51. Save E-mails: the important ones
52. Forward secret E-mails: Secret??? there are secret emails???
53. Wish you were someone else: no...I'd have someone else's problems...I'll just stick with my own.
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: not usually...although I do think it's easier to be a guy than it is a girl.
55. Wear perfume: yup...usually it's Velocity by Mary Kay.
56. Kiss: ugh....YEAH!!! Just ask GC ;)
57. Cuddle: once again, ask GC
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: my eyes would hurt.

HAVE YOU EVER...
59. Fallen for your best friend? uh huh
60. Made out with JUST a friend? yup..everyone needs some makeout time everyonce in a while
61. Kissed two people in the same day? I dont' think so....
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day? definatly not
63. Been rejected? who hasn't?
64. Been in love? sure have
65. Been in lust? yup
66. Used someone? prolly
67. Been used? heh....don't get me started
68. Cheated on someone? never would
69. Been cheated on? it's the reason I'm not married
70. Been kissed? yeah.....GC
71. Done something you regret? I try not to regret things...but it's not always easy

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched? ummm.....some kid leaned over the desk and touched me...other than that it'd prolly be Pamela
73. You talked to? Scott...online
74. You hugged? GC
75. You instant messaged? Scott
76. You kissed? GC
77. You yelled at? Tom...in a nice way as GC and I were passing the porch last night
78. You thought about? GC
79. Who text messaged you? GC
80. Who broke your heart? dumb boys....

DO YOU...
82. Color your hair? every once in a great while
83. Have tattoos? no....thought about it
84. Have piercings? ears, and belly button....used to have tongue
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yup : D GC!
86. Own a webcam? uh huh
87. Own a thong? yup
88. Ever get off the computer? uhhh yeah....
89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch? ein bischen
90. Habla espanol? not really
91. Quack? not usually....sometimes you need to in class though when you teach elementary kids

HAVE YOU / DO YOU/ ARE YOU?
92. Stolen anything: yes
93. Smoke: in the past
94. Schizophrenic: no
95. Obsessive: yes
96. Compulsive: yes
97. Obsessive compulsive: yes
98. Panic: who doesn't?
99. Anxiety: not usually
100. Depressed: heh...let's not go there


Once again, something I found from Pamela!!! Why not add silly things like this?!?! It makes life fun and interesting!

Oh What a Day!!!

WOW...Yesterday was great!!!!! Yes, I got a little teary-eyed in my classes saying goodbye...well not in all of them, but you know how that goes. One of my first grade classes even made me a book! It's so sweet....yes, I did cry when they made me read the whole thing in front of them.

And now what you all have been waiting for.....

GC!!!!!! Awww, it's perfect! It was something straight out of the movies.....*it's a warm, drizzly night* So he pulls up in front of my building. I take off for the car. He opens the door, steps out and just hugs me. Then, he kisses me and we just stand there in the rain hugging and kissing. A girl only dreams of being in a 'setting' like that. Colmon didn't get to meet him....he had a board meeting this morning. That's ok, I know he's gonna give his approval on this one. Katie met him...I've not talked to her yet, but I'm sure I will shortly. So we ran and got dinner (for me)....he didn't want to eat, but wanted to get food for me and WOULDN'T let me pay. Then we came home and just had a relaxing evening. Watched some t.v., held each other and he watched me go to sleep in his arms. It was so wonderful and worth the five year wait.

Ok....so I LOVE this quote: Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,".....that's her." GC is well on his way to being that. Not once did I hear how "hot I am", but how gorgeous and beautiful I am. I know I fell asleep before he did and I know he was watching me b.c when I was "fighting" sleep I'd open my eyes and he'd just be looking at me. Kisses on the forhead you ask?!?! ALL THE FREAKIN' TIME!! I walked out to the car with him this morning not in sweats, but with my glasses on, my hair a wreck, a black west point t-shirt and my floral pj pants and he walked proudly hand in hand with me. Haven't hung with his friends yet, so the holding hands in front of them is still pending. He did keep telling me how happy he was to be with me and that I'd never have to worry about this or that with him. As far as the last one, there again, haven't been with his friends...yet.

So yeah, girls, I've got a keeper....Sorry you didn't get him! hehehe. He's now on his way to Miami to take an exam. : ( Neither of us wanted him to leave or get up out of bed. We were just enjoying laying there talking and laughing. (and the occasional kiss)

I'm sure I'll write more later.

It's Wednesday!!!!

That means dinner and song lyrics with Pamela! At Taco Bell she and I got married tonight and had our wedding dinner of....Taco Bell. But, without further ado, I bring you the newest song from our collection:

Her name was Lola
She was a cheap whore
With yellow feathers in her hair
And a dress cut up to here
She would have sex
And then she’d give head
And While she tried to get her cash
Tony always grabbed her ass
And while she did her chore
he worked from eight to four
They were young and they had each other
Who could ask for more?

At the copa-copacabana
the hottest spot north of Havana
at the copa-copacabana
Hookin’ and blowin’ were always the passion
at the copa they faked love


His name was Rico
He wore a fur coat
He stopped there on the corner
He saw Lola dancin’ there
And when she finished
He called her over
But Rico couldn’t pay her cash
Tony beat his sorry ass
And then the cops were called
And Lola sat and balled.
There was blood and a single gunshot
But who shot who?

At the copa-copacabana
the hottest spot north of Havana
at the copa-copacabana
Hookin’ and blowin’ were always the passion
at the copa she lost her pimp.

Her name is Lola
She was a cheap whore
But that was thirty years ago
When she had nice boobs to show.
Now it’s a Drug Store
But not for Lola
Still in the dress she used to wear
Faded feathers in her hair
She stands there so uneasy
And she’s rather queasy
She lost her boobs and her Tony
Now she’s lost her job.

At the copa-copacabana
the hottest spot north of Havana
at the copa-copacabana
Hookin’ and blowin’ were always the passion
at the copa don’t be a whore!

Yay for us and our fun times together!!! I heart you Pamela.

One more day!!!!

then GC will be here with me!!! I'm SO excited, I can't wait. Oh, to be held and hugged and kissed by him.

Tomorrow though is going to be a bittersweet day. Yes, I'm TOTALLY excited about GC coming here, but tomorrow is also my last day in Winchester. I'm gonna miss my kids terribly. I'm looking forward to fall break though. Still, I never thought I'd be at this point in this placement, but I am. Kim has been great overall. Sure there were moments that I was ready to ask to be moved, but we all have those. I'm gonna miss seeing Courtney (another student teacher) almost everyday too. *sigh* tonight is gonna go SOOO slow.

Here's a little story...

a guy and a girl know each other in high school. They want to date each other, but he's with someone else that he's been dating for a long time and trying to "work things out". At her sr. prom (his jr.) she gets stood up, so he dances with her...in fact, he dances every slow song with her. The girlfriend isn't happy with him. The guy continues to call the other girl almost everyday without his girlfriend knowing. The other girls friends confront him about what he is doing. He tells her friends one story, but changes the story when the girlfriend comes to sit down. The girlfriend tries to pick a fight with the other girl about 2 weeks before graduation. The other girl doesn't want anything to do with it and walks away laughing. Almost five years after the other girl graduates high school, the guy finds her on an internet group called "the facebook." He requests to add the other girl as his friend. The other girl thinks, "sure why not...you're not gonna contact me just like all the other high school friends." The other girl is surprised when the next day she has a message from the guy. She's even more surprised when he calls her a few days later. They talk and talk and talk. Turns out he's going to be a teacher just like the other girl. He's even thought about the other girl several times since she graduated. They still have a million and a half things in common. They make each other smile and laugh. He calls and/or texts the other girl everyday. They want to start dating....


ok, are yall saying, "oh my God this is gross" yet?? "Gag me with a spoon."

No it's not the Hallmark movie of the week, it's about me and GC. How stinkin' sweet! This guy is amazing. I"ve never had anyone treat me the way GC does. He's just awesome.

Ahhhh fun times!

Well, Friday night Pamela and I ended up going out. We went to go see "Ourtown" here at Eastern...and let me tell you. IT SUCKED. "Ourtown" usually is a great show, but it wasn't Friday night. So we decided to go to O'Charley's for dinner. We got there and were just in a giggly mood. Well, then we get seated and this very tall, very hot guy turns out to be our waiter. So she and I just start flirting and goofing around....got us free drinks and soup! We'll take it. At one point in time, she had a pic of T out and he saw it and asked who it was. She was like, "my husband." He then asked how old we were. Never once did he question anything about being married. Oh well!

Yesterday was GC's sister's wedding. Didn't get to talk to him much, but duh....it's his sister's wedding. I hope if nothing else, that I get to see him this coming weekend. I'm pretty sure I will! I had the craziest dream about him last night. He told me to pick a date so I did. On that date we went out but then went to a church. When we got there all our family and friends were there waiting. He told me that we were gonna get married. Of course I started freaking out like a girl does becuase I didn't have anything for a wedding. He told me not to worry about it. I went back to the changing room and there was the most beautiful dress and someone there to do my hair and makeup. My bridesmaids were there ready and waiting to help me get ready. WOW!!! It was great! Don't know what to make of it all, but of course I'll have to tell him about it all when he calls me today.

Yesterday for me wasn't anything too special. I worked from 8a-11a and then 8p-12a. In between I slept and ate a tiny bit. While I was at work I got to catch up with Amy. I hadn't really talked to her in forever. We talked almost 3 hours...made the time go by fast!!!

Today is just gonna be lesson plans, unless GC surprises me like he threatens. (I kinda doubt it though)
Have a good one!!!

Thank you Pamela....

for the best comparison ever. "A wedding once in a life time vs. a movie that will be in the theaters for a month......or even better, my mommy whose tit I'm still sucking vs. my girlfriend whose tit I want to be sucking."

Nothing like the greatest laughs from being silly girls!!!

I love hearing

the sound of a text message being left on my phone. Typically there are only 2 people who text me; my best friend, Katie and a WONDERFUL man GC. Today I was riding around with Kim in between schools when a message came through. It was from GC. I was cheesing before I even read it. He seems to know how much it's the little things that count b.c the message said, "Hey babe. hope ur havin a good day. ttyl" That was all I needed to get through the rest of the day. No, it wasn't a bad day, but that message just made it all that much better. Knowing that he's the one making the efforts to talk to me and make sure I'm smiling and that everything is ok just makes life wonderful. I no longer have to stress about being the one to hold a relationship together. Our personalities are totally the same in that manner so it just goes back and forth.

School has been great lately. Yesterday I was in first grade ALL day! It was great, yet tiring. One of my little boys in the class who can be a pain and just down right mean came up to me and said, "Miss Katy, I'm so glad you're here today. Can I show you that 9+9 is 18 on the board?!" Well, yeah...of course you can!!!! I love that class and I'm going to have a really hard time leaving them next week. Other classes of mine won't be NEAR as difficult to leave.

In the midst of romance and school being great, friends have been too! Pamela and I went out for our weekly dinner together last night. We ended up at Applebee's. There is nothing like having a meal, drinking a beer and just talking about the men in our lives. She and I both sit in the middle of a "Hallmark story" and life is great. Tuesday night was "the best friends" game, played like "the newlyweds" game in the building where Katie is an RA. Of course we signed up to play....the only thing was...so did like 10000 other girls. We ended up not getting to be in the front on the panel, but it was fun just the same. Nicole came down and hung out with us down there while we all cut up. She brought down pics of my 'nephew', Blake! OMG SOOOOO cute!!! (but of course he is, he takes after his aunt Katy...hehehe)

I love my life right now...there aren't too many things that I can complain about. I can laugh at the bull shit that is going on in the SGA office. I have no reason to not be silly. I get to hang out with my best friends. I got to see GC soon. What's left to worry about?!?! NOTHING!!!

Oh, one last thing. I called mom today and told her my decision in regards to what I'm going to do upon graduation; I wanted her to be the first to know. So here's my decsion: I'm going to move home to look for a job. While looking for a real job and transitioning into real life, I'm going to work at the store (hopefully) and work my MK business and sub. I'm also going to look into what it's going to take to get certified in OH. I'm not going to base my decisions in life on who I'm dating. I'm going to be me and be happy with it. GC and I haven't even talked about this decision yet, so he doesn't know I'm coming home, although he'll be rather happy. He being close to home has absolutly nothing to do with my decision. Do I like the fact that he's there?! uh...DUH! But I'm not focusing on that. I'm focusing on getting my life started the way I want it and paying off some bills that I have acquired through my college experience.

So here it is....

I left Randall. I was tired of being the one trying to keep things pulled together. I was tired of being used. I was tired of it all. So, I'm done. I'm happy about the way I feel without him. Didn't think I would, but I am.

Is there another guy in the picture??? Yes. A guy from high school found me on facebook and started talking to me. We've not yet had the chance to catch up in person, but have been on the phone. It has been decided that we want to try this out and see where it goes. It's exciting... totally a Hallmark story.

School went pretty well. I never thought I'd be upset about leaving, but I think I'm REALLY gonna miss this placement. I'm finally totally comfortable with everything about it. Today was pretty good.....got cussed at by one of my first graders! GEEZ!! Who raised this kid?! At the time it wasn't funny, but actually now it's pretty commical.

Well, I'm off to sleep. I'm really tired and I'm gonna be in a different first grade class ALL DAY tomorrow.

Well girls....

I did it. I made myself happier and with less to worry about. I'm gonna wait a few days before I post all the details, but I did it. I'm happy with the decision.

Also, I actually got some scrapping done today! Only problem is...I got out my scanner and for some reason it's not working. Hopefully I'll be able to get it fixed and post my layouts.

Homecoming yesterday was a blast!!! Parade was lots of fun!!! Free beer at tailgating is ALWAYS a good time. Last but not least, we kicked Tennessee Tech's ASS!!!! 52-3!!! GO EKU!!!

A great day!

Yesterday was terriffic!! CBI got cancelled so we took the kids that we wanted to see when we wanted to see them. As we were walking into one of our schools, the cooperating teacher looks at me and goes, "I wouldn't be this cool with you if you weren't good. You ARE a teacher. Ask some of the girls that have come through before you, I can be a real bitch. However, I'm not with that way because you know what you are doing and you're good at it. The next two weeks you are going to be solo. Yeah, I want you to turn in your lessons so we have them on record, but I'm not gonna really check them." Now, that is one of the BEST feelings in the world.

As for the rest of my day, it went pretty well too. Came home and got my paycheck, debated a little financial issue in Senate, took a nap, went to work, caught up with a friend from high school who's looking at coming to visit me in the next few weeks. Life is pretty good.

Today is homcoming. Old friends, new friends, parade, tailgating, football....doesn't get much better than this!

Blown Off...

I'm tired of getting blown off by my little sister. Once again I stopped to see her as I was driving home from school. She was standing on the corner with some friends and I know she had just gotten there as I watched her walk up. I pulled over to say hi and yeah, she said hi but that was it. She acted like she barely knew who I was and was just being nice by saying hi. Well, let me tell you; it's going to be a rude wake up call when one day this girl's family isn't there for her. Family is the one thing that is relativly constant...that means you don't blow it off. After I graduate and move she's gonna wish she hadn't treated me like that when something goes wrong. A sister is supposed to be the one that stands right there next to you on your wedding day. I hate to say it, but looks like she's not. I guess she had told my mom that it was like mom and I were best friends. Well you know what?!?! Mom and I are very close...but you have to spend time and make the effort to do so to have a relationship with someone!!! UGH

YAY..

...for teachers who call you and say to meet them at one of your schools AN HOUR later that usual!! Means I don't have to teach sign class this morning!!! I'm gonna go back to bed for a bit!! WOO HOO

A-Z of me...

Thought this was cute and I'm bored, so I stole it from Pamela's my space!

A- AREA CODE YOU ARE IN RIGHT NOW: 859
B- BIRTHDAY: Feb. 13
C- CURRENT CRUSH: more, like love......RANDALL!!!!
D- FAVORITE DRINK: non-alcoholic - Mountain Dew (it's my morning coffee); alcoholic - LIT or Jose' Gold shots!!!
E- EATING CURRENTLY: Nothing, I'm typing
F- FAVORITE FOOD: mashed potatoes, steak, pasta, shrimp, lobster, chocolate
G- GO TO FOR ADVICE: Mom, Medic (my twin Katie), Pamela, Nicole, Amby and Colmon
H- CURRENT HATRED: Chosent ignorance, people on power trips
I- I THINK ABOUT: graduation, Randall, my job after school, Randall, kids
J- CURRENT JOB: Student teacher, desk worker, Mary Kay Independant Beauty Consultant
K- ANY KIDS: not yet
L- I LOVE: Randall, family, friends, scrapbooking, cuddling, hugs
M- FAVORITE MOVIE: A Walk to Remember
N- YOUR PHONE NUMBER: 859-622-****
O- OTHERWISE KNOWN AS: it really depends on who you are talking to...my best friend and I call each other twin....some people call me Miss Katy (those would be little people), I'm sure I"m known to some people as bitch
P- FAVORITE PERFUME/COLOGNE: Velocity, both for her and him
Q- A LITTLE QUIRK ABOUT YOURSELF: I have a small tendancy to be OCD....but only about certain things
R- LAST ROAD TRIP: Not recent enough....hopefully it'll be to IN soon to see a certain love of mine!!
S- DO YOU SMOKE: uhh....NO
T- FAVORITE TV SHOW: Desperate Housewives!!!, Extreme Home Makeover, Big Brother, old school Nick at Nite, Game show network....hmm, I think I LOVE Reality TV.
U- COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAR:Today is plum, marron and white stripes from Victoria's Secret
V- LAST TIME YOU WERE IN VEGAS: 5th grade
W- YOU WILL WIN AN AWARD FOR: best smile, listening
X- X-RAYS TAKEN: teeth, leg, finger, throat
Y- YOU'RE YEARNING FOR: life to start
Z- ZODIAC SIGN: Aquarius

ok....that's all for now!!!

People Never Cease to Amaze me

How is it that someone who has just started school here at EKU can come up to me and ask about emails going around about Colmon and his administration?? It's really sad that people have to bash someone that came in and got done what he said he was gonna get done. All he and Lance did was what they said that they were going to do which is why they were put in office in the first place. I'm tired of those who have authority not using it and those who don't have an ounce of authority thinking they do.

People need to look past their little bit of time and their resume and be mindful of years to come after them. Sure you want to leave your mark on the university, but don't you think is should be a good one?

P.S.

If you are a praying person, keep Randall in your prayers. He was back in the hospital again today. I hate not being able to be there with him...even if it's only just to sit and watch him sleep.

Just one more note tonight.

I'm not the bitch that I'm sure there are some people out there that think I am. I'm all talk...and I know it. I've wished to do devious, sometimes hurtful, things and can't do it. People who have hurt me....I've forgiven. People who have ignored me....I've forgiven. People who have turned my world upside down...I've forgiven. I have said in the past that I'd like to do this and that when I was hurt, upset, mistreated, what have you. I'm sure we all have. I don't truly wish harm on people.



Not sure why, but I just felt that I needed to say that.

Long Weekend

No, I don't want it to be Monday, but this weekend was the SLOWEST weekend ever. I mean, I didn't just sit here all day...I was out, but still time seemed to move so slow. I guess I should be more appreciative of this than I am. You'd think I would be since yeah, I'm ready to graduate, but don't know what's gonna happen after that afternoon. I want to stay here, but not be in school. I want to move to IN with Randall, but I don't want to be away from where my mom is with in reach. I want to be an adult...a true, bonifide adult. I want to be a wife and a mommy. I think I want to be a teacher. I don't want to live paycheck to paycheck and I don't want to be the one that brings home the bacon and cooks it too.

Mark Twain once said, "Don't let school get in the way of your education." Heh, I think there was a "Katy" in front of that. Upon some recently found information, I thought at first that maybe I should be careful as to what I say here, but I really don't think I need to be. This is a part of my education. The past 4 years have been quite that; from walking out of a home that was crumbling in front of my very eyes, to searching for "true" love, to finding those friendships that you know are gonna last over a drunken ride home. My time here at Eastern is drawing rapidly to a close. As I look back, most of my education here hasn't been in a room with four walls. It's been on the porch of my building, during campaigns, on the road to and from Virgina, in the senate, over the phone, under covers (mine and not mine) and so many other places. My education has taken me from a lost kid to a woman about ready to face the world on her own.

Obviously I've had a lot of time to think this weekend and really tonight while driving home from Nicole's after spending time with the Moose, and splattering chocolate all over the kitchen. As much as I'm frustrated with myself, I'm happy. I'm happy with whom I've become and the direction my life is headed. I'm happy with what my past has taught me, what's going on in my present (mostly) and what the future has to offer. I know that I'm loved by friends and family alike. I know that I worry too much and make myself sick over it.

Randall has applied for jobs and is hopefully getting the one he went up there for. He told me tonight that it's a traveling job...all over the country and world. As a result, it may include trips to Iraq. I was asked if I could handle that. In all reality, I can. Do I want him to go over there?? Well, it's not my first choice of places to send him, but if it's what needs to happen then it's what needs to happen. It means I go up to IN and find a job and be home when he comes home with a smile on my face and dinner on the table. I love him and want to be with him....forever. I'm willing to do what it takes. If it means being a wife of a man who travels all the time, well that's ok.

I think that's all I have to say at the moment. I wasn't totally expecting to say all of that...it just kinda happened. I'm gonna go finish lesson plans and such. Have a good one!

Bored out of my mind!!!!

WHY on Earth did I say, "sure Angie I'll pick up the 8a-11a shift that you have open." Well, I know why I did, but man is this boring. Thank God there is a computer that I can putz around on! (even though I don't think I'm supposed too....oh well.) Anway, I'm glad it's the weekend; even if I have to work for a bit. Those kids are driving me crazy!!!!! I love them dearly, but gees. 2 whole days of not getting slobbered on by H and J!!! I don't have to worry about J or R having accidents for 2 whole days!!!

Hopefully I'll get some scrapping done. I've got a few effer challenges to catch up on as well as some cards for a swap to get done. Also, found a site that has some reasonable prices....if you spend enough to compensate for their shipping costs. Even still though, with shipping, it's cheaper than most stores. Since I work at an LSS at home though, I have a hard time justifying some of the prices yet at the same time, they are cheaper than what I'd pay at the LSS in Lexington. Anyway...the site is www.createforless.com It's pretty neato!!

I have to work again tonight from 8p-12a. So I"ll prolly post again during that time. Have a great day!!

That'd be a negative....

Take that as you wish....that's all I have to say. Those that are close and know me, know what this is TRULY about.

Sick : (

Well, I called in this morning to school because I'm sick. I went to bed at like 930 last night, well layed down, finished Big Brother and passed out as soon as it was over. Anyway, slept straight through the night. Alarm went off at 6. I was kinda excited to have gotten so much sleep when I first got up. I never get 8 hours of sleep at one time!! So I get up and start to go to the shower when I feel like I'm gonna puke. I head into the bathroom, but nothing happens. I just couldn't shake the feeling. I felt a little warm to the touch, yet I was freezing. So I sat down just to see if in a few minutes it would go away. Nope, sure didn't, thought I was gonna puke even more now, and a headache was forming. So I called my supervising teacher and left a voicemail, climbed in bed and went back to bed. About 745, she calls and asks if I'm coming into school. I said, I guess you didn't get my voicemail did you? She said no, so I told her what was wrong. I hate being sick and missing school!! I always have. I went back to sleep and slept til about 1245ish. WOW...I've not gotten that much sleep almost straight through since I was like 5 months old. I'm feeling a bit better, but wondering if I want to eat or not. I'll catch yall later.

WOW!!! (a mini book is written)

That's all I can say to describe several things......

First, I'm SO excited I got to hear Randall's voice last night. I've missed him SOOOO much. For the first time this semester I really got a good night's sleep. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

Next, Last night at my Mary Kay meeting, I got to play with all the new holiday stuff. Let me tell you ladies it's awesome and you can't beat prices like these, especially when they come packaged such that you don't have to wrap them!!! Not to mention, you don't even have to leave your house to do the shopping or the pick up!!!

Third, "Anonymous" I know who you are. I deleted your comments as there is no call for that. If you have a problem with me, be man enough to confront me about it as I was woman enough to confront you. Get over yourself and grow up.

Finally, my *wonderful* ex - first things first...my world stopped revolving around you on March 2nd of 2004. I don't go seeking any information, it just shows up too me. The comments that have been deleted have nothing to do with you. I guess that is where you are referring to in the "first blog" comment you made. (not to mention those comments were put on there after I went to bed last night and this is the first chance that I have had to look at my blog.) Next, I too, have wished nothing but happiness for you and have never seeked any vengance whatsoever. I do believe however that what goes around comes around....you made your bed and have to lie in it. I'm glad that other areas in your life are successful. I'm glad that you are able to move on from this part of your "arduous" life.



As far as how today was...it was great!! I woke up in a great mood...since I talked to my honey and his phone is better (after ripping Cingular a new one) My lessons also went really well today. All in all the day has gone quickly. YAY!

*sorry for the book guys*

Greatest Lesson ever!!!

So today, I taught that lesson that I was TOTALLY stressing over. My comments from the teacher afterwards were: I don't know why you were stressing over that. It was one of the best lessons I've seen from a student teacher!!!! YAY for me! Also, in the areas of concern, she wrote in big letters NONE!! woo hooo!

In other news...well, I don't think there really is other news! Life is going pretty well!! OH! I just remembered!! Grandma and grandpa ARE NOT moving!!! Well, not out of Cincy anyway. Their favorite grandchild (me) talked them into staying....only thing is mom and I have to move out of the condo. I'd rather it be that way then for them to move though.

Ok, randomness is done for the night. Sweet dreams!

Not feeling so hot

This weekend, I've been kinda blah feeling. I can't get full when I eat and I can't seem to feel rested more than a few minutes once I go to sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me. This is craziness.

Got it done

Well, I got that damn lesson written for tomorrow....now if she just likes it will be the question. I guess I"ll have to wait til tomorrow to find out.

Frustrating Lesson

Ok...so I'm given this lesson topic yesterday and was like, I don't know what to do for it. She asks me today for it....I tell her, I've had a hell of a time trying to find something for that. She looks at me and goes this is a broad topic area, it's not that hard. I was getting so frustrated while she sat there and checked her email while I'm supposed to write this lesson plan that I have no ideas for, that when she said to me again that it was easy I looked at her and said, maybe it is when you've taught for ten years, but I've never done anything on this topic before.

Maybe I shouldn't have said it, but I was so freakin pissed at this point that I just didn't know what to do. I don't however regret saying it.

Loving LIfe

It's been a little bit of time since I could say that, but I really am loving life. I talked to my honey last night for quite some time and it was just wonderful! I can tell he's happy in IN. I can't wait til I get to see him and just hold on to him and not let go.

Teaching went well again today. It's amazing how sometimes you are harder on yourself than others. Yeah, I was happy with how my lessons went, but I was harder on myself (in my head) than my cooperating teacher was...and that's ok.

God given talent

Those are such WONDERFUL words to hear from your cooperating teacher when discussing how your lesson went today. I did a very fun lesson with my first graders. We've taught them the alphabet in sign language so today we worked on making an ABC book. Each child had a letter of the alphabet and then they drew a picture of something that began with that letter. After that they took the sign language letters that I had cut out and glued their name on the page. Later on in the week I"m going to take each child's picture of them forming the letter that they had and put it in the book before I have it laminated and bound. I'm woah excited!

Feeling Better

Even though I didn't get much sleep last night and cried all night long, I still feel better today. Yes, I was tired after only 4 hours of restless sleep. Am I less stressed, a tiny bit. Am I less depressed, I guess....I feel ok today, but I know things aren't over.

Today went quickly for the most part even though it's one of our "slower" days. I'm pretty much on top of my lessons..that's a good thing. I need to try and figure out what to teach to my 1st graders in their sign class on Tuesday.

I may post later on too....if I'm not too tired or out else where.